
BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,634
The video game is mindless and helps keep my brain from rotting - because that's a really painful, torturous feeling. I'm just too exhausted. I can do the bare minimum at home but that's it. Everything is too much and I feel even more wiped out after doing anything.
I'm on the verge of losing my job again because my depression is keeping me from being able to work. I'm dreading tomorrow because I have to work... But I haven't been able to work more than 2 hours of a workday in three or four weeks. They keep sending me home because I just can't do it.
I'm so inadequate, lazy, and pathetic. People bought me gifts for my birthday like a sketchbook, but I don't have the ability to sit up and draw right now. I can't read. All I can do is play the damn video game. This is Hell.
I'm on the verge of losing my job again because my depression is keeping me from being able to work. I'm dreading tomorrow because I have to work... But I haven't been able to work more than 2 hours of a workday in three or four weeks. They keep sending me home because I just can't do it.
I'm so inadequate, lazy, and pathetic. People bought me gifts for my birthday like a sketchbook, but I don't have the ability to sit up and draw right now. I can't read. All I can do is play the damn video game. This is Hell.