If you die today...

[Oyoy]

What would you be proud of?

I'm proud I didn't have a baby, I don't have a criminal record despite self destructive choices, that I lived somewhere besides my home town and I never got married and divorced.

 

[WOODESITY]

I'd say i can't be proud of how i lived, but I'm glad I've realised that there is no need to continue life and to create which eliminates suffering and i think it feels right

 

[nerve]

I had a cat who died last June and when we found out his heart was failing, I promised I wouldnt leave him alone just because it was getting hard and scary to care for him. I gave him his medication, made sure he ate enough, took him outside for fresh air and exercise, and did what I could to keep the other pets from bothering him too much. There were too many feelings when he died for me to describe it coherently, but somewhere in there I felt like "I didn't let him down." I didn't fail or give up.

 

[Done at Fifty]

This is hard to answer for me. I'm not proud of almost every choice that I've made. I have a gift for putting my life in the wrong direction. Even trying to help people I often can't get it quite right and end up disappointing.

I can only say that I'm proud of always trying to be very honest and fair. It has unfortunately made me a bit of a doormat but I'm proud that I try not to sacrifice my principals even when life is too hard to live or deal with.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Hmm... I think i would be proud for surviving. And trying to be the best i can, even with all my labels and short commings. Im proud of my son, who really hit the bottom is fighting his way back. I guess I just would be proud for just being me.

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

What would you be proud of?

I'm proud I didn't have a baby, I don't have a criminal record despite self destructive choices, that I lived somewhere besides my home town and I never got married and divorced.

a couple of friends and my dogs. not much but atleast its something

 

[Luchs]

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What would you be proud of?

I'm proud I didn't have a baby, I don't have a criminal record despite self destructive choices, that I lived somewhere besides my home town and I never got married and divorced.

I wish I had something to be proud of...

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

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I wish I had something to be proud of...

be proud of getting this far, everything youve lived through, every day youve survived.

 

[Luchs]

be proud of getting this far, everything youve lived through, every day youve survived.

There still isn't anything to be proud of for me, in that thought. My life has been less of a valiant stone in the tide kind of last stand, it was more of a pathetic creature crawling from waterhole to waterhole and barely making it. Never getting enough water to feel good, just enough to make it to the next hole.

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

There still isn't anything to be proud of for me, in that thought. My life has been less of a valiant stone in the tide kind of last stand, it was more of a pathetic creature crawling from waterhole to waterhole and barely making it. Never getting enough water to feel good, just enough to make it to the next hole.

its okay man
being proud of something isnt the goal in life
there is no goal if you think about it but dont go down that path of existential crisis

 

[Luchs]

its okay man
being proud of something isnt the goal in life
there is no goal if you think about it but dont go down that path of existential crisis

It's just that I don't have anything to leave behind. I'm the last person of my bloodline that can have children, I alienated almost all of my friends, and the people that don't repress the memory of me out of discomfort will forget me when they are washed by the river of the dead. All that I have done will die with them. All that I did was make the life of almost everyone I know worse, but in the long run not even that will be remembered. I might as well have never existed. Which is an insult to my parents, as in turn everything they did ffor me was in vain. I am a fucking disappointment of the greatest fucking magnitude.

 

[Kumachan]

nothing to be proud of really, i cant even imagine being "proud" tbh

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

It's just that I don't have anything to leave behind. I'm the last person of my bloodline that can have children, I alienated almost all of my friends, and the people that don't repress the memory of me out of discomfort will forget me when they are washed by the river of the dead. All that I have done will die with them. All that I did was make the life of almost everyone I know worse, but in the long run not even that will be remembered. I might as well have never existed. Which is an insult to my parents, as in turn everything they did ffor me was in vain. I am a fucking disappointment of the greatest fucking magnitude.

you're not. you dont do things on purpose to harm people, you only want help yourself.
if you didnt exist imagine how much the world might have changed. everything you did affected something so the earth would be completely different
plus isnt life better than death, life might have pain but it has so many other things. death has nothing.

 

[Luchs]

you're not. you dont do things on purpose to harm people, you only want help yourself.
if you didnt exist imagine how much the world might have changed. everything you did affected something so the earth would be completely different
plus isnt life better than death, life might have pain but it has so many other things. death has nothing.

Honestly, I do purposely harm people, I've started to actively alienate and scare away people that are close to me. I've realized that I am justprolonging the inevitable by trying to keep them, I'll somehow chase them away anyways, I might even hurt them more if I don't get rid of them quickly.

