TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,956
I've always had this notion of life isn't worth living if it isn't fun or if there is more suffering than there is of pleasure. It has always held true for me, from childhood to adolescence to adulthood (present day). In the last decade (my 20's) I've always had an indifference towards life, maybe there were times where I enjoyed life briefly, but then it faded away quickly while there were times where life was shit (horrible and wanting to CTB and all).
So with that said, given how the world is and will become in the future, here is my 10th (tenth) reason for wanting to CTB. The reason is that the world sucks, it may eventually become untenable, and the things I find joy in may no longer be (reasonably, easily) attainable as they once were. I'm also not a fan of change, especially change that works against my interests, goes against my favors, and more. I could not imagine living in an world that is heavily surveilled (under heavy surveillance) and that our freedoms, rights, and privileges or what was once fun was becoming stripped away with the new shitty life becoming the new norm. I also feared the diminishing availability of reliable and relatively painless methods becoming more difficult to acquire, to access, and such. One day being that even the most reliable (and relatively painless) methods of self-deliverance or CTB, would be near impossible to obtain or just downright restricted and/or illegal for normal use. That alone is unsettling, which pushes me closer to end things sooner than later.
Take another example. Suppose someone who grew up in the 70's or 80's, well before zero tolerance policies were introduced into schools and what not. Back then, even before mass shootings and stuff, people used to be able to freely joke around stuff and/or even play cops and robbers as little kids. Nowadays that is no longer an option nor the norm or the case (even less so for digitarians/generation Z (people who were born after 1997 or in the 2000's)). As someone who grew up in the 90's, well that was when the zero tolerance policies and the seriousness of even playing IRL with toy guns is considered taboo and/or resulted in disciplinary action (at best) or even potentially criminal action (worst cases). While I'm no longer in primary school or in school in general, I do see a trend of how things are going that will be worse after generation Z and possibly future generations, where the things we once found to be fun and natural are being criminalized, shamed, stigmatized all in the name of law and order, safety and security, but I digress.
To put things into more specifics, I will use the Covid-19/Coronavirus pandemic as an example. Before all of this affected the world especially in the US (before early March 2020 that is), the older traditions of human interactions were present and around (physical affection, intimacy, closeness, and all -- the stuff that gives me a little bit of lifefuel, a little bit of holding onto life a bit longer, just tolerating existence a little bit longer, etc.) are then changed. It became (potentially) dangerous to even hug, handshake, or kiss, or anything that involves physical interaction with another human being. As one of my fellow SS members on here, @TiredHorse once said, human beings by default are social creatures and to take that aspect of humanity away would greatly harm the human's emotional and mental well-being. Of course, this is just one facet of a world becoming less tenable over time, there are so many more too.
Looking back, I oftenly see about how much freedom and joy has been eroded day by day, gradually and gradually with our rights as citizens being diminished over time, things sucking in general, and most of all, one of my worst fears is losing the ability or means to go out on my own terms (reliably and as painlessly as possible).
So with that said, given how the world is and will become in the future, here is my 10th (tenth) reason for wanting to CTB. The reason is that the world sucks, it may eventually become untenable, and the things I find joy in may no longer be (reasonably, easily) attainable as they once were. I'm also not a fan of change, especially change that works against my interests, goes against my favors, and more. I could not imagine living in an world that is heavily surveilled (under heavy surveillance) and that our freedoms, rights, and privileges or what was once fun was becoming stripped away with the new shitty life becoming the new norm. I also feared the diminishing availability of reliable and relatively painless methods becoming more difficult to acquire, to access, and such. One day being that even the most reliable (and relatively painless) methods of self-deliverance or CTB, would be near impossible to obtain or just downright restricted and/or illegal for normal use. That alone is unsettling, which pushes me closer to end things sooner than later.
Take another example. Suppose someone who grew up in the 70's or 80's, well before zero tolerance policies were introduced into schools and what not. Back then, even before mass shootings and stuff, people used to be able to freely joke around stuff and/or even play cops and robbers as little kids. Nowadays that is no longer an option nor the norm or the case (even less so for digitarians/generation Z (people who were born after 1997 or in the 2000's)). As someone who grew up in the 90's, well that was when the zero tolerance policies and the seriousness of even playing IRL with toy guns is considered taboo and/or resulted in disciplinary action (at best) or even potentially criminal action (worst cases). While I'm no longer in primary school or in school in general, I do see a trend of how things are going that will be worse after generation Z and possibly future generations, where the things we once found to be fun and natural are being criminalized, shamed, stigmatized all in the name of law and order, safety and security, but I digress.
To put things into more specifics, I will use the Covid-19/Coronavirus pandemic as an example. Before all of this affected the world especially in the US (before early March 2020 that is), the older traditions of human interactions were present and around (physical affection, intimacy, closeness, and all -- the stuff that gives me a little bit of lifefuel, a little bit of holding onto life a bit longer, just tolerating existence a little bit longer, etc.) are then changed. It became (potentially) dangerous to even hug, handshake, or kiss, or anything that involves physical interaction with another human being. As one of my fellow SS members on here, @TiredHorse once said, human beings by default are social creatures and to take that aspect of humanity away would greatly harm the human's emotional and mental well-being. Of course, this is just one facet of a world becoming less tenable over time, there are so many more too.
Looking back, I oftenly see about how much freedom and joy has been eroded day by day, gradually and gradually with our rights as citizens being diminished over time, things sucking in general, and most of all, one of my worst fears is losing the ability or means to go out on my own terms (reliably and as painlessly as possible).
