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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
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My body feels like shit. I live the same unemployed day over and over again. I have no desire to talk to anyone. I only go outside when I can afford to go to the grocery store. I eat and drink junk food galore. I live like a hermit (not for religious reasons tho ew)……and when I sit to myself and I think about all of this shit, it feels good.

It feels good that my life as I been trained and led to believe, is so lackluster and worthless. It feels good knowing I dont want to comeback from this. I want the same boring day until I kill myself.

It feels good to know I dont have to lie to myself anymore.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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That's good if you don't lie with yourself. It's my case too. I live like a hermit too. I'll soon be free if everything goes well. So tired with all this suffering. I hope you'll find peace 🙏
 
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starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
188
That's good if you don't lie with yourself. It's my case too. I live like a hermit too. I'll soon be free if everything goes well. So tired with all this suffering. I hope you'll find peace 🙏
hope you find yours too <3
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
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It's so much better than desperately clinging to hope that life can get better. Or relentlessly reaching for "success" and happiness. I will use your mindset today in my worthless unemployed lonely day. I'm glad you're able to feel good about it.
 
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starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
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It's so much better than desperately clinging to hope that life can get better. Or relentlessly reaching for "success" and happiness. I will use your mindset today in my worthless unemployed lonely day. I'm glad you're able to feel good about it.
Yea i had that mindset fresh off of being fired and being on unemployment. Year of useless living and a few attempts later, I realized this shit isnt really worth it. The work I tried to put in got me nowhere, and I refuse to keep running like a hamster on a wheel that's destined to fall off. No more false hope for me. Time to live in my truth, and that truth is I want to die. Idc how more terrible or great my life becomes.
 
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kunikuzushi

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Jan 24, 2023
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Yea i had that mindset fresh off of being fired and being on unemployment. Year of useless living and a few attempts later, I realized this shit isnt really worth it. The work I tried to put in got me nowhere, and I refuse to keep running like a hamster on a wheel that's destined to fall off. No more false hope for me. Time to live in my truth, and that truth is I want to die. Idc how more terrible or great my life becomes.
I've been living the same day over and over for 7 years. But every once in a while I go insane and try to fix my life. All for nothing. It just keeps falling apart and getting so much worse.
I'm inspired by your mindset because I just want to focus on what I truly want, which is to die. It feels very freeing. I wish you peace as soon as possible.
 
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starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
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I've been living the same day over and over for 7 years. But every once in a while I go insane and try to fix my life. All for nothing. It just keeps falling apart and getting so much worse.
I'm inspired by your mindset because I just want to focus on what I truly want, which is to die. It feels very freeing. I wish you peace as soon as possible.
i wish you peace as well <3
 

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