I also live in a small town, in an unimportant province of an irrelevant country, my life hasn't had that much of an impact. The most famous person I ever closely had something to do with was my bully, who has a relative who is a renowned geneticist. My bully is the person with the biggest reach that I have ever known!

My life has nowhere to go, and is leaving nothing behind, so I might as well not be at all.

Just thanks man, for all of the talking and venting and stuff.

 

[PainfulGut]

I beat my depression when it was only the mental side, without my new physical ailments. I went to therapy and back to education and I got into university. I was doing well at university.

Then this happened, and I lose all hope that life will ever let me be normal. I know from therapy that this way of thinking is counterproductive, to believe something will be true for no reason. But I am so tired. I am so tired of struggling while watching other people cruise through life. How many years of misery and missed chances have to go by before life is no longer worth it? Are you even living if your entire life is sitting on the sidelines hoping one day to experience things everyone else considers normal, like relationships, and joy, functioning, not living in fear, work, hobbies? I am already behind. I am so bitter I will not get to experience life as it was supposed to be had. We get one life, and I was just unlucky.

 

[mattwitt]

I've made a lot of self destructive mistakes in my life that makes me a loser but I definitely should be given an award for never taking advantage of any women and never having any children.

 

[Querry1]

I tried my best to have a happy life, but in the end mental violence in home since I was very young did so much destruction that I can not revover

 

[Hollow Point]

I'm proud of the fact I always keep my word

 

[Luchs]

I can respect that.

I'm proud of the fact I always keep my word

 

[BlackPoppet]

What would you be proud of?

I'm proud I didn't have a baby, I don't have a criminal record despite self destructive choices, that I lived somewhere besides my home town and I never got married and divorced.

I'm the same as you!

 

[itsamadworld]

I am proud of never having any children, never getting into any criminal trouble (though I was close), I travelled, I served in the military transportation as a female and deployed- so I got to see stuff, I was close to getting killed ( unfortunately I survived) but thankful not to be paralyzed! .... used to be a hard worker- but I'm getting fatigued, injured, and jaded AF, avoided hard drugs- though I may drink/ smoke too much weed now, my darkside- which I'm mostly unashamed, divorced two times( at least I escaped!)....but jaded as fk, and I was naive fell for religion cuz of my sister- but at least I woke and I'm totally agnostic now.

 

[Oyoy]

I am proud of never having any children, never getting into any criminal trouble (though I was close), I travelled, I served in the military transportation as a female and deployed- so I got to see stuff, I was close to getting killed ( unfortunately I survived) but thankful not to be paralyzed! .... used to be a hard worker- but I'm getting fatigued, injured, and jaded AF, avoided hard drugs- though I may drink/ smoke too much weed now, my darkside- which I'm mostly unashamed, divorced two times( at least I escaped!)....but jaded as fk, and I was naive fell for religion cuz of my sister- but at least I woke and I'm totally agnostic now.

I admire you. From one female to another I know how brave you have been. I'm proud of you for your service and strength.

 

[mediocre]

I haven't accomplished anything so I don't have anything I'm proud of. I've just existed thought out my life. I've never felt the 'proud' feeling so don't know what it's like.

 

[BlackPoppet]

I admire you. From one female to another I know how brave you have been. I'm proud of you for your service and strength.

I second that

 

[Nem]

Hmmm I guess I'm proud I never killed anyone after my dr nearly killed me. If that's something to be proud of? The hits would've been directed and not random
Peace/hugs

 

[BlackPoppet]

Hmmm I guess I'm proud I never killed anyone after my dr nearly killed me. If that's something to be proud of? The hits would've been directed and not random
Peace/hugs

 

[itsamadworld]

Hmmm I guess I'm proud I never killed anyone after my dr nearly killed me. If that's something to be proud of? The hits would've been directed and not random
Peace/hugs

Oh, I have a hit-list too! But I won't act on it. I figure, Let those c--ts suffer with life! Wish you the best!

 

[the box is empty]

I work with this really old man who brings meal replacement drinks to work. They come in a plastic six pack ring to hold all the individual bottles together. One day he saw me pull out the plastic six pack ring from the garbage can and start cutting it up. He asked why I did that and I said it won't biodegrade and I don't want animals to get caught in them. From then on I watched him cut up his six pack ring before disposing of them.

 

[porfin1234]

The very very few times I connected students. It didn't happen often but there have been a couple that I think I helped or made connections with. Not proud just glad I did.

I am confident in my dancing but that's about it.I guess I get a sense of pride in it.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I wouldn't be proud. There's nothing to be proud of.