Story Introduction post + CTB plan

[LastOrder]

Hi, unfortunatly a long time lurker finally decided to make an account.
I just turned 24 which also marks 10 years of depressions and CTB urges and attempts. its been a while since ive tried to CTB but this time i want to use the SN method. I am pro choice which also means i want to decide what i do with mine. I really gave it a fair shot, i tried the medications, several therapies and admission and when after all that its still no better, i believe its time for me to accept that. I want to leave in a few months, i still have a few things i need to do and i need to make sure i dont fail this time.

I know ways to get certain supplies arent allowed to be discussed here, can someone tell me how i DM someone?

 

[hodbu]

Hello LastOrder. I believe you can DM someone by clicking on their profile and "start a chat" after you follow them. Someone can please correct me if I'm wrong as I'm new to the site.

I just want to leave a message of support as I fully believe in pro choice in everything involving one's life. Like you, I have also been depressed for a very long time and tried things and decide that I want to go in a few months. I am so scared of pain and failing so I've also been looking for ways to obtain resources to make it an easier leave.

 

[StandardOtter]

Every time I click on someone's profile I get the message

You do not have permission to view this page or perform this action.

I assumed it was because I'm a new member but do you not have this problem hodbu?

I'm in the same boat as both of you. I've genuinely given recovery my best but at some point even the most optimistic person would have to accept that it's not working.

 

[LastOrder]

Every time I click on someone's profile I get the message



I assumed it was because I'm a new member but do you not have this problem hodbu?

I'm in the same boat as both of you. I've genuinely given recovery my best but at some point even the most optimistic person would have to accept that it's not working.

Yes i have this problem too. and im sorry that both of you are also experiencing a long time of dread we're here for you too

 

[hodbu]

Every time I click on someone's profile I get the message



I assumed it was because I'm a new member but do you not have this problem hodbu?

I'm in the same boat as both of you. I've genuinely given recovery my best but at some point even the most optimistic person would have to accept that it's not working.

Oh maybe I'm doing it incorrectly as I'm accessing the site on my phone. I tried to DM a few people asking where they obtained their source and if any replies I will let you know that my DM worked. And also DM you the information should you desire.

It's so horrible that the world doesn't give us a choice of how we are born, to whom and where we are born, and yet prevents us from just saying that we have lived enough and wish to move on.

 

[LastOrder]

Oh maybe I'm doing it incorrectly as I'm accessing the site on my phone. I tried to DM a few people asking where they obtained their source and if any replies I will let you know that my DM worked. And also DM you the information should you desire.

It's so horrible that the world doesn't give us a choice of how we are born, to whom and where we are born, and yet prevents us from just saying that we have lived enough and wish to move on.

Id like to know to if you can find a source, stay strong x

 

[StandardOtter]

Oh maybe I'm doing it incorrectly as I'm accessing the site on my phone. I tried to DM a few people asking where they obtained their source and if any replies I will let you know that my DM worked. And also DM you the information should you desire.

It's so horrible that the world doesn't give us a choice of how we are born, to whom and where we are born, and yet prevents us from just saying that we have lived enough and wish to move on.

Yes i have this problem too. and im sorry that both of you are also experiencing a long time of dread we're here for you too

Thank you both, and yes please share any info you find. I will do the same, though I don't work fast.

My interface has suddenly changed and now I can view profile's, so it probably just takes a few posts. I think you both have it set to not allow access though, so I won't be able to message you at the moment.

 

[Torch]

Hi, unfortunatly a long time lurker finally decided to make an account.
I just turned 24 which also marks 10 years of depressions and CTB urges and attempts. its been a while since ive tried to CTB but this time i want to use the SN method. I am pro choice which also means i want to decide what i do with mine. I really gave it a fair shot, i tried the medications, several therapies and admission and when after all that its still no better, i believe its time for me to accept that. I want to leave in a few months, i still have a few things i need to do and i need to make sure i dont fail this time.

I know ways to get certain supplies arent allowed to be discussed here, can someone tell me how i DM someone?

Welcome! Many of us are in the same boat, we tried the bs the pro-lifers forced on us, we gave life a fair shot, it didn't work. I think at 15~ posts you can PM. Best wishes, Torch.

 

[LastOrder]

Welcome! Many of us are in the same boat, we tried the bs the pro-lifers forced on us, we gave life a fair shot, it didn't work. I think at 15~ posts you can PM. Best wishes, Torch.

thanks for letting us know, and im sorry youre also dealing with this

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound very tiring what you've been through and like you've suffered a lot, life really is so unnecessarily cruel. I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[hodbu]

Hi, unfortunatly a long time lurker finally decided to make an account.
I just turned 24 which also marks 10 years of depressions and CTB urges and attempts. its been a while since ive tried to CTB but this time i want to use the SN method. I am pro choice which also means i want to decide what i do with mine. I really gave it a fair shot, i tried the medications, several therapies and admission and when after all that its still no better, i believe its time for me to accept that. I want to leave in a few months, i still have a few things i need to do and i need to make sure i dont fail this time.

I know ways to get certain supplies arent allowed to be discussed here, can someone tell me how i DM someone?

I got the website where you can buy SN from in the US. I can't DM you - it seems you also need to reach 15 comments, so afterwards please feel free to DM me for it!

 

[LastOrder]

I got the website where you can buy SN from in the US. I can't DM you - it seems you also need to reach 15 comments, so afterwards please feel free to DM me for it!

okay thanks, ill probably message you somewhere the next few days then. I live in europe tho, so idk if that would still be a good source