NSFW 🤪💦 Lustful Delirium

[whiskers]

its ok brocel just goon it out

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Lot more than a few, I'm speaking about experiences sexual, romantic, and completely plutonic. I apologize for pointing out the common characteristics I've observed in my personal life, maybe I've just so happened to interact with a sample that's not indictive of the population, but I wouldn't say I discriminate against all women so much as have low expectations of their personal qualities when meeting one and treat them according to what I find. Not advocating violence to be clear, tho I've met more than a few who want you to hurt them, especially prostitutes.

Again, you are making large sweeping generalizations based on a few women you have had negative experiences with. When you refer to women as "females" and when you proudly talk about us like we are objects then you are discriminating against the entirety of our gender. When you decide to make huge generalizations about us you are discriminating against all of us. You can't proudly proclaim yourself as a misogynist and then back track by saying that you don't discriminate against all "females". That is not how it works. Not advocating for violence is below the bare minimum and admitting that you have wanted to hurt us before, especially prostitutes, isn't exactly helping your case here, bud.

 

[whitetaildeer]

Lot more than a few, I'm speaking about experiences sexual, romantic, and completely plutonic. I apologize for pointing out the common characteristics I've observed in my personal life, maybe I've just so happened to interact with a sample that's not indictive of the population, but I wouldn't say I discriminate against all women so much as have low expectations of their personal qualities when meeting one and treat them according to what I find. Not advocating violence to be clear, tho I've met more than a few who want you to hurt them, especially prostitutes.

put down the alcohol holy shit

 

[snwcolt]

Your defensiveness makes me think you agree with me a little bit, and it's funny how you seem to be implying that I should completely ignore my personal experiences because what they've taught me goes against your feminist ideas. Idc about helping my case, just don't want more trouble from mods here. The ironic thing is what has given me such a negative view of females is their desire to be mistreated. That's a whole other discussion tho.

The important point is that no I will not put down the alcohol. I could use a sandwich tho....

 

[Mocha]

You sound like an Incel

Well, he is an incel by definition. So yeah of course he does. It seems he has some sort of nerve and spinal issues that prevent him from having sex or getting it up? In combination with OCD, so basically his body is literally preventing him from living a normal life. Honestly I understand his stance here and can sympathize. Life without any sex, caused by already painful factors outside of your control, is a rough deal. Sexual satisfaction is one of the driving forces of people, it's not really feasible to just "let it go".

I agree it's overrated, I'm not a virgin. But for someone without a reference point not being able to lose their virginity, or even just have healthy sex, because of chronic pain and mental illness must be soul crushing.

 

[zombiegirl]

this has to be bait

 

[StrugglingSienna]

Not advocating violence to be clear, tho I've met more than a few who want you to hurt them, especially prostitutes.

It seems like @EvisceratedJester has me covered here so that I'm free to fuck with @Halfhourdays, but I needed to call this specific shit out. Those prostitutes "wanted you" to hurt them because they wanted your fucking money, dude. Their whole career is rooted in their ability to pleasure fucked up demented Johns like you who are unable or unwilling to form a normal romantic relationship with a woman that can provide you with the kind of sex that you crave.

Even if you personally do not want to have violent sex with women, which I doubt, based on some of your other posts here, those prostitutes are likely asking for violent sex because they have concluded that that is what the majority of their Johns are after. Have some fucking common sense, dude. Women are normal fucking people just like you, and like you, many of them are willing to withstand shit from their job, because they need it to live and survive.

I have nothing insightful to say, but hookers and/or gay sex probably aren't the answer...

I am far, far away from being anything like a pro-lifer. Absolutely, people should be able to end their own lives at any time of their accord. But if a person seeks Medical Assistance In Dying (MAID), as it is called in Canada, and they are simply hopeless and depressed, as opposed to possessing a diagnosis of a terminal physical illness, it is worth it to try some extreme solutions. Namely, before allowing the state to proceed with the euthanasia, depressed individuals should be forced (yes, forced) to experience homosexual sex with handsome men or beautiful women depending on their gender, along with various psychedelic drugs, as a base minimum.

