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Xiaomi

Gone.
Aug 8, 2020
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I shall jump to my death 4 months from now and am warming myself up. Just want to share what I've learned if some of you plan to use this method.

Pros:
+ If done correctly, spinal cord will be severed or brain will be destroyed on impact resulting in a peaceful death
+ Requires nothing and is a "free" method, anyone can do it
+ Chance of survival is extremely slim. In rare cases people ended up vegetables but still passed away

Cons:
- Accidentally hitting someone (avoid this by surveying the surroundings or choosing a less busier time)
- A closed casket funeral
- Public death (chances are you'll end up on social media and some bystanders might be traumatized so location is important); but who gives a shit anyway
- Police might interfere if you hesitate, turning it into a hostage situation

Tips:
× In order to combat SI, numb yourself with sleeping pills/drowsy meds
× Position yourself to land on your back or head
× Count to 3, Jump on 2. Fool your SI.
× According to the wiki, alcohol beforehand is not advisable since it relaxes the muscles. Relaxed muscles protect internal organs
× Fifty percent of people who fall four to five stories die. By the time you reach 10 or 11 stories, just about everyone dies
× From a height of 30m there is a 90% probability of death
× Practice jumping in your pool or a trampoline
× Optimal Height is 100m over concrete, 200m over water

Best Locations:
Golden Gate (98% of jumpers die)
Beachy Head
A 10th floor balcony or fire exit
Some carpark
Yangtze River Bridge
Cairo Tower
Your workplace (if fed up with employer)
The Gap, Australia
A volcano, I've seen some craters without barriers installed

CRAZY ALTERNATIVES:
$ Plan a balloon ride, then jump off as you reach the top
$ Plan a solo skydive (requires a license), then "forget" to activate your chute
$ Drive your car off a cliff
$ For student pilots, you may try to jump off your trainer plane during your solo flight (yes, someone succeeded using this method)

I shall add more stuff after I've researched more.

Thanks for reading.
 
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Adamsnolife

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I've heard mainly every one dies at Beachy Head at the right spot. I have read a few surviving but that's it at best.

Wouldn't do volcano as that would hurt like hell
 
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Xiaomi

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I've heard mainly every one dies at Beachy Head at the right spot. I have read a few surviving but that's it at best.

Wouldn't do volcano as that would hurt like hell
Yes. A jump from Beachy Head would be surreal. Imagine jumping off at dawn, seeing the beautiful sun rise.

Volcanoes would work if you prefer a more "poetic" death. And you'll become an instant celebrity.
 
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Adamsnolife

Adamsnolife

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May 5, 2020
395
Yes. A jump from Beachy Head would be surreal. Imagine jumping off at dawn, seeing the beautiful sun rise.

Volcanoes would work if you prefer a more "poetic" death. And you'll become an instant celebrity.
I'll be jumping off beachy head when the time is right
 
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Futile

Futile

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Sep 3, 2020
499
Thank you for this guide, I too was thinking of dying by jumping.

Only one question: how do I make sure to land on my head?
 
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Xiaomi

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Aug 8, 2020
484
Thank you for this guide, I too was thinking of dying by jumping.

Only one question: how do I make sure to land on my head?
Like how pro divers enter a pool headfirst (launch yourself) or if you're feeling brave, you may dive backwards and hit the back of your head.



Also, RIP 9/11 Victims. There were plenty of jumpers that day (though it's because they had no other choice). There's footage of that too.
 
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iftheworldwasending

iftheworldwasending

My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
Sep 26, 2020
131
thank you so much for posting this. it helped a lot.
 
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cap

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Oct 19, 2018
48
Damn balloon ride would be sick af
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

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Apr 7, 2019
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Jumpity jump :)
Damn balloon ride would be sick af

The sickest thing I have ever seen is that man in a motorcycle jacket from documentary The Bridge who just climbed the railing and calmly did a backflip from 72 meters
 
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underthegun

New Member
Oct 17, 2020
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I shall jump to my death 4 months from now and am warming myself up. Just want to share what I've learned if some of you plan to use this method.

