Help Is SN peaceful?

[sillyprincessmeow]

I just wanna know because my entire plan with it is to go somewhere remote and drink it under a bridge, like I've told y'all before, that's my plan and I'm dead set on it now. I just wanted to know if it was gonna be painful? Should I pack a comfort bag to go with? I'll probably bring my bunny, it's a stuffed animal, but it's the only friend that I've had for so long. That probably sounds so childish and idiotic, what woman would befriend a animal?
lol its cause thats just who i am.
i miss my mister.
im gonna miss everyone but this pain is not worth it

 

[itsoverforme303]

I had a frog plush but I had to leave it behind when I moved. I wish I had him to hug.

 

[sillyprincessmeow]

I had a frog plush but I had to leave it behind when I moved. I wish I had him to hug.

I can never let go of any of the things that I have, I had so many stuffed animals and when my house flooded I literally kept everything and it's all rotting in storage right now. I'm a hoarder. I'm just so filthy.

I wish that you could find a very cute little frog plush again, though. Search for him, I search for new friends everywhere. Me personally, stuffed animals are really the only thing that bring me comfort which really sucks.

 

[Vorty30]

I had a frog plush but I had to leave it behind when I moved. I wish I had him to hug.

I think this is the most wholesome thing I read in a while.

 

[Tord]

SN is something that needs time to develop the damage inside of the body, so one would want to be not discovered for as long as possible if they use it to ctb. So whatever helps someone to stay in place and hold through possible ''SN wretching'' as I like to call it, is okay.

Speaking of wretching, that is one of the main symptoms after drinking SN. It depends on how comfortable you are with feeling like you could throw up. It seems it's sort of different for everyone? I drank a lot of alcohol in my youth so I'm used to severe nausea for example. But yes. If you don't mind that, then....

SN is relatively humane compared to a LOT of other popular methods even if it does have a few flaws, I can tell you that. But I don't remember the rest of possible symptoms that could make you uncomfortable. Various SN threads talk about them so don't take only my word. But it definitely is peaceful compared to how other poisons can make you feel like you are being ripped apart, SN doesn't do that.

May you find peace, either way you end up going.

 

[unluckysadness]

Drinking it under a bridge does not sound a good option to me, as you will probably vomit a lot, and people could hear you and see you and try to help you. Going to an hotel seems a better option if you can afford it. Hugs to you

 

[sillyprincessmeow]

Drinking it under a bridge does not sound a good option to me, as you will probably vomit a lot, and people could hear you and see you and try to help you. Going to an hotel seems a better option if you can afford it. Hugs to you

I don't wanna go to a hotel because I don't want anybody to find me, I want to be missing as long as possible, and if I am eventually found, I don't really want people thinking that I did it to myself. I just wanna find a desolate area because I'm in love with nature.

If I could fly home to Minnesota and do it there, I certainly would, but I've nowhere to live up there, and that would only prolong it, I don't really know what I want.

I guess I just don't want people feeling bad that I did it to myself, I don't want my mom to feel that fault or my dad, i've been pretty checked out of their lives, so I don't want them feeling like they could've done something more for me. They really mentally ill so I don't want them to kill themselves because I'm gone.

 

[fedup1982]

I'm sorry about how you're feeling and that you miss your sister!

I'm sorry to have to tell you this but the jury is out on SN. Some people say it's fairly peacefulish, some say it's not. Personally I'm too afraid to use it cos of the occasional bad reports saying the breathlessness is too bad. And I've experienced awful breathlessness before so I can imagine how bad it could get. Personally, I've decided not to use SN for this reason unless things get REALLY bad like I get cancer and am I physical agony. No amount of mental suffering would make me do it.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know how horrible it is wanting to die and struggling to find a way out of hell. I hope that you find peace, however that happens, either CTB or weathering it out and letting your mind and body adapt to what your life is putting you through. It's taken me years but having exhausted all options for CTB I'm finally coming to terms with having to mentally adapt to everything, so it is possible but you have to be ready, willing and able to change your mindset. It's sad because I know where you're coming from, I've been there, so I can imagine you might feel like this for at least a few months. But no matter what, get help for how you're feeling, because CTB might not work out, and it's always good to have a backup plan.

My thoughts are with you

 

[unluckysadness]

I don't wanna go to a hotel because I don't want anybody to find me, I want to be missing as long as possible, and if I am eventually found, I don't really want people thinking that I did it to myself. I just wanna find a desolate area because I'm in love with nature.

If I could fly home to Minnesota and do it there, I certainly would, but I've nowhere to live up there, and that would only prolong it, I don't really know what I want.

I guess I just don't want people feeling bad that I did it to myself, I don't want my mom to feel that fault or my dad, i've been pretty checked out of their lives, so I don't want them feeling like they could've done something more for me. They really mentally ill so I don't want them to kill themselves because I'm gone.

You seem to be completely lost and I'm really sorry to hear that Just know that someone will find your body sooner or later, and police will ask for an autopsy, so your family will be aware of your suicide with SN. It's not that easy to just disappear in nature. Your family will be devastated. It's part of suicide and we must all accept it on this forum. That's why CTB must be well thought out and planned as much as possible. You seem to be very young. I wish you the peace you deserve. But please take care with methods

 

[rekt]

You seem to be completely lost and I'm really sorry to hear that Just know that someone will find your body sooner or later, and police will ask for an autopsy, so your family will be aware of your suicide with SN. It's not that easy to just disappear in nature. Your family will be devastated. It's part of suicide and we must all accept it on this forum. That's why CTB must be well thought out and planned as much as possible. You seem to be very young. I wish you the peace you deserve. But please take care with methods

I wonder if your body is not found until a month after you CTB would police still ask for an autopsy? I mean performing an autopsy on a cadaver at that stage of decomposition would seem quite pointless. If you CTB outside in the woods, your body will decompose very fast with help from the ants, maggots, and other wild animals.

 

[unluckysadness]

I wonder if your body is not found until a month after you CTB would police still ask for an autopsy? I mean performing an autopsy on a cadaver at that stage of decomposition would seem quite pointless. If you CTB outside in the woods, your body will decompose very fast with help from the ants, maggots, and other wild animals.

It makes sense. I didn't think about it as it's not my plan (I want to do it at home)

 

[rekt]

The PPH states that Exit have 40 eyewitness accounts of suicides from SN with video footage, and they were all described as relatively peaceful.

I know there are anecdotes about SN death being painful, but IMO those cases are most likely because the person didn't follow the protocol correctly.

I would say that *if* you follow protocol correctly as per the PPH, you may have a chance at a "relatively" peaceful death. The more you stray from the protocol, the more likely it is to be a painful and unpleasant death.