Sure, some of these MAID seekers will just be thinking things like, "Ugh, this guy's dick is really big, can I just die already?" But just as many will be thinking, "OMG, this guy's dick is really big, and I can't wait to cancel my MAID request so I can experience as much of this as possible before I die!"

These are fairly normal conclusions to make for utilitarians such as myself. Don't be mad at me, this policy is for the good of all of us. You can still always ctb on your own without having to go through this process if you need to.

 

[snwcolt]

I never said I didn't enjoy it lmao...but gotta disagree I think they want it because they've become so numb to normal sexual activity.

I am just enjoying ruffling yalls feathers at this point. I have way more hatred for myself than I do for any females. Fr tho one of you broads should come put a round in my head to teach me a lesson

 

[cme-dme]

Quit wasting precious time on this 4 day old troll account lol

 

[snwcolt]

It's fun tho especially with the more bourbon I pour down my throat

 

[whitetaildeer]

Fr tho one of you broads should come put a round in my head to teach me a lesson

 

[snwcolt]

No balls...

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Quit wasting precious time on this 4 day old troll account lol

Hey, its not like I have anything better to do!

I never said I didn't enjoy it lmao...but gotta disagree I think they want it because they've become so numb to normal sexual activity.

I am just enjoying ruffling yalls feathers at this point. I have way more hatred for myself than I do for any females. Fr tho one of you broads should come put a round in my head to teach me a lesson

^Nah, imma just let Conquest do his thing

 

[snwcolt]

That appears less than lethal... don't be a tease. How satisfying would it be to see a shotgun make my head disappear

 

[EvisceratedJester]

That appears less than lethal... don't be a tease. How satisfying would it be to see a shotgun make my head disappear

 

[snwcolt]

Nerd

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I suggest that this thread be moved to offtopic so we can really let loose.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nerd

Spoiler: NSFW

Also, sorry about your thread being derailed OP. I won't respond to this dude any further.

 

[snwcolt]

Me neither... fucking drunk asshole

 

[ClippedWings]

Okay...this does not exist. I'm gonna hold your hand when I say it sounds more like you fained from low blood pressure. Anyone who entertains this nonsense is against you. You certainly do sound delirious, as in total delusional. Just say you fained, you're sad about your life (like we all are) and move on. Don't make it weird. Don't put a target on yourself like this. It's frankly just very odd and offputting

Hold my hand while we go through this together.

Yes, it does exist. It happened to me. Don't gaslight me, telling me I fainted from low blood pressure. What happened is as clear as day. Actually, what I experienced is very interesting. I was swept up in the raw, pandemonious churn of reproduction—the primal engine that drives our species, indifferent to reason, mercy, or restraint. That force—the raw reproductive pandemonium—was clawing for executive control over my somatic nervous system, hijacking my body like it was just a vessel for its ancient directive.

I'm sorry that this force has shown itself to you in such terrifying ways. If I weren't a crippled troglodyte, I would've harnessed that same force—not to harm, but to give my lover a beautiful life. It was never meant to be a weapon. Rather, a flame used to abate all that cold and all that dark.

P.S. you should be off pudding .

 

[ke9]

This is a really sensitive topic. I'm new here. Very depressed for a long time. Had a lot of relationship issues. Have my notes written and all that. From a male perspective, sex is really important to one's self-esteem and not in some show-off way but deep down.

 

[Mocha]

Me neither... fucking drunk asshole

Haha this guy is like a character out of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. It's charming. In a fucked up kind of way.

I would ask how you end up such a sorry asshole but the dude got himself banned. Goodbye snwcult, dosen't seem like you'll be missed around here very much.

 

[ClippedWings]

Well, he is an incel by definition. So yeah of course he does. It seems he has some sort of nerve and spinal issues that prevent him from having sex or getting it up? In combination with OCD, so basically his body is literally preventing him from living a normal life. Honestly I understand his stance here and can sympathize. Life without any sex, caused by already painful factors outside of your control, is a rough deal. Sexual satisfaction is one of the driving forces of people, it's not really feasible to just "let it go".

