
Blue Rose
Student
- Feb 6, 2021
- 156
In those days, I was a fresh newbie. I was desperate and had little information on everything of SS.
Some users in the general chit-chat room asked me the reason why I would like to die.
Of course, I answered them honestly and an unexpected response occurred.
They started to focus on reputing everything I had said, then I grudged too.
Even those who had prepared their CTB had already focused on reputing my all arguments,
finally I started to cry with severe confusion and sadness.
They told me that I had not any reasonable reasons for my CTB.
They asked me whether I had tried to do anything I could have done, before my CTB indeed.
They told me that they had not intention to stop me, but I should be more careful on my CTB.
And they told me that once I died, there would NOT be the second chance anymore.
I cried for an hour. Some users who had refuted my arguments once consoled me also.
I remember that, after this initiation, I wrote a thread with my confusion and sadness.
I hated them for a while, but now I can understand them.
I am sure I was reckless and immature in those days, so I think they taught me with their radical methods or means.
I am sure they knew the weight of my choice and my life than I had known about them.
But if I meet the user like myself in those days, How should I do?
Some users in the general chit-chat room asked me the reason why I would like to die.
Of course, I answered them honestly and an unexpected response occurred.
They started to focus on reputing everything I had said, then I grudged too.
Even those who had prepared their CTB had already focused on reputing my all arguments,
finally I started to cry with severe confusion and sadness.
They told me that I had not any reasonable reasons for my CTB.
They asked me whether I had tried to do anything I could have done, before my CTB indeed.
They told me that they had not intention to stop me, but I should be more careful on my CTB.
And they told me that once I died, there would NOT be the second chance anymore.
I cried for an hour. Some users who had refuted my arguments once consoled me also.
I remember that, after this initiation, I wrote a thread with my confusion and sadness.
I hated them for a while, but now I can understand them.
I am sure I was reckless and immature in those days, so I think they taught me with their radical methods or means.
I am sure they knew the weight of my choice and my life than I had known about them.
But if I meet the user like myself in those days, How should I do?
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