If the only people left around you were to die off one by one, how would you cope?

[BecomingTired]

Even if one was a parent you hated for a large chunk of your life

 

[Namelesa]

It would partially be a freeing feeling to me as I would no longer be trapped by my family and could make more decisions with recovery or ctb allowing me to more easily escape my suffering and with my new freedom could maybe find new people to be with (unless new people are included in this then I would ctb as there is no reason for me to continue to live if I can't provide something to someone else). I would miss some family members tho such as my mum and the sister I live with as they have been caring to me in other areas of my life over than my suicidalness. I don't think I would care about dad that much as he is more unfriendly and can be scary.

 

[anonymouswebuser]

My aphantasia would help (or at least make me move on faster)

 

[Forever Sleep]

They have... The only person remaining is my Dad. On the one hand, I miss my dead loved ones. On the other, I only have him to hold on for now. I imagine I will be very tearful when he goes but then, I'll also feel more free to go. No strong tethers keeping me here.

How would I feel if the (suspected) narcissist who made me develop ideation to begin with went? A mixture really. They're not regularly in my life anymore but, I'd still feel relief that there was no possibility of seeing them again. Except in hell if there is one. That would be my hell. Still, I'd still get this sense that they blamed me for it- seeing as they blamed me for everything else. My preference would still be for me to die and be rid of this shit show.

 

[bigbootyboots18]

They're the only reason I'm still alive, I'd be ctb so fast. I'd also probably would not be able to cope and would react extremely recklessly

 

[Custos]

CTB

 

[Hollowman]

Ctb immediately.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Probably nothing, I haven't developed a meaningful relationship with anyone, since I was a child, even with my own parents/siblings, I would probably not really care. I have never really understood why people cry when family members died. I mean sure I understand that you will never be able to intact with them ever again, but that always seemed rather selfish, like peoples only reason for keeping others around is simply because of the benefit "You" Obtain from them. I never really understood that mindset. That's probably because I haven't ever really desired true friendship, which saved me from that mind set of relying on other for my life's fulfilment, which probably had the effect of me not caring all that much about there status, Alive or Dead.