i had intended to attempt to ctb by hanging earlier, and i had taken 140 ml of vodka 30 minutes before, but unfortunately my family got home and i couldn't properly attempt. Here is my brutally honest experience with using vodka to get rid of survival instinct
1. It did work to an extent, i had tried a partial hanging attempt after my family got home but upon realizing i would be found in less than 2 minutes i stopped the attempt. However, when i was losing consciousness in the partial hanging attempt, the effects of the vodka effectively masked the effects of impending doom, i feel like if i had tried a full suspension attempt with the vodka i wouldnt be here typing this. I felt very sedated, but not sleepy, and my thoughts were also quiet. Other times before attempting, i would have thoughts of "my mom will miss me" and stuff that would make me stop, but not this time. Although i was very disappointed when i stopped my desperate partial hanging attempt, i felt like that was more to do with the fact that everyone was home and everyone would definitely notice my gasps for breath.
2. As a first time drinker, my motor skills were noticeably impaired,but not too noticeable to family members. I took 140 ml of vodka and i felt slower and sluggish, but my parents couldnt tell i was kinda drunk. Also,vodka doesnt have a smell like other alcohol, very good for those who want to mask themselves in case of a failed attempt like me. Also i could set up the rope easily, i could place it on my sweet spot and everything went fine.
3. Vodka is super disgusting, tastes and smells like hand sanitizer,but its probably the best alcohol for those who dont want to have the lingering alcohol smell of other alcohols, i mixed mine with iced tea to make it better to drink.I didnt have any type of odour, and even my very conservative parents couldnt notice i had just drank.
i will be trying again soon, with probably more vodka, but this is my experience for now,in case anyone was wondering
1. It did work to an extent, i had tried a partial hanging attempt after my family got home but upon realizing i would be found in less than 2 minutes i stopped the attempt. However, when i was losing consciousness in the partial hanging attempt, the effects of the vodka effectively masked the effects of impending doom, i feel like if i had tried a full suspension attempt with the vodka i wouldnt be here typing this. I felt very sedated, but not sleepy, and my thoughts were also quiet. Other times before attempting, i would have thoughts of "my mom will miss me" and stuff that would make me stop, but not this time. Although i was very disappointed when i stopped my desperate partial hanging attempt, i felt like that was more to do with the fact that everyone was home and everyone would definitely notice my gasps for breath.
2. As a first time drinker, my motor skills were noticeably impaired,but not too noticeable to family members. I took 140 ml of vodka and i felt slower and sluggish, but my parents couldnt tell i was kinda drunk. Also,vodka doesnt have a smell like other alcohol, very good for those who want to mask themselves in case of a failed attempt like me. Also i could set up the rope easily, i could place it on my sweet spot and everything went fine.
3. Vodka is super disgusting, tastes and smells like hand sanitizer,but its probably the best alcohol for those who dont want to have the lingering alcohol smell of other alcohols, i mixed mine with iced tea to make it better to drink.I didnt have any type of odour, and even my very conservative parents couldnt notice i had just drank.
i will be trying again soon, with probably more vodka, but this is my experience for now,in case anyone was wondering
