Story Is it nearly time?

[MsMaudlin]

For a while I have planned to CTB and I decided this Tuesday would be the day.
Everything is planned and arranged.
But then now 1% of my brain is thinking "no, your family needs you"
Do I be selfish, just as they have been repeatedly over the years and do it anyway?
I have physical health problems (which are getting worse), stuck in the house, house is a mess etc, that's why I want to go.
My head is all over the place

❤

 

[Rational man]

i can identity with the physical pain, its awful. I have no family to think about so my journey is very alone.

 

[Pluto]

It might be best to give yourself a bit more time since there's some uncertainty. Maybe a house cleaning day?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you have to endure so much suffering. I understand that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. This life really is so tiring and I understand the feeling of wanting to escape from this life. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[lostmyacc]

My rational is that it is a very selfish world.
I am going to allow myself to take one act of being selfish, it may make me bad and people maybe sad but i will be glad.

If you try deep enough you can justify almost anything, the 'selfish or not' question will always be unique to you and pretty much inherently linked to circumstances.


Only you can really decide this. For me you are not Selfish.

This is an outside perspective looking inwards knowing how much pain and suffering there is.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Only you can decide if it is time.

 

[8evergo]

i am physically ill want to go soon just looking for a suitable ctb person to go with,

My rational is that it is a very selfish world.
I am going to allow myself to take one act of being selfish, it may make me bad and people maybe sad but i will be glad.

If you try deep enough you can justify almost anything, the 'selfish or not' question will always be unique to you and pretty much inherently linked to circumstances.


Only you can really decide this. For me you are not Selfish.

This is an outside perspective looking inwards knowing how much pain and suffering there is.

Yes, the world is selfish, so am I, if I notice that it's not to me then I'll never be, because the way you scream in the forest, that's how it comes back

 

[Seeking_Peace]

You're not being selfish. It's 'your life' your decision. You don't control your family members lives nor should they control yours.

 

[8evergo]

yeahhh you right