Venting I’d honestly die for him

[lv-nii]

Some context: my last post here was about how you get along with your sibling(s). I mentioned the cold and distant relationship I have with my older brother. Now, to make things worse, I'm living with him in his apartment because I have no other option (fleeing my country with no opportunities). With that in mind…

He's fucking unbearable. All he ever talks about is himself, all the time. No one can contradict him even if he says something completely wrong. On top of that, he's a fucking racist in public and shameless about it. At least we don't argue or fight often, but honestly, talking to him is so superficial—it's like talking to a wall. He doesn't know I'm posting this because he doesn't speak English and thinks this is just some random site (THANK GOD).

So yeah, I'm basically completely fucking alone in this. On top of it all, I have to send money to my mom (because this bastard has never helped) so she can at least buy food for the month—she's an old woman now. This whole situation makes me really sad. Having to deal with all of this on my own… I know I'm still young (19), but I feel so disconnected from everything that I don't see any fucking purpose anymore.

(My plan was to come here and get a gun once I had saved up enough.)

That's it

 

[bankai]

What's up with the title though?



It's very heartwarming that you're taking care of your mother.I hope she's all right. If you're gone, will your brother step in?

 

[lv-nii]

What's up with the title though?



It's very heartwarming that you're taking care of your mother.I hope she's all right. If you're gone, will your brother step in?

I meant it more like… I'd end up ctb because of him. Living with him is mentally draining.

Thanks for what you said about my mom. I'm doing my best, even if it feels like too much sometimes.

And no, my brother wouldn't help her.

 

[bankai]

I meant it more like… I'd end up ctb because of him. Living with him is mentally draining.

Thanks for what you said about my mom. I'm doing my best, even if it feels like too much sometimes.

And no, my brother wouldn't help her.

Ah Ok,I get it now.

i have an old mother as well. Luckily my sister will take care of her if something happened to me. Was your mother fine growing up? Did she treat you and your brother OK?

 

[StupidCat]

I feel like we're living opposite sides of the same problem.
My younger sister is currently living with me because she just wanted to.
I accepted at first because loneliness I guess. But it has become really draining.
She's immature, doesn't work, doesn't even do chores yet she expects me to do all the work and more.
Constantly bitching about how shitty the place we're living is and how nothing improves, yet she doesn't even try to improve it herself.
Just dealing with her is emotionally exhausting, she just cries and pouts whenever she doesn't like something. I'm a retard myself so I can't really pick up details yet she fails to understand because everything must revolve around her.
She may not be the reason for me to die but she certainly has helped.

 

[lv-nii]

Ah Ok,I get it now.

i have an old mother as well. Luckily my sister will take care of her if something happened to me. Was your mother fine growing up? Did she treat you and your brother OK?

Yeah, she was good to us growing up. She did what she could with what she had. My brother just… grew up selfish, I guess. He wasn't always like this, but over time, he changed a lot. She definitely doesn't deserve to be left behind now :(

 

[bankai]

Yeah, she was good to us growing up. She did what she could with what she had. My brother just… grew up selfish, I guess. He wasn't always like this, but over time, he changed a lot. She definitely doesn't deserve to be left behind now :(

Then She doesn't deserve to be mistreated or abandoned .There are, of course, terrible parents out there whose children need to get away from them as soon as they come of age.