Pros:
+ If done correctly, spinal cord will be severed or brain will be destroyed on impact resulting in a peaceful death
+ Requires nothing and is a "free" method, anyone can do it
+ Chance of survival is extremely slim. In rare cases people ended up vegetables but still passed away

Cons:
- Accidentally hitting someone (avoid this by surveying the surroundings or choosing a less busier time)
- A closed casket funeral
- Public death (chances are you'll end up on social media and some bystanders might be traumatized so location is important); but who gives a shit anyway
- Police might interfere if you hesitate, turning it into a hostage situation

Tips:
× In order to combat SI, numb yourself with sleeping pills/drowsy meds
× Position yourself to land on your back or head
× Count to 3, Jump on 2. Fool your SI.
× According to the wiki, alcohol beforehand is not advisable since it relaxes the muscles. Relaxed muscles protect internal organs
× Fifty percent of people who fall four to five stories die. By the time you reach 10 or 11 stories, just about everyone dies
× From a height of 30m there is a 90% probability of death
× Practice jumping in your pool or a trampoline
× Optimal Height is 100m over concrete, 200m over water

Best Locations:
Golden Gate (98% of jumpers die)
Beachy Head
A 10th floor balcony or fire exit
Some carpark
Yangtze River Bridge
Cairo Tower
Your workplace (if fed up with employer)
The Gap, Australia
A volcano, I've seen some craters without barriers installed

CRAZY ALTERNATIVES:
$ Plan a balloon ride, then jump off as you reach the top
$ Plan a solo skydive (requires a license), then "forget" to activate your chute
$ Drive your car off a cliff
$ For student pilots, you may try to jump off your trainer plane during your solo flight (yes, someone succeeded using this method)

I shall add more stuff after I've researched more.

Thanks for reading.
Hi I'm just wondering if jumping off a bridge I live near(148ft above water) and still at least 125ft over the land part of it would do the trick
, it's equivalent to around 15 stories of a building although it's into water. I know to land head first but is there any chance of surviving, and should I jump into the water or onto the land part of it(which is mostly grass but some concrete).
 
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Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
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I shall jump to my death 4 months from now and am warming myself up. Just want to share what I've learned if some of you plan to use this method.

Pros:
+ If done correctly, spinal cord will be severed or brain will be destroyed on impact resulting in a peaceful death
+ Requires nothing and is a "free" method, anyone can do it
+ Chance of survival is extremely slim. In rare cases people ended up vegetables but still passed away

Cons:
- Accidentally hitting someone (avoid this by surveying the surroundings or choosing a less busier time)
- A closed casket funeral
- Public death (chances are you'll end up on social media and some bystanders might be traumatized so location is important); but who gives a shit anyway
- Police might interfere if you hesitate, turning it into a hostage situation

Tips:
× In order to combat SI, numb yourself with sleeping pills/drowsy meds
× Position yourself to land on your back or head
× Count to 3, Jump on 2. Fool your SI.
× According to the wiki, alcohol beforehand is not advisable since it relaxes the muscles. Relaxed muscles protect internal organs
× Fifty percent of people who fall four to five stories die. By the time you reach 10 or 11 stories, just about everyone dies
× From a height of 30m there is a 90% probability of death
× Practice jumping in your pool or a trampoline
× Optimal Height is 100m over concrete, 200m over water

Best Locations:
Golden Gate (98% of jumpers die)
Beachy Head
A 10th floor balcony or fire exit
Some carpark
Yangtze River Bridge
Cairo Tower
Your workplace (if fed up with employer)
The Gap, Australia
A volcano, I've seen some craters without barriers installed

CRAZY ALTERNATIVES:
$ Plan a balloon ride, then jump off as you reach the top
$ Plan a solo skydive (requires a license), then "forget" to activate your chute
$ Drive your car off a cliff
$ For student pilots, you may try to jump off your trainer plane during your solo flight (yes, someone succeeded using this method)

I shall add more stuff after I've researched more.

