Story My Bizarre Story Failing with N

[Catloaf]

Even if using 10g is a word of mouth, they still should have addressed this more in the book.

 

[Disappointered]

I guess you have to try to gulp it down like shots of really harsh liquor?

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I guess you have to try to gulp it down like shots of really harsh liquor?

Pretty much this. It acts quick once you drink it

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

I simultaneously would love to try N but am afraid of it. I gag really bad at the taste of alcohol and struggle to swallow stuff I dont like. I also have no idea how I would get my hands on good anti emetics. More than anything I dont want to be sectioned again or destroy my body and even though I never discuss my mental health, since my first attempt, my family is on high alert whenever i go 'missing'. Even to the point my mum once got security to break into my room at uni one day when I was sleeping in and didnt reply to her messages, I cant risk being interrupted. Idk do i practice by drinkng shots of gin

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I simultaneously would love to try N but am afraid of it. I gag really bad at the taste of alcohol and struggle to swallow stuff I dont like. I also have no idea how I would get my hands on good anti emetics. More than anything I dont want to be sectioned again or destroy my body and even though I never discuss my mental health, since my first attempt, my family is on high alert whenever i go 'missing'. Even to the point my mum once got security to break into my room at uni one day when I was sleeping in and didnt reply to her messages, I cant risk being interrupted. Idk do i practice by drinkng shots of gin

If you gag really badly with the taste of alcohol, I don't think you stand a chance with N

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

If you gag really badly with the taste of alcohol, I don't think you stand a chance with N

Wish I could get someone to inject me with it but I would never want to put someone in that sort of legal situation. Guess the only solution to that would be training myself with other shit tasting liquid

 

[Disappointered]

I always found whiskey pretty gross but some people love it. Maybe go for tequila.

 

[Timeless]

I'm sorry to hear this , but I must say I was learned that you need at least 2 bottles of liquid N.. That one was/is a bit to less. But again it's just what I heard from my end of life counselor.

I'll be going with fentanyl patches, no change of vomiting it out.

I hope you'll feel a bit better soon

 

[Disappointered]

I'm sorry to hear this , but I must say I was learned that you need at least 2 bottles of liquid N.. That one was/is a bit to less. But again it's just what I heard from my end of life counselor.

I'll be going with fentanyl patches, no change of vomiting it out.

I hope you'll feel a bit better soon

I guess you are a senior? if not I'd like to know how to get the patches as I think it would greatly alleviate my end of life. If anyone can provide any info please PM me, thank you.

 

[ddd1234]

So it looks like even N is not 100% reliable. That's very bad news :(

 

[Koppite]

You do wonder how many of these Hollywood stars die from alcohol/sleeping tablet overdose when we're all worried about surviving a bottle of Nembutal.

I have one bottle of Pisabental (back from when A was reliable and you didn't need crypto) that's 3 years past its sell by date - but as it's been refrigerated and unopened I'm not concerned about that.
What I am a little concerned by is whether one bottle is enough. I'm in my 50s but I'm still strong and healthy so, barring finding another bottle (which seems way too complicated for my old brain with cryptocurrency etc) I'm planning on loads of liquor and benzos to go with the N.
With enough meto (I have 10 tablets but can get more, easily) I reckon I could keep from throwing that up.
Only one way to find out, right?

 

[PeacefulTonic]

You do wonder how many of these Hollywood stars die from alcohol/sleeping tablet overdose when we're all worried about surviving a bottle of Nembutal.

I have one bottle of Pisabental (back from when A was reliable and you didn't need crypto) that's 3 years past its sell by date - but as it's been refrigerated and unopened I'm not concerned about that.
What I am a little concerned by is whether one bottle is enough. I'm in my 50s but I'm still strong and healthy so, barring finding another bottle (which seems way too complicated for my old brain with cryptocurrency etc) I'm planning on loads of liquor and benzos to go with the N.
With enough meto (I have 10 tablets but can get more, easily) I reckon I could keep from throwing that up.
Only one way to find out, right?

You stored it correctly and are potentiating with liquor and benzos. You're good

 

[Timeless]

I guess you are a senior? if not I'd like to know how to get the patches as I think it would greatly alleviate my end of life. If anyone can provide any info please PM me, thank you.

No I'm 35 , but I can get fentanyl easy from the doctor for my poly neuropathy, and CRPS type2. I was first on oxycodon. Since short I convinced the doctor to give me fentanyl. And I'm tapered of oxycodon. So now I have 20 x 100mcg /hr patches. One patch equal about 400mg morphine a day. And the patches work for 72 hours 3 days at least. So with 20 I'll get 8gram morphine a day with 20 patches. And I'll order some clonazolam with flualprazolam both 1 gram about 2500 dosises of sleep medicine. The pure powder is cheap.