I agree it's overrated, I'm not a virgin. But for someone without a reference point not being able to lose their virginity, or even just have healthy sex, because of chronic pain and mental illness must be soul crushing.

By the time I was 18 years old, OCD replaced my true identity with itself. Because intellect serves identity, my intelligence served this false master. It used symmetry to feel safe. How? Because symmetry = beauty = order = control = safety. My broken brain had an overactive fear system, like a motion sensor that triggers from the wind. OCD locked my true self away in a prison for 13 years. Then, my intellect built, brick by brick, a fortress around myself. Ironically, in its attempt to keep me safe from irrational and imagined threats, it killed both itself and my true self. Why? Because it denied my true self, which would have pursued a positive delta in life, aka growth. I would've been pro-social and been on tons of dates. Gone to events, worked hard, played hard, and banged hard. Because of this, the underlying insidious degenerative disc disease and full body acne would've needed to be addressed promptly. I would've gotten proper negative feedback by life and people, and that would incentivize me to fix the issues. Instead, OCD turned me into a rotting recluse living only in low-light and neurosis. So, my degenerative disc disease became permanent nerve damage and pain, and my acne is full body scarring.

Only after my second back surgery have I learned who I was really supposed to be. A pro-social, charismatic, passionate lover, leader, risk-taker, womanizer, serial dater, and on and on. But instead, the following happened. I was excluded from humanity and lived in double solitary confinement for 13 years. I can imagine the exhilaration and madness of life. How swelling and magical it could've been.

It started to hit me around 27—that slow, growing realization that I wanted the exact opposite of what my life had become. But by then, it was already too late. My nerve was irrecoverable, though I didn't know it yet. I spent the next three years fully immersed, pouring every ounce of focus and intellect into trying to fix it. The culmination of all that effort was a somewhat experimental implant. It didn't work.

In late 2021, I made myself a promise: if I couldn't save myself from the nerve pain—if I couldn't meet even the bare minimum requirements for a livable life—then I would end it. Not out of impulse, but as the only way to spare myself from endless suffering.

Things kept getting worse. After the failed implant, life collapsed in on me. The full weight of a wasted existence crushed me to pulp—seized my mind and hasn't let go. That was seven months ago. Since then, the catastrophe of waste—and the sheer force of the craving—have driven me to the edge of delirium. I nearly slipped into it again last night, but somehow, I fought it off.

I couldn't see it when it was happening. I thought I was the OCD. Time and time again my behaviors, preferences, aesthetics reinforced that I was desirous of what OCD wanted. But, 13 years later, I see that the real me was imprisoned. So deeply that I didn't even feel lust for the opposite sex, when all along, I was supposed to be Casanova. This goes to show, who you really are, may be completely covered up by your OCD. You may even be the opposite of whom you think you are, like I was.

Somehow you must dispel yourself and find whom was locked away long ago. Who you would be without fear. There is another attitude, one that my OCD would've hated. I quote, "it relaxes by changing". My OCD loved stasis, because it was control and thus safety, so no fear. But that attitude denies life. When you deny life, life denies you, trust me, I know this to the maximum extent. One must relax by changing. What does this mean? Do not cling to static forms of beauty. Find pleasure in the flux. Your nervous system can be even relaxed amidst strife and change, how beautiful would that be!

I write this 4 weeks before the date of my medically assisted rational suicide.

 

[maniac116]

No of offense or judgement meant, but I think you should reassess what your "expectations" are.
The world isn't built around our expectations

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Imagine being such a black void of a human that you have to pay women to fuck you and thinking that you have the upper hand here.

 

[ClippedWings]

No of offense or judgement meant, but I think you should reassess what your "expectations" are.
The world isn't built around our expectations

The world, actually is, built around certain expectations.