Thanks for reading.
Are you near the golden bridge? They have placed nets to prevent people from falling.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
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I shall jump to my death 4 months from now and am warming myself up. Just want to share what I've learned if some of you plan to use this method.

Pros:
+ If done correctly, spinal cord will be severed or brain will be destroyed on impact resulting in a peaceful death
+ Requires nothing and is a "free" method, anyone can do it
+ Chance of survival is extremely slim. In rare cases people ended up vegetables but still passed away

Cons:
- Accidentally hitting someone (avoid this by surveying the surroundings or choosing a less busier time)
- A closed casket funeral
- Public death (chances are you'll end up on social media and some bystanders might be traumatized so location is important); but who gives a shit anyway
- Police might interfere if you hesitate, turning it into a hostage situation

Tips:
× In order to combat SI, numb yourself with sleeping pills/drowsy meds
× Position yourself to land on your back or head
× Count to 3, Jump on 2. Fool your SI.
× According to the wiki, alcohol beforehand is not advisable since it relaxes the muscles. Relaxed muscles protect internal organs
× Fifty percent of people who fall four to five stories die. By the time you reach 10 or 11 stories, just about everyone dies
× From a height of 30m there is a 90% probability of death
× Practice jumping in your pool or a trampoline
× Optimal Height is 100m over concrete, 200m over water

Best Locations:
Golden Gate (98% of jumpers die)
Beachy Head
A 10th floor balcony or fire exit
Some carpark
Yangtze River Bridge
Cairo Tower
Your workplace (if fed up with employer)
The Gap, Australia
A volcano, I've seen some craters without barriers installed

CRAZY ALTERNATIVES:
$ Plan a balloon ride, then jump off as you reach the top
$ Plan a solo skydive (requires a license), then "forget" to activate your chute
$ Drive your car off a cliff
$ For student pilots, you may try to jump off your trainer plane during your solo flight (yes, someone succeeded using this method)

I shall add more stuff after I've researched more.

Thanks for reading.
it's probably not a good idea to drive your car off a cliff as it's built to absorb damage and may save your life.
 
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underthegun

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Oct 17, 2020
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Are you near the golden bridge? They have placed nets to prevent people from falling.
No I'm in the UK I've drove over the bridge I'm planning to jump from before and the fence is not that tall, so easy to climb over and jump, just don't know whether 148ft is enough for jumping into water or whether I should jump onto the land which is about 125-130ft still.
 
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Caspers

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Hi I'm just wondering if jumping off a bridge I live near(148ft above water) and still at least 125ft over the land part of it would do the trick
, it's equivalent to around 15 stories of a building although it's into water. I know to land head first but is there any chance of surviving, and should I jump into the water or onto the land part of it(which is mostly grass but some concrete).

OP said 200m, so the impact may not kill you. If it's cold water, you could be in shock when hitting the water and drown because of it. Maybe look up drowning stories on here and think about it. Maybe wear something heavy to keep you underwater?
 
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Willbegonesoon

M/38
Aug 13, 2020
12
When I started being suicidal, originally my plan was to jump off the Goldengate Bridge. I did some research and came accross the stories of 2 survivors, one of them became very active in suicide prevention, his name is Kevin Hines, you can find plenty of videos with him on Youtube.
In the meantime COVID came in so travel to the US is much harder (I'm in Europe) and also a suicide barrier is being built on the bridge. Or maybe it's already finished, I don't know.
But jumping into water is definitely not my method anymore because there's a good chance that you don't die instantly. You can cause very serious damage to yourself, be in horrible pain and then drown. Drowning itself is already very painful and stressful, now add some more pain like breaking your bones, ribs and so on.
 
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Symbiote

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Oct 12, 2020
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Cross out Golden Gate and put Sunshine Skyway Bridge in Tampa FL. Bridge over the Royal Gorge Dam is a popular high spot too.
 
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Xiaomi

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Aug 8, 2020
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Cross out Golden Gate and put Sunshine Skyway Bridge in Tampa FL. Bridge over the Royal Gorge Dam is a popular high spot too.
Well I mean golden gate would be nice but thanks for the additional notes.
Damn balloon ride would be sick af
Yeah I mean if I were rich.
 