With some domperidon as anti emetic

 

[Disappointered]

No I'm 35 , but I can get fentanyl easy from the doctor for my poly neuropathy, and CRPS type2. I was first on oxycodon. Since short I convinced the doctor to give me fentanyl. And I'm tapered of oxycodon. So now I have 20 x 100mcg /hr patches. One patch equal about 400mg morphine a day. So with 20 I'll get 8gram morphine a day with 20 patches. And I'll order some clonazolam with flualprazolam both 1 gram about 2500 dosises of sleep medicine. The pure powder is cheap.

With some domperidon as anti emetic

Wow...well, I'm not saying I envy you for the pain you must have to go through but at least you got the doc to give you some F patches. Thanks for the info.

 

[Wrennie]

No I'm 35 , but I can get fentanyl easy from the doctor for my poly neuropathy, and CRPS type2. I was first on oxycodon. Since short I convinced the doctor to give me fentanyl. And I'm tapered of oxycodon. So now I have 20 x 100mcg /hr patches. One patch equal about 400mg morphine a day. And the patches work for 72 hours 3 days at least. So with 20 I'll get 8gram morphine a day with 20 patches. And I'll order some clonazolam with flualprazolam both 1 gram about 2500 dosises of sleep medicine. The pure powder is cheap.

With some domperidon as anti emetic

Are you in America? I have the same condition but I can't see any doctor reasonably prescribing me Fentanyl

 

[Disappointered]

Are you in America? I have the same condition but I can't see any doctor reasonably prescribing me Fentanyl

I feel it is much the same in canada but it really infuriates because the only reason for that policy (because it's policy not medicine let alone science) is the supposed 'opioid crisis'. How is the the fact that people have become addicts in any way my problem as a chronic pain patient? Do you know that they actually tried to propose going to the gym as an alternative...TO OPIOIDS? The doctors who go along with this are the same kinds who would be be weak collaborators under a tyrannical gov't...oh wait, they already are.

Anyway, what does it matter. if they won't fix the situation more and more people will just find ways of leaving it. That's why this forum is so important. People need to have a way of leaving this horrible world. So many people live indescribably horrible lives and the same people who are indirectly responsible for the horrible suffering are often in charge of finding ways to relieve it. No. People are just going to end up hating existence so much that they will realize suicide is the only way out for them. They must be allowed to access it and I don't have high hopes for canada coming through any time soon.

 

[redwaymilk]

I'm sorry to hear this , but I must say I was learned that you need at least 2 bottles of liquid N.. That one was/is a bit to less. But again it's just what I heard from my end of life counselor.

I'll be going with fentanyl patches, no change of vomiting it out.

I hope you'll feel a bit better soon

That is the ideal way for sure.

 

[Butterflyfree]

So I believe OPs story. I have N and did a taste test. It is awful, but I don't think chugging it quickly and then having a chaser would be a problem. The recommendations around coating with honey or using mouthwash before would likely help.

I think someone determined wouldn't have a problem getting it down with and antiemetic. My reading of the story is that he tried to take it slowly and add flavouring. Think of it as doing tequila shots, and I think you'll be fine.
Also to everyone reacting to the taste aspect. An alternative that would work would be pouring it into your ass. I'm not joking, it would work. Would be a weird way to find your body though.

LMAO

 

[Wrennie]

I feel it is much the same in canada but it really infuriates because the only reason for that policy (because it's policy not medicine let alone science) is the supposed 'opioid crisis'. How is the the fact that people have become addicts in any way my problem as a chronic pain patient? Do you know that they actually tried to propose going to the gym as an alternative...TO OPIOIDS? The doctors who go along with this are the same kinds who would be be weak collaborators under a tyrannical gov't...oh wait, they already are.

Anyway, what does it matter. if they won't fix the situation more and more people will just find ways of leaving it. That's why this forum is so important. People need to have a way of leaving this horrible world. So many people live indescribably horrible lives and the same people who are indirectly responsible for the horrible suffering are often in charge of finding ways to relieve it. No. People are just going to end up hating existence so much that they will realize suicide is the only way out for them. They must be allowed to access it and I don't have high hopes for canada coming through any time soon.

OH MY GOD, yes. It took two ER visits of me trembling in agonizing nerve pain for them to finally prescribe me six (just six) oxy pills. How on earth was that sparse ration going to last me? I was in agony.

