The life you once had, was it the life you wanted or like me, was it the life you knew was expected by society? Being lonely sucks, tho to me it's the lesser of the evils, better than getting it wrong again. I lost my family for speaking about my past so get where your coming from. I fully intend to end it. I just have loose ends to tie up.
.uk based here to .That your pooch? Mines the only reason I'm still here, when I think of ctb she is the only thing that stops me. Them big brown eyes don't half hit the bullseye. My girlie is a woodland moocher more than beeches. How you doing? You keeping your head above water?Only found this thread now I'm not very good at introductions but I'll try I'm from the UK and long struggled with dark thoughts and used self destructive means to manage the issues I grew up in a broken home lived in and out of the care system occasionally with other family members who I'm forever grateful to as they helped make me the person I am today, recently in the run up to Covid I began to take a bad turn and decided it was my time to CTB in the week leading upto my departure date as it were my Uncle CTB by hanging it threw a spanner in the works as even though I mentioned a bad childhood I'm still trying to do right by mum so I resolved to help support her and prepare the funeral so nearly a year later I find myself planning to CTB again only for her other brother to CTB via the same method as her older brother.
My apologies for the long winded ramble but here we are I've been treading water for roughly 3 years now so I would like to say thank you if you managed to reach this point I hope you all are having a good day and hello
.Oh no, I'm so sorry. Me n my mouth. Thats my cheeky girlie. Shes 10 now and on Arthritis meds and injections but shes still chatty n cheeky. She was a failed foster, just couldnt give her up.I'm still treading water thank you for asking I wish my Shadow was but he passed away in 2020 after 12 years of companionship, I'm happy to hear you've a dog and I bet she enjoys her woodland wanders
Awe she's adorable thank you for sharing I've taken on a couple of rescue cats I just can't think of replacing my boy, truly animals and the outdoors are some of life's real pleasures and ones I really enjoy sorry for the ramble I'll offer up one of my favourite places in the whole world as compensation.
Thank you. I have a cat as well. That photos beautiful, looks like Wales or the lakes. there's something about trees and water. Nature is therapy on another level. I'm so up and down at the moment. My mental flood defences don't seem to be adequate. You can ramble all you like
Kinda close my friend Scotland and it's ok and quite relatable the days ebb and flow like the tide just take it one day at a time we are only human.
Lol that looked to lush and green to be Scotland. Though I liked the make do n mend attitude. Learnt alot from a grumpy Scottish builder.
lol my bad I'm in line with Sky but I meant Britain is a verdant green Isle I'm based on the mainland these days I'll say that it is a fantastic little Salmon river thank you.
No it'll be me not cottoning on. I like salmon, infact I learnt to fish when I was in Scotland, (when in Rome n all that) sat dangling me rod, boat bobbing up and down. One of the most peaceful things I've ever done.
Something I used to indulge in myself although I preferred the dry fly from the bank unless I were out on the lochs for trout, I've not fished in a long time now I try just to go once or twice a year and just watch the fish rise.
Hi. Nice to meet you to. What sort of jewellery do you make?
Hi, nice to meet you. Im not a teacher but I was once every teachers nightmare.....
Hi, ive given myself until my dog is ready to shuffle off this planet. A couple more years. Its hard and I've promised her if I fail it won't be through lack of trying, but I know what her worst nightmare would be and see it as my duty to keep her safe. So what's on your list of convincing reasons to stay so far?
Hi, ive given myself until my dog is ready to shuffle off this planet. A couple more years. Its hard and I've promised her if I fail it won't be through lack of trying, but I know what her worst nightmare would be and see it as my duty to keep her safe. So what's on your list of convincing reasons to stay so far?
Beautiful photos. You clearly enjoy photography. My first time out boat fishing has imprinted in my mind, it was thick snow lying and the sea was calm, when the little boat stopped and bobbed lazily, I dangled my line, then looked around me, the land was white, there were small cars,people and animals going about their day, no fish biting, but I just remember feeling this extremely, peaceful detachment from life and its problems. Fly fishing looks fiddly to me? Hope your well as can be?
Likewise my friend in regards to be well.
Hi silly question but how old is he? Could he be having some kind of midlife crisis? From what you've just said he sounds unsure of what he wants and appears to be sending mixed messages. You know what you want so the problems his and he needs to pull his socks up and stop being so flakey. Sorry if I'm sounding unsympathetic towards him, I just dont get why people cant say what they mean.It's not like you've changed over night have you? Is there anything you can put your finger on? You need to tell him it's having a detrimental effect on your mental health and you have to protect yourself. If he has a problem or he feels you've done something then get it out in the open. Limbo is an awful place to be. And good for you for speaking up. I'm 60 and have similar urges as you. It doesn't take much to push us closer to edge.x
One person knows that they are putting me through and they think the same. Im probably being over paranoid, but I odnt want to put lots of stuff on here with details just incase they come looking and find me on here. Is that silly? They know that I'm going to therapy, whatever the outcome is I have had enough, life is so bloody hard and I just don't have the energy for it.