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Nov 6, 2020
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I've been considering finding a building in NYC. With COVID going on, the streets are much less crowded than they ever have been, so chances of hurting an innocent bystander is less. I would also go during the early hours of the morning and avoid any of the avenues. The last thing I want is to hurt anyone else, but New York City is my home and favorite place in the world and I can't imagine my final moments anywhere else.
 
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Hi I'm just wondering if jumping off a bridge I live near(148ft above water) and still at least 125ft over the land part of it would do the trick
, it's equivalent to around 15 stories of a building although it's into water. I know to land head first but is there any chance of surviving, and should I jump into the water or onto the land part of it(which is mostly grass but some concrete).
Bro, land is always the preferred option. There's always a chance you could die from drowning if you were to land on water.
Are you near the golden bridge? They have placed nets to prevent people from falling.
No I will be jumping from a 10th floor balcony.
I've been considering finding a building in NYC. With COVID going on, the streets are much less crowded than they ever have been, so chances of hurting an innocent bystander is less. I would also go during the early hours of the morning and avoid any of the avenues. The last thing I want is to hurt anyone else, but New York City is my home and favorite place in the world and I can't imagine my final moments anywhere else.
This is correct. Choose your spot carefully. Also, wow that jump would be breathtaking, seeing all those city lights and break of dawn during your last moments.
 
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I've heard mainly every one dies at Beachy Head at the right spot. I have read a few surviving but that's it at best.

Wouldn't do volcano as that would hurt like hell
You jump Beachy Head you die. But there is also a public beach below when tide out and we forget when there others may be below . Somewhere so beautiful and so sad at same time.
 
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sad_dude

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Wonder what would happen if i jump from a 10th floor balcony and land into a swimming pool tho?
Too bad my place has a lot of swimming pools in it ://

I heard from some people that the guy in anime (A Silent Voice) who fell to a river (from a high balcony), practically shouldn't have lived with some injuries regardless of just falling into the water.
 
Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
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My question is, if sitting at the window, I threw myself backwards into the void, would inertia make me spin like a top? On my first try I jumped and landed on my feet, I imagine it like a plummeting needle.

This time I want to fall on my head or on my back to suffer as much damage as possible and have no option to save myself, but I don't understand physics and I think that when I fall on my back, my lower back acts. like, say, a roulette and I start to spin slowly as I fall. I don't want to look when I do it and therefore I can't make sure I go head first. Any advice?

I think the biggest weight would be on my torso and I would fall on my back, but I can't practice something like that, not at high altitudes, of course.
¿Me pregunto qué pasaría si salto desde el balcón del décimo piso y aterrizo en una piscina?
Lástima que mi casa tiene muchas piscinas: //

Escuché de algunas personas que el chico del anime (A Silent Voice) que cayó a un río (desde un balcón alto), prácticamente no debería haber vivido con algunas heridas a pesar de simplemente caer al agua.

Here in Spain many travelers make balconies, jump from terraces to fall into pools, but the view deceives them and what they see as 2 meters from the railing to the water is actually 5/7 meters away, so they cannot move forward. no matter how much they think and end up killing each other against the sidewalk-

If you have the opportunity, measure the distance from the edge of the building to the water of the pool, you will notice that, even running, you would have a hard time reaching the water. Does that help you?
 
notevenhere

notevenhere

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This gives me an idea. If I'm gonna book a hotel room to take my SN, i might as well find a floor that's 10 stories high. But I'm not even sure if I can secure a floor high enough or be able to find a place to jump from inside the room. IDK
 
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black and white

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Wonder what would happen if i jump from a 10th floor balcony and land into a swimming pool tho?
Too bad my place has a lot of swimming pools in it ://

I heard from some people that the guy in anime (A Silent Voice) who fell to a river (from a high balcony), practically shouldn't have lived with some injuries regardless of just falling into the water.
Beautiful movie, i answer because this is the movie i watch a lot to ctb. Discovered it when it came out, and it was hard to watch as this time as i was in a sad mood already. But those days its just pure beauty and deep emotions to watch it.