And then for some reason they wanted to have me sectioned again because they thought I was in enough pain to kill myself… but no, despite that pain they still wouldn't spare any drop of morphine.
The mental health lady they forced me to speak one-on-one with had the deadest eyes, like a legit sociopath.
She was so reactive and interrogative and I was made to feel like I was on trial for murder.

The doctors didn't even get my reason for being there correct. They did a ct of my head when I offhandedly mentioned I'd tripped earlier that day and lightly bumped my head, but that was just one sentence and the rest was all of my medical history and details about my neurological disorder which was my principle reason for being there (& they naturally knew nothing of) etc.

 

[Butterflyfree]

Tbf The vids I've seen showed that they at the very keast found the taste disgusting. The one guy is dry wretching at first and they're alternating between two drinks for him to drink from due to the taste. He is drinking through a straw due to his health condition. They have to keep odfering it up to him so he'll drink it quick enough. Once he gets it down though he's fine and his wife sits beside it. I forget if they had music playing oe something but he isn't distressed. He admitted being scared when they made the trip but there and then in the moment he handles it well and goes peacefully and seemingly very quickly. This wasn't at dignitas. This was at a seemingly independent set up as it was at a home style property. It was run professionally though. The guy that provided the N had a whole protocol for things and called the police as lart of it to report a dead body. He filmed everything for their benefit. Maybe he was working on behalf of dignitas or the like but it wasn't mentioned and I would imagine a nicer location if that the case.
Peter Smedley had a decent one and he noted the terrible taste too.

@Smart No More where could I see that video?

 

[Smart No More]

@Smart No More where could I see that video?

I'm not sure now because it was a while back but I think it may have been in the Terry Pratchet documentary on assisted suicide. It was on youtube I'm pretty sure so if you search it on there you'll probably find it. It could have been one of Vices videos too. Basically just search youtube and you'll find a few video accounts of people using N. I think there may be some videos in the resources thread that are relevant too.

 

[Disappointered]

OH MY GOD, yes. It took two ER visits of me trembling in agonizing nerve pain for them to finally prescribe me six (just six) oxy pills. How on earth was that sparse ration going to last me? I was in agony.

And then for some reason they wanted to have me sectioned again because they thought I was in enough pain to kill myself… but no, despite that pain they still wouldn't spare any drop of morphine.
The mental health lady they forced me to speak one-on-one with had the deadest eyes, like a legit sociopath.
She was so reactive and interrogative and I was made to feel like I was on trial for murder.

The doctors didn't even get my reason for being there correct. They did a ct of my head when I offhandedly mentioned I'd tripped earlier that day and lightly bumped my head, but that was just one sentence and the rest was all of my medical history and details about my neurological disorder which was my principle reason for being there (& they naturally knew nothing of) etc.

Omg that is so scary, outrageous and infuriating...I'm so sorry you have to put up with that kind of treatment!

 

[setup]

I am thinking how about using a straw and avoiding tongue or covering a tongue with something.

I didn't try to say that N doesn't work, my intention was just to share my story. And in my case not only that I failed to drink it all but also been told that I puked it. So, the taste is something that is worth to prepare and consider.

My best guess would be 80% of the bottle. But I wouldn't use it as a reliable information because it all seemed foggy on xanex.
Also, was there no other similar cases? I can't be the only one to fail both life and death with N.

How many bottles did u take? Was it 80% of one or two? How much do u weigh? Also do u think the excess honey was what made you gag and throw up?

If u could answer these that would be great. Just a couple thoughts after reading ur post

Using a straw does not take away the taste. When you order a coke at McDonalds and they give you a cup and straw, do you know its coke when you drink it? lol of course you do. Using a straw only prolongs the time it takes to drink it.

Idk I think a boba straw prob be pretty effective but that's just me

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

So I believe OPs story. I have N and did a taste test. It is awful, but I don't think chugging it quickly and then having a chaser would be a problem. The recommendations around coating with honey or using mouthwash before would likely help.

I think someone determined wouldn't have a problem getting it down with and antiemetic. My reading of the story is that he tried to take it slowly and add flavouring. Think of it as doing tequila shots, and I think you'll be fine.
Also to everyone reacting to the taste aspect. An alternative that would work would be pouring it into your ass. I'm not joking, it would work. Would be a weird way to find your body though.

What. Would it be just as efficient and quick acting as ingesting it though? This would be a more funny way to go out And your last taste wouldn't have to be bitterness which I suppose is nice since some people have a hard time drinking it.

