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fishygirl

fishygirl

in the end, nothing matters
Sep 17, 2023
192
21f, wannabe game designer and artist
im in NYC!

i think fish are really beautiful and often draw them (hence the username)

im a huge fan of horror, music, and fashion (2000s/2010s). i like making jewelry and building tank model kits for fun.

lets talk about anime, music, and clothes ♡

im really shy but trying to talk to people more.. please dm me TuT
 
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Chrast

Chrast

Member
Aug 30, 2025
16
27 y. o.
Male
Engaged
Eastern Europe
I work as a junior attorney in a financial institution. I often watch snuff movies, clips of real life violence and psychological thriller anime. I also find solace while listening to grunge and doom metal bands such as Alice in Chains or Rosary. I wholeheartedly despise living in a modern day society and the idea of parenting as a whole. I'm not a highschool edgelord, but a true efilist undercover, willing to talk to people, who share the same hatred towards expectations of modern society. I can't stand ultra-capitalism, but I'm not a commie either. Also feel free to DM me, if u just wanna talk about medieval history, rpg games or cars.

I find your case honestly fascinating. Maybe we could talk
We're so similar lol, I think we'd be friends for sure, but I'm really not planning on starting stuff that wouldn't change my current goal to CTB.

20M from Greece
I hate capitalism, how I'm supposed to work my life as a slave with ok living conditions at best for some millionaire to become richer. I hate this world, and how governments take advantage of their own people with "democracies" just using brainwashing, propaganda or even more extreme measures to only allow people to vote whoever will jot endanger the status quo. I hate how people impose their worldview on others and don't care about it, dumb people are fun, people with no knowledge on stuff as well, it's so nice to genuinely teach someone something or being taught. If do not have the self-awareness and willingness to accept you're wrong or at least cannot understand why you are, please improve yourself. I love anime and gaming. Unbelievably huge fan of FromSoftware, ProjectMoon and Arknights. I've been looking for home since I was a child, growing up to a family that just wants to impose their own version of happiness to me, one that would be torture. These fictional worlds gave it to me. Also Kasane Teto, love our queen, one period of my life I was so happy because of her I was legitimately having an identity crisis because I couldn't be the gloomy pessimistic edgy guy I've always been. Lifting is awesome, makes me feel well about my body and my abilities.
 
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snooperdooper

snooperdooper

Student
Jan 27, 2024
105
Hey, it feels like lately maladaptive daydreaming and thoughts about the afterlife have consumed me. I don't have anyone to talk to, so I'm looking here for anybody who is experiencing the same. I want to be able to talk about your and mine fantasies in as much depth as possible, and what the afterlife has in store. I want to listen to you vent about your daydreams/fantasies in as much detail as possible and vice versa. I just think it would be nice to be heard and see what I'm experiencing through another person.
 
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deepocean

deepocean

Member
Aug 19, 2024
39
20M from India, I listen to music a lot and feel free to hmu anytime

I don't have access to dms either but would love to have a conversation with you and what do you write usually
Me
 
garbage01

garbage01

heavily dissociated
Jun 6, 2023
15
18m, midwest usa
im really looking for someone who understands me. I have no problem handling heavy topics, and id like to find someone who's the same way. Id like to talk to someone with early life experiences in drugs, sh, abuse, dissociation and psychosis. Id like to meet someone with little to no limits as to what they can talk about. If you're fringe in the way even those with issues can't handle, if you creep others out, we'll probably get along. I like to talk about things most people can't understand or handle. Talk to me about things you can't tell most people. I feel very pent up in things you're not "allowed" to talk about. If you feel that way too i could lend an ear.
My interests include art, reading/writing, philosophy, spirituality, politics, fighting, and horror. And i love to listen. I like people with fucked up interests
 
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reuws

New Member
Sep 1, 2025
2
19M, I speak Spanish and English so If you wanna talk to me, I'll appreciate it, im very active online so I likely open to talk at any hour.

My main interests are music, movies/shows and reading about crimes, but to be honest I haven't watch a lot of shows or movies, I'm not to much into politics so if you wanna talk about it im probably not the person, I still enjoy to learn about history, especially the recent one, I spend a lot of time reading articles about what's happening around the world.

Since im new here im not able to use DM, if you wanna talk my discord is @reeuwws, im open to any kind of person, gender, orientation, religion, age or whatever doesnt matters for me
 
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dumbnhappy

dumbnhappy

just say it ditto
May 22, 2024
68
I think I posted here before, but I wanna try again.