Anyway to answer the question, this is a fictionnal movie, don't expect it to be realistic enough about suicide (even if ogaki city is well represented, and all those places exists in reality). First we're not really sure which floor, the nishimiya family is leaving, we never seen it precisely in the movie nor in the book. Considering the moment Shoya is falling is the only moment we can have an idea of the height and it seems to be a minimum of 7 floors. Then yes he fall into the water, but then remember the river is not very deep in the city, sometimes they are in the river and the water is around their knees... So considering shoya is falling head first, the supposed minimal height of 20 meters/65 feets, even maybe more it's already a little miracle he surivived without real injuries (in the book it is said he suffered from soulders and butt but not much, nothing more). Normaly in reality the chance of surival were very very small.

So to answer more precisely your question: a jump from the tenth floor (close or over 30 meters) on concrete is a sure death with a very high ratio of 99%. In water it's very difficult to say, depending the way you fall, and the deepness of the water. Because if it's not that deep you can hit the bottom of the pool. This scenario is much more difficult to evaluate, chances of death can really decrease yes, because the water can absorb a part of the impact; but this won't be a little funny jump either, even if you survive, you could be injured seriously both physically and mentally. The best way would be to target concrete, within the tenth floors, death is assured close to 100% no matter how you fall.

I'm on that direction myself. But it's not as easy and romantic as in the movie. The survival instinct is huge, vertigos too. This is probably one of the fastest and radical way to die, with no real chance of survival, just few seconds of free fall and instantaneous death without any pain. Still recquire lots of courage, will and determination to make it.
I live at the 8th floor, about 20 meters/65feet, so the minimum but already enough to have not much chance of survival (even if you're in coma, the window for medical assistance should be quite short, planning to do it at 3-4 o'clock when everyone sleeping, i'm quite sure to die). quote from a doctor "after the 7th it's a one way ticket with certainty". Several times i already did put myself on the other side of the balcony (balcony on the back side, so no one seen it at this hour) and been catched up by the fear of it. I even tried different form of hypnosis to calm down the thing, but still at the same point actually. Thing is i'm running out of time, I am so sure of my decision and still conscious about the difficulty to realise it that i did put myself into a no-way-out situation and blocked into this thing that can't continue any longer.

So as always the main problem isn't really about water or not. Concrete would be better, water from a pool could really increase chance of survival. So yes to be sure to die, concrete from 10th floor is one of the quickest and surest way. But way before this result, believe me the hardest part is to do it. I'm surprised so much people succeed to do it at any moment on earth, when it's actually very difficult to really make the step.
 
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I'm on that direction myself. But it's not as easy and romantic as in the movie. The survival instinct is huge, vertigos too. This is probably one of the fastest and radical way to die, with no real chance of survival, just few seconds of free fall and instantaneous death without any pain. Still recquire lots of courage, will and determination to make it.
I live at the 8th floor, about 20 meters/65feet, so the minimum but already enough to have not much chance of survival (even if you're in coma, the window for medical assistance should be quite short, planning to do it at 3-4 o'clock when everyone sleeping, i'm quite sure to die). quote from a doctor "after the 7th it's a one way ticket with certainty". Several times i already did put myself on the other side of the balcony (balcony on the back side, so no one seen it at this hour) and been catched up by the fear of it. I even tried different form of hypnosis to calm down the thing, but still at the same point actually. Thing is i'm running out of time, I am so sure of my decision and still conscious about the difficulty to realise it that i did put myself into a no-way-out situation and blocked into this thing that can't continue any longer.


I completely agree, you can psych yourself up every minute of every day and still have doubts and fear despite being convinced that you want to do it. And I already did it once... but it was quick and without thinking.

I had planned to do it well before my family returned from vacation, they were going to notify me when they entered the autonomous community, but they forgot and I found myself in the situation of hearing the elevator, their voices... and while the lock was opening, without Thinking of nothing, I put one foot on the chair, another on the railing, and then I was already stepping on air.