 

[boc]

I think the absorption rate would be faster than taking it orally. So there's a decent chance you'd be passed out before you had a chance to pull your pants up. Like it's a 3-5 min orally before you pass out. I could see it being like 30 sec if taken rectally.

 

[lmon]

So I believe OPs story. I have N and did a taste test. It is awful, but I don't think chugging it quickly and then having a chaser would be a problem. The recommendations around coating with honey or using mouthwash before would likely help.

I think someone determined wouldn't have a problem getting it down with and antiemetic. My reading of the story is that he tried to take it slowly and add flavouring. Think of it as doing tequila shots, and I think you'll be fine.
Also to everyone reacting to the taste aspect. An alternative that would work would be pouring it into your ass. I'm not joking, it would work. Would be a weird way to find your body though.

I think I read that's what they did to marylin Monroe

 

[lmon]

Because this are handpicked videos for the public.

Imagine, they would publish a Dignitas video with a 43 years old lady from Germany, who took 15 Gramm N ten years ago and was yelling "I am burning!" after swallowing it before she felt asleep 4 minutes later.

After the immediate yelling there was no sign of any pain, but if euthanasia groups would publish anything on video, which sounds or looks disturbing, they would lose many of their clients and would be under more massive pressure by governments. So handpicked stories and videos is the result, not only to protect their business model but also to protect their clients, that they do not lose this last resort.

The Helium desaster of Dignitas is a good example, how a pieceful methode will be removed from an euthanasia group, because the videos have been so disturbing to the prosecuter due to mistakes they made and what was leaked to the press, that they never again will use it.

So the gas method is dead for whole Europe. Never again one euthanasia group will use it here. Nitschke's hope is with the Sarco and his connections to Switzerland.

The only remaining peaceful N method must be protected at all costs.

wait, was that a real story?

 

[Ta555]

No burning. It was just bitterness. Also I didn't mean that I pass out from it. I likely fell asleep high on xanex.
Also if anyone's wondering the N was from D. I don't understand how this stuff wouldn't make more damage in such a long time. My theory is that perhaps I puked it early on.

I know this is a really old thread but I'm ready to go soon and just perusing the N threads one last time. However, OP says he drank about 80ml of N and then says he 'likely fell asleep on Xanax'. Yeah...um no...people here are out cold with 3ml of N and someone ended up in a three day coma on 10 ml and in hospital so you fell asleep because of the N. As for the puking, it could've been a side effect of the N or it could have been a side effect of the Xanax if you are not used to it. Sorry, but I just find it ridiculous that you drank almost a whole bottle of N but you believe the one xanax made you fall asleep and not the almost lethal dose of anesthetic.

 

[Smart No More]

I'd say the mix of booze and xanax along with the food eaten alongside the attempt to drink the N will all habe played a part in the puking. The sleep would definitely have been a result of the N they drank but there's no doubt the xanax helped it along. But yeah, I am certain the same scenario would likely have played out without the xanax. It was a really messy attempt. I don't think it says which AE's were used but I've heard that using too much of certain AE's can have the opposite effect.

This is a clear case of how not to do it. It needs to be drunk fast and drinking alc, eating food all prior to the N is really ill advised. It's amazing that people can do the research to get hold of N and still make such errors in using it. I suppose we all have our issues though and when you're in a bad enough place not everyone has a very high presence of mind to put it kindly.

 

[Ta555]

I'd say the mix of booze and xanax along with the food eaten alongside the attempt to drink the N will all habe played a part in the puking. The sleep would definitely have been a result of the N they drank but there's no doubt the xanax helped it along. But yeah, I am certain the same scenario would likely have played out without the xanax. It was a really messy attempt. I don't think it says which AE's were used but I've heard that using too much of certain AE's can have the opposite effect.

This is a clear case of how not to do it. It needs to be drunk fast and drinking alc, eating food all prior to the N is really ill advised. It's amazing that people can do the research to get hold of N and still make such errors in using it. I suppose we all have our issues though and when you're in a bad enough place not everyone has a very high presence of mind to put it kindly.

I think the food is not such a big deal because they do say to have very light meal about an hour before. I think it will just slow down the absorption. But yeah, alcohol and benzos combined and then the N...no wonder OP puked.
Yes antiemetics act on the brain and that's why I won't be using any because my brain is already messed up so I don't want to take any risks in take AE and then for some reason not being able to take the N. I'll try to gulp down one bottle but even if I don't get it all down it's fine coz I'll still fall asleep and then the plastic bag I'll have ready on my head will do the rest.