I'm 22F from the US.

I honestly dont know if I want to ctb yet. I wanna see if things work out for me, and if they dont I will ctb since I'm a coward and dont want to suffer.

Not sure how to describe myself, I often try to mask the fact that I hate everything about me. I try really hard in friendships irl, and its never reciprocated. People tell me I'm one way, but I feel the opposite. Do you think you could be friends with someone like that?

I like some games, but they are never ones that I can play with other people with the exception of roblox and minecraft which I only play with my sister. I like the elder scroll series, fallout, I like WH40k lore and I like all things art.

For music, I like alt rock and metal, as well as pop and experimental music. There really is a lot I like, I'm not picky.

Seeking someone I can talk with and not just to. Idk I feel alone. see u
 
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stink144

stink144

Nothing
Dec 29, 2024
118
Hello I'm stink... And autistink
I'm in my twenties and I posted here already multiple times but I have noticed that when I make a fresh post I get new people to talk with so here we go again
I had severe depression since age 12, I'm autistic and pretty isolated. I got my first friend last year but after ten months she ghosted me. We were super close and I'm really suicidal about her leaving. But that's not my only reason. I like playing 99 nights in the forest on Roblox and other games that are silly (but 99 nights is not silly it's a good game lol) . I'm a girl and from poland bc I forgot to say that. Overall I have like 10 reasons to die in it are two main ones. My discord is the same as my username on here.
 
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eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
571
Hi im Ant! [face in my pfp] I'm turning 20 in Nov and looking for a friend in the uk

I'm going to study in Norwich and would love to be friends with another suicidal loser ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜

I'm autistic and a stoner, I love art, live music, hot fictional characters and roblox

I'm also open to online friends! I prefer to talk on whatsapp or Instagram ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

I'm extremely insecure and can honestly be a bitch buuuuuuut.......yea.

Please no bigots or racists interact
 
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battwinfntsy

Member
Jun 3, 2024
5
hi I'm bat. I'm 23 and currently reside in the western part of the us.

I like punk music, reading, art & horror. I am autistic and I do smoke weed. I suffer from ocd and it's my main reason for wanting to ctb.

looking for online friends who understand the struggles with old or just have similar interest. preferred method of communication is discord or emailing. someone also open to voice calling.


plsss no racist or anyone that falls to the right.
 
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selfaware?

selfaware?

Member
Apr 14, 2025
20
Hello, im an 18yo guy from Argentina.

I really love music, tech, japanese culture and gaming. I probably have a lot more of things i like or know about but the list will become too extense haha.

I joined this forum to have a place where i can vent and seek for other people experiences, mostly in the recovery section. Now that im actually here i also want to be sort of active, help and understand others, tho i dont know how often im going to get online here, i dont mind talking about almost any topic!
im 19 and some months now :P
 
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Salkak

Member
Dec 9, 2021
99
25 F from India. Looking for another Indian I can be friends with
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,672
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waytootiredforthis

waytootiredforthis

Member
Sep 28, 2024
7
Early 20'sNB, in the pnw of the US. Kinda gave up looking for people irl, as it's seemingly too difficult. Kinda 50/50 on whether or not I want to ctb this year or next, but likely at some point within the next 2 years at least. I have ASD, BPD, ADHD, PTSD, and GAD. (God knows what else but those are the ones they officially gave me). I'm not the best with conversations, especially starting them, but once I'm comfortable, I'm quite a yapper. I like crochet, tv (mostly crime or medical procedurals), marvel, coffee, poetry, art of all kinds, animals, and wasting money on tattoos.
 
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kazatte

kazatte

and so, love has come to an end
Sep 1, 2025
39
hi!! my name is amia, i'm 19f, and i'm from the united states. i really love vocaloid and project sekai (i have basic knowledge of other rhythm / gacha games too) and would love to be friends with people who also like those :) i am open to anyone though!! i love talking to people

i am not actively planning to ctb anytime soon, so you do not need to worry about that. i deal with a lot of mental health conditions in general though just as a warning

i would prefer to be friends with people 25 and under + would not like to interact with people who align themselves with right-wing values (racism, homophobia, transphobia, the list goes on). my preferred method of communication is discord but i'm also okay with simply using this site :)
 
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littleearthquakes

littleearthquakes

Member
Apr 10, 2024
68
I've done a few posts here before. I'm in my 30s in the US. Queer and genderqueer. Very left leaning and into disability rights and LGBTQIA+ activism.