I find myself in a very similar situation to you, I have already chosen the day June 6 and the time, like you, 4-5 a.m. One day before my mother returns from a trip (I can't bear the thought of putting her through something so horrifying again) I will do it in an interior patio, where I can't fall on anyone and nothing will stop me, only the air conditioning. It's a bit of a challenge for me because I have a broad shoulder and I'm afraid of bumping into it and diverting the trajectory. My idea is to do it on my back, (I think I already said it) and let myself fall backwards with my leg straight. And even knowing that it won't hurt, imagining that I don't fall correctly again makes me go crazy.

As much as I would like to do it upside down, I don't have the courage, even if I close my eyes, I am convinced that I wouldn't fall straight, I would notice how I twist in the air when I fell and it makes me nauseous. Although it would be ideal. The helplessness is indescribable.

Congratulations for having the courage to go out to the other side of the railing, aren't your legs shaking? Yesterday I tried to climb on the furniture to calculate how high my ass would be on the windowsill and my whole body was shaking. Unfortunately I have no option to go further, one night when I have privacy I will try again with the blinds down and getting as close as possible, but the window frame is thick and I am clear that holding on to the wall with my leg will be very difficult. . If I fall plummeting when I sit down, goodbye calculations, inertia is very treacherous...

The "only" thing that reassures me is the absence of pain even if I don't fall on my head and that the injuries could make me pass out from blood loss relatively quickly. The other time I was conscious until the ambulance induced a coma, it is a disgusting feeling to see people milling around you, see their faces, hear their expressions and not be able to avoid it.

So... here we are, wanting to finish and with instincts on the surface. I'm lucky enough to be able to take the sleeping pills and hopefully they'll help me not think too much before making the final decision, but it's still so scary...

Thank you for sharing your ideas too, if you respond to this post I would appreciate it, in a way it is reassuring, don't you think?
 
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I wish i had the courage to jump it would be such a quick way to die
 
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I completely agree, you can psych yourself up every minute of every day and still have doubts and fear despite being convinced that you want to do it. And I already did it once... but it was quick and without thinking.

I had planned to do it well before my family returned from vacation, they were going to notify me when they entered the autonomous community, but they forgot and I found myself in the situation of hearing the elevator, their voices... and while the lock was opening, without Thinking of nothing, I put one foot on the chair, another on the railing, and then I was already stepping on air.

I find myself in a very similar situation to you, I have already chosen the day June 6 and the time, like you, 4-5 a.m. One day before my mother returns from a trip (I can't bear the thought of putting her through something so horrifying again) I will do it in an interior patio, where I can't fall on anyone and nothing will stop me, only the air conditioning. It's a bit of a challenge for me because I have a broad shoulder and I'm afraid of bumping into it and diverting the trajectory. My idea is to do it on my back, (I think I already said it) and let myself fall backwards with my leg straight. And even knowing that it won't hurt, imagining that I don't fall correctly again makes me go crazy.

As much as I would like to do it upside down, I don't have the courage, even if I close my eyes, I am convinced that I wouldn't fall straight, I would notice how I twist in the air when I fell and it makes me nauseous. Although it would be ideal. The helplessness is indescribable.

Congratulations for having the courage to go out to the other side of the railing, aren't your legs shaking? Yesterday I tried to climb on the furniture to calculate how high my ass would be on the windowsill and my whole body was shaking. Unfortunately I have no option to go further, one night when I have privacy I will try again with the blinds down and getting as close as possible, but the window frame is thick and I am clear that holding on to the wall with my leg will be very difficult. . If I fall plummeting when I sit down, goodbye calculations, inertia is very treacherous...

The "only" thing that reassures me is the absence of pain even if I don't fall on my head and that the injuries could make me pass out from blood loss relatively quickly. The other time I was conscious until the ambulance induced a coma, it is a disgusting feeling to see people milling around you, see their faces, hear their expressions and not be able to avoid it.

So... here we are, wanting to finish and with instincts on the surface. I'm lucky enough to be able to take the sleeping pills and hopefully they'll help me not think too much before making the final decision, but it's still so scary...

