Is wanting to die logical or emotional for you?

[Moniker]

I was about nine or ten when I first thought about death. It was pretty much entirely emotional thoughts for most of my life. However, when I was around twenty, a creator I followed at the time put forth this argument: by ending your life, you deprive oneself of future enjoyment. Therefore, it is morally wrong to end your life.

I'm sure most of us don't agree with that - I didn't. Afrer hearing that, I became kind of obsessive over finding out if there was a good argument to be made for not killing yourself. Years later, I still don't think there is. In fact, the more I thought about it, I'd be saving myself a lot of trouble if I went through with my plans.

Anyway, that's all to say that it's logical. I have good days in the same way you said you do. I think emotional highs are the only reason one could opt to stay alive. The world and life as a whole are really awful and it's difficult to argue around that.

 

[Broken247]

Emotional. I'm a very emotional person. I don't reason very well. I'm too dumb to reason it out. Being stupid is all I can do.

 

[nomoredolor]

My wanting to die is firmly grounded in logic but is often fueled by emotion. I will die by my own hand, alone. However the timing will be when I cannot take any more emotionally. Which feels like now but I attempted recently and I'm trying to stay alive longer for my family. I do hope to live long enough for my parents to pass first if possible. Just to spare them.
Anna

 

[Spazsticatednoodle]

I know people whose desire to die seems to wax and wane like the moon. Like an emotional/mood thing. It's not something I can relate to.
It's never felt like that for me.
It's always felt constant. Like a backing track forever playing.
Even when I'm having a 'good day' I can logically see that this is unsustainable long term and so it always makes sense to die. I've never seen the logic in holding on just for the rare highs in life.
Can anyone relate to this?

Definitely Logical for me life is meaningless in the end you'll die and everyone you know will die it will all be for nothing everything you see around you will at some point not be a thing anymore every concept everything good in life will all be gone

And Also the fact that life is mostly shitty with a little good in it

 

[not fond of it]

It likely started out as emotional years ago, but I have since built a logical framework out of it. In fact, my emotions now are holding me back from it more than anything. The shame I feel for what I am going to be doing to my loved ones has brought the sharpest agony that thinking has ever caused me.

 

[.twilight.girl.]

I feel this way as well, and it was a recent awakening. My bipolar makes me confused on who I am as a person, if I am actually happy or if I'm dreadful.
I am known for being pretty upbeat, but god it's so untrue. I feel so fake when I'm at work and people are enjoying being around me, or when I make someone laugh. Cause, on my way home I feel so much guilt like I'm lying to all of these people. This alone makes me feel justified in my choice.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I feel this way as well, and it was a recent awakening. My bipolar makes me confused on who I am as a person, if I am actually happy or if I'm dreadful.
I am known for being pretty upbeat, but god it's so untrue. I feel so fake when I'm at work and people are enjoying being around me, or when I make someone laugh. Cause, on my way home I feel so much guilt like I'm lying to all of these people. This alone makes me feel justified in my choice.

I hear you. I can be life and soul, quite vivacious. Or I can be introverted AF.
Fear of pain/fucking up are why I don't do it.

The man I love (whom I've never met) and I recently disagreed on assisted suicide. I could not understand why he would not want that option for both himself and others when he also often wants to end his life. The difference i observe is that the depth of this desire seems to vary from day to day. Mood. Sometimes he feels less inclined to.

For me it's a constant. My unwillingness is pure lack of means/unwillingness to risk failing. I really think if there was a button/a pill/whatever we would completely overwhelm supply . A tidal wave waiting to relieve itself upon the shore of death.

 

[valium]

there are definitely many logical components to it for me but i have to say that emotion fuels it a lot. i wish i could think and act more logically in general, the emotional side paradoxically fuels my will to CTB but also inhibits it at the same time :(