I'm severely disabled and chronically ill with degenerative incurable conditions and a lot of pain and medical trauma. Also autistic and mentally ill. The medical stuff is the main thing that wrecks me and my life.

No immediate plans to ctb but want to be able to talk about it generally and be able to be hopeless and depressed about things. It's my reality and most people can't hold space for it so that's why I come here. I'm happy to hold space for whatever others go through in return.

I enjoy deep convos but also like to talk about hobbies and nerdy things. Love music and TV. Used to be a writer and sort of still am. Feel free to send a message if you think we might get along. Prefer we switch to discord if we connect.
 
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E5463656

E5463656

Member
Jul 26, 2024
46
20m from aus, melb
would like to meet / talk w people
can dm !
i can bench 80
 
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ondodera

ondodera

Unfortunately alive.
Mar 17, 2018
24
Hi 🙂
29m from US

Don't have many friends anymore that I feel like I can genuinely talk to, especially ones that understand the situation that all of us here find ourselves in.
Would generally prefer to talk to people with mutual interests, as i'm socially awkward (plus autistic) and don't know how to carry much of a conversation outside of those, but that's not saying that I won't try my best.
As well as those 21+, definitely helps.
stuff that soaks up all my brain power: TTRPG's, warhammer fantasy in general, rpg's and strategy games, digital art, horror nd korean movies, manga/anime, music (idk genres man, im dumb.)

no bigots or racists pls, had enough of that with my last friends.
 
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Yory

Yory

New Member
Jan 7, 2024
3
30F, Europe
Got DPDR, ADHD, autism, agoraphobia — shaped my life into something I hate living in.
Used to read a ton as a kid - not so much now, but I'm always up for a good chat about books. Mostly into neuroscience & tech lately, but curious about everything (thanks ADHD).
Not into games, get bored fast — maybe different with the right person.
Most of my friends ended up being younger since I never really did the whole "grown-up life" thing. Open to talking with anyone though.
Deeply depressed, idk, text me if you feel like it(or "like this"? 🤔 learning languages sucks :/)
I just need someone to feel a little less lonely - doesn't matter if it's deep talks, a random meme, or just a 'good morning' message
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
219
20M, orginally Nepal in US rn

CS student 1st year.

I really like webnovels (just finished Lord of the Mysteries book 2) and am trying to get into system development tho the more I learn about it the higher the climb seems so kinda contemplating web dev just for safety or maybe ai/ml or game dev i don't know at this point i just wish i could close my eyes and everything goes blank forever.

I don't really like games, and use linux so most of the popular competitive games won't work anyway. I can give a game you really like a try if you want (just for you) but I probably won't like it even if it works on my machine. I can be a pushover at times specially if i'm feeling really lonely so if you really force me to continue playing it with you, I will probably do it but I might secretly not like you very much.

Intl student, have to try and pay my own fees (u know how expensive unis are here) with little to no parents support and study full time so really stressed and suicidal. So if you are someone with a lot of free time I probably won't be with you all day, but we can be in calls and stuff while i work if u want it.

I don't know if I've any mental condition, have not been diagnosed with anything cuz never gone to a hospital for it but I probably have some stuff given how miserable I feel every single day.

Prefer 18-25 tho if u think we can connect just dm.
 
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LackOfDetermination

LackOfDetermination

Nothing Without Determination.
Sep 2, 2025
16
Yo, I'm 21m, leftist, like reading webnovels, playing games (mostly modded minecraft lately), and listening to music. My sleep schedule is the worst thing invented since the atomic bomb, so I'm practically always awake or asleep with no pattern, my favorite novels to read right now are Shadow Slave (for the aura farming) and Hell Difficulty Tutorial (for the slice of life and memes), and my laptop is a potato that I've put way too much time into perfecting the overclocking/undervolting/ other bios settings to get it to barely run lower end games that don't require state of the art gpus or 40gbs of space. I'm also flat broke, so don't expect an upgrade lol.
Oh, and if it isn't obvious, my favorite anime/LN is Re Zero.
 
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SkySocket

New Member
Sep 8, 2025
2
I am 38M, which seems to be older than a lot of people here.

My life took a downturn about eight years ago when schizophrenia manifested. Shortly thereafter, I developed a chronic headache called NDPH. It literally causes pain 24/7/365. It prevents work because of extreme sensitivity to sound. I also have autism and ADHD. The latter is not treatable due to psychosis. I have double vision, and due to botched strabismus surgeries it's permanent. I am left with chronic eye pain.