Thank you for sharing your ideas too, if you respond to this post I would appreciate it, in a way it is reassuring, don't you think?
Yeah this fear is a pain in the ass. Last night, my legs began to shake, i came back on the balcony and felt panicked, and pathetic same time as you can imagine to not find the courage when i am sure of my decision. Honnestly i don't know how japanese samurais did find the courage to do seppuku, those guys were very brave... Probably because of the cuture and the way they have been educated, i don't know.

I have some pills to relax and decrease anguish a doctor gave me three months back, i'm planning to try take some tonight, see if it could help (i tried different form of meditation and hypnosis to calm down the fear since several weeks but it brings nothing). I think the only solution is to execute it the most straight possible. I really have the feeling that the most you try, the more you're afraid. Maybe this is the way our subconscious counter-attack our growing feeling/decision of making it.

I'm quite surprised you already did in the past and not fall in coma naturally. What was the actual height for you survived this (no morbid curiosity, just trying to understand)??? I did prepare a little paper in my pocket with my ID indicating i don't want any medical help but i know they won't care and do it anyway, if they can. I know the height is not much in my case but it's already considered as the minimum for a certain death. Considering the hour i wanna do it, and the way, the backyard is not easy to access, makes me confident that the rescue could lose some precious minute in the case i'm not dead already, and in coma. 8th floor is already serious from what i understand and if it's not instantaneous, it won't be long probably. Between 4th and 6th floors, the probabiblity of death increase rapidly but the way you fall (or impact actually) still is a factor. Normally up to 7th floor and over, chances of survival are very thin.

I try to not think that much about the fall itself or the after, or the possibility that i will survive (and in what condition). This is some kind of thinking that will just makes you crazy, makes you doubt. You will just feel bad, nauseus or whatever imagining all those possibilties. In your case i think the worst is that you're living with your family, it gave you less opportunities to do it; and bring you more thought about the after, the reaction of the others etc. So this make things even more complicated; but in fact it's kind of the same. The brain is always finding details, reasons to try discourage you to do it.
I wish i had the courage to jump it would be such a quick way to die
we're all in the sameboat, i'm confronting myself to it since weeks and that's clearly not easy. But yes, it's one of the most effective, fast and painless method, it's pretty radical. But the main problem still remains, Damn SI, so difficult to win against it...
 
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Yeah this fear is a pain in the ass. Last night, my legs began to shake, i came back on the balcony and felt panicked, and pathetic same time as you can imagine to not find the courage when i am sure of my decision. Honnestly i don't know how japanese samurais did find the courage to do seppuku, those guys were very brave... Probably because of the cuture and the way they have been educated, i don't know.

I have some pills to relax and decrease anguish a doctor gave me three months back, i'm planning to try take some tonight, see if it could help (i tried different form of meditation and hypnosis to calm down the fear since several weeks but it brings nothing). I think the only solution is to execute it the most straight possible. I really have the feeling that the most you try, the more you're afraid. Maybe this is the way our subconscious counter-attack our growing feeling/decision of making it.

I'm quite surprised you already did in the past and not fall in coma naturally. What was the actual height for you survived this (no morbid curiosity, just trying to understand)??? I did prepare a little paper in my pocket with my ID indicating i don't want any medical help but i know they won't care and do it anyway, if they can. I know the height is not much in my case but it's already considered as the minimum for a certain death. Considering the hour i wanna do it, and the way, the backyard is not easy to access, makes me confident that the rescue could lose some precious minute in the case i'm not dead already, and in coma. 8th floor is already serious from what i understand and if it's not instantaneous, it won't be long probably. Between 4th and 6th floors, the probabiblity of death increase rapidly but the way you fall (or impact actually) still is a factor. Normally up to 7th floor and over, chances of survival are very thin.

