Bigredtxs907
Member
- Oct 9, 2021
- 26
hello, my real name is Colton and I'm 