Your lungs are an expectation for oxygen. Your stomach is an expectation for food. For a heterosexual male, such as myself, the penis is an expectation of a vagina and vice versa. We literally come with expectations built in for the world to be a certain way. A phone is built with the expectation of electricity to charge the battery. More specifically, the female charging port is an expectation for the male end of a charging cable, etc. and so on and so on and so on. You may even go as far to say that our brains are an expectation for socialization as well. There are many things you would rightly expect given the design of your construct. I am no different. I was born in expectation of another person, this is normal and healthy. It takes great spiritual work to suppress your default expectations, because of how fundamental they are.

I said, "All things I was born in expectation of." It is not wrong for your lungs to expect oxygen. They were born/built in expectation of it. I was born in expectation of the feminine. Such is a trite thing to have to say.

 

[maniac116]

The world actually is built around certain expectations.

Your lungs are an expectation for oxygen. Your stomach is an expectation for food. For a heterosexual male, such as myself, my penis is an expectation of a vagina and vice versa. We literally come with expectations built in for the world to be a certain way. A phone is built with the expectation of electricity to charge the battery, etc. and so on and so on, and so on. You may even go as far to say that our brains are an expectation for socialization as well. There are many things you would rightly expect given the design of your construct. I am no different. I was born in expectation of another person, this is normal and healthy. It takes great spiritual work to suppress your default expectations, because of how fundamental they are.

I said, "All things I was born in expectation of." It is not wrong for your lungs to expect oxygen. They were born/built in expectation of it. I was born in expectation of the feminine. Such is a trite thing to have to say.

I respectfully disagree. But you're absolutely entitled to your opinion.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

The world actually is built around certain expectations.

Your lungs are an expectation for oxygen. Your stomach is an expectation for food. For a heterosexual male, such as myself, my penis is an expectation of a vagina and vice versa. We literally come with expectations built in for the world to be a certain way. A phone is built with the expectation of electricity to charge the battery, etc. and so on and so on, and so on. You may even go as far to say that our brains are an expectation for socialization as well. There are many things you would rightly expect given the design of your construct. I am no different. I was born in expectation of another person, this is normal and healthy. It takes great spiritual work to suppress your default expectations, because of how fundamental they are.

What? I feel like you can't use a phone as an example here. Phones and phone chargers are machines that we created. They are man-made inanimate objects that serve specific functions and aren't capable of much outside of the functions they were created for. By comparison, people and many other organisms, are able to act for themselves.

Your genitals do more besides sex stuff and there are straight men out there who don't care that much about PIV sex, with some not even being that interested in sex at all. Your expectations of sex are, at least in part, based on your choosing to expect it rather than it being "your default expectations". Plenty of straight men, and people in general, do not spend their time expecting sex and just choose to focus on other things in life that bring them joy and satisfaction. I feel like your views and attitudes towards sex, viewing it as something you are required to have, are quite detrimental to your psyche.

 

[ClippedWings]

What? I feel like you can't use a phone as an example here. Phones and phone chargers are machines that we created. They are man-made inanimate objects that serve specific functions and aren't capable of much outside of the functions they were created for. By comparison, people and many other organisms, are able to act for themselves.

Your genitals do more besides sex stuff and there are straight men out there who don't care that much about PIV sex, with some not even being that interested in sex at all. Your expectations of sex are, at least in part, based on your choosing to expect it rather than it being "your default expectations". Plenty of straight men, and people in general, do not spend their time expecting sex and just choose to focus on other things in life that bring them joy and satisfaction. I feel like your views and attitudes towards sex, viewing it as something you require to have, are quite detrimental to your psyche.

You're not getting it. You're talking about preferences after you're born. I said "born in expectation of". Lungs expect oxygen, regardless of your preference. Biology undergoes exaptation, and so too could this process occur through preferences, but that doesn't negate the expectation prior to being conscious. You can repurpose (exapt) a screwdriver a thousand ways, but it was designed in expectation of a screw to match it. Not hard to understand.

 

[TotalEclipse]

You can't survive without oxygen or food. You can survive without sex. No one has ever died a natural death from not having sex.