I try to not think that much about the fall itself or the after, or the possibility that i will survive (and in what condition). This is some kind of thinking that will just makes you crazy, makes you doubt. You will just feel bad, nauseus or whatever imagining all those possibilties. In your case i think the worst is that you're living with your family, it gave you less opportunities to do it; and bring you more thought about the after, the reaction of the others etc. So this make things even more complicated; but in fact it's kind of the same. The brain is always finding details, reasons to try discourage you to do it.

we're all in the sameboat, i'm confronting myself to it since weeks and that's clearly not easy. But yes, it's one of the most effective, fast and painless method, it's pretty radical. But the main problem still remains, Damn SI, so difficult to win against it...
Meditation and all that is useful for other things, not to take away your SI, although it will help people in the future to know this, together we are learning things, although few, that help us in our decision. The Japanese mentality is made of steel, I have also thought about it many times, that it wasn't just about pricking yourself, until they cut off your head they would pass on what is not written.

I wouldn't take any pills, well if you have a lot yes, and I would save them for THE day.

I live on a 7th floor, each floor is about 3 meters high, to this we must add approximately 20 cm between each floor, plus the portal, which at first glance can be 4 meters. Adding it all up: 24 meters with luck. I want to think that even with a good impact, the speed will make the head hit with enough force to knock me out... you have more possibilities, you have 1 floor more than me! bad joke

The notes are useless because the first thing they will think is that you have fallen, then things change, and as you say, they will try to help you. In which country are you? That minute between them answering the call and arriving at the inaccessible place will give us what we want, have faith.

They say hyperventilating helps with nerves but I've never tried it.

Thanks for the answer
 
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Meditation and all that is useful for other things, not to take away your SI, although it will help people in the future to know this, together we are learning things, although few, that help us in our decision. The Japanese mentality is made of steel, I have also thought about it many times, that it wasn't just about pricking yourself, until they cut off your head they would pass on what is not written.

I wouldn't take any pills, well if you have a lot yes, and I would save them for THE day.

I live on a 7th floor, each floor is about 3 meters high, to this we must add approximately 20 cm between each floor, plus the portal, which at first glance can be 4 meters. Adding it all up: 24 meters with luck. I want to think that even with a good impact, the speed will make the head hit with enough force to knock me out... you have more possibilities, you have 1 floor more than me! bad joke

The notes are useless because the first thing they will think is that you have fallen, then things change, and as you say, they will try to help you. In which country are you? That minute between them answering the call and arriving at the inaccessible place will give us what we want, have faith.

They say hyperventilating helps with nerves but I've never tried it.

Thanks for the answer
We have approximatively the same height. you may have a bit more than me. Cause floors are not very thick here (2,7m from what i've calculated) and the side where i have to jump is a bit more high than the street itself. As i said, i stopped considering those details, i think the height is already pretty serious and sufficient. My main problem is SI.

I'm in France; as i said the time the rescue could arrive really depends on 1) someone actually realise what happened and call them, 2) their ability to access this backyard which is a bit complicated. That's why very late at night is the moment i choosed (and also to not be disturbed, to be alone, it's already enough scary, thinking someone could notice make it worse), i observed the last late sleeper goes around 3-4 o'clock depending the day, and this is approximatively the same hours that one or two others, can wake up, once again it depends the day. I just choosed the most peaceful time, to be as lonely as possible and increase the chances that nobody will notice, so some anticipation but not focusing too much on it because you never know, maybe it could take two hours before sun comes up and people notice or someone could call instantly, who knows, i can't be sure of that...

The other solution was the natural environment around the city which is full of little mountains, rocks everywhere, but you need time to go there etc so i find it much more easy and comfortable to do it from here: as it is much more simple to just go on the balcony and put myself in situation at night. Especially as the final step is hard to assume. Going every day doing a long trip outside the city to finally come back every time seems tiring.

So globally i'm quite confident about the result the main problem is to succeed overcome the fear of it. Even if i did put myself in an impossible situation recently and arriving now at a moment where my living situation is a dead end (no more money for example and bills accumulating), even if i'm pretty sure it's the best thing to do etc doesn't make it more easy on the final step. It was the plan at first, thinking this dead end situation will bring more strenght and will to act but it doesn't really change the mental state your SI is engaging to block you... pretty crazy.
 
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