Schizophrenia is one of the worst mental illnesses that exist. From the studies I've read, even the bipolar people have better odds. Between the schizophrenia and ndph alone I am done with life. I do want to ctb, but I prefer to use a firearm and such method is unavailable to me at this time. I guess I'll probably resort to hanging or jumping instead.

I'm a big fan of rock and alternative music (Breaking Benjamin, Linkin Park, The Pretty Reckless) and can talk endlessly about sci-fi shows like Rick and Morty, The Orville, or Star Trek: Discovery. I spend a lot of time outdoors walking local lake trails. It keeps me grounded.

I like meaningful conversations, but I'm equally happy talking about random hobbies or music recommendations. If you think we'd vibe, feel free to send me a message, am always happy to make a new friend.
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
219
Yo, I'm 21m, leftist, like reading webnovels, playing games (mostly modded minecraft lately), and listening to music. My sleep schedule is the worst thing invented since the atomic bomb, so I'm practically always awake or asleep with no pattern, my favorite novels to read right now are Shadow Slave (for the aura farming) and Hell Difficulty Tutorial (for the slice of life and memes), and my laptop is a potato that I've put way too much time into perfecting the overclocking/undervolting/ other bios settings to get it to barely run lower end games that don't require state of the art gpus or 40gbs of space. I'm also flat broke, so don't expect an upgrade lol.
Oh, and if it isn't obvious, my favorite anime/LN is Re Zero.
I have tried both re:zero (anime only) and shadow slave but didn't like either... too much simping in the former and I hate romance anyway. Couldn't go past the enslavement stuff in the latter but I will probably give it another try... maybe.

Have you read Lord of the mysteries too by any chance?
 
LackOfDetermination

LackOfDetermination

Nothing Without Determination.
Sep 2, 2025
16
I recently started it, haven't gotten past Sherlock Moriarty arc yet though. Has amazing world building so far but damn was the first arc hard to get through, even though the quality and end made it well worth it.
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
518
Are there any older people out there? As in over 50s?
Yep I'm almost 60
Welcome to the forum... sorry you're here but there are a lot of kind, supportive people on this site. Hope you find what you're seeking! :heart:
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
219
I recently started it, haven't gotten past Sherlock Moriarty arc yet though. Has amazing world building so far but damn was the first arc hard to get through, even though the quality and end made it well worth it.
Ohh makes sense V1 is quite slow. But it recently got animated too, season 1 just ended yesterday, it's quite good imo.
 
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the_v

Member
Mar 20, 2025
7
18M norcal bay area USA

I'm a student. I'm trans but not pushy about it. Highkey agoraphobic, depression, hate changes to routine. Anger issues.

I've lost a lot of friends this past year. Ended a long term friendship recently that drained me.

I'm not planning on CTB. If anything I want to be a better person than I am now. I've fucked up a lot and I want to make it right.

I like writing and romances like the Shape of Water, Secretary... I wanna get back into working out. I'm a smoker but don't push it on people. I want more male friends but won't discriminate.

If there's anyone out there like me I'm not judgmental at all and not as threatening as I might sound from this post haha. I'm not online often but I'll still respond.
 
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beautifulpristine

beautifulpristine

Member
Feb 25, 2023
14
I'm 29F (almost 30) in northern VA, USA.

I'd prefer a friend around my age or older than me. Gender doesn't matter to me.

I enjoy sewing, cooking, decorating, vintage stuff, and fashion. As well as dark fantasy, horror, weird shows/films in general. I love gothy darkwave music as well as a lot of indie music.

I'm not judgmental. I'm an online sex worker and work from home, and I have lots of free time. Most of my day revolves around working from my phone and that's it. I do have chronic fatigue from surviving sepsis and may take a bit to reply. I also have type 1 bipolar disorder.

It would be great to make a friend here.
 
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decayingdoll

decayingdoll

✚𓏼 ̣̣ 🦴 ༷𓈒‿ 𑣿
Sep 15, 2025
18
hiii ! i'm decayingdoll or just 'doll' ꒰𓏼´ `𓏼 ྀི ♡
i'm 18F and i'm a new member ! i've been suffering from various mental illness since i was 11-12 and attempted ctb my fair share of times. currently deep in sh too, welp :') i don't have many friends, but since i plan on staying around probably for a few more days i'd like to meet new people and just say hi ♡

if you'd wanna be friends and are around my age range pls feel free to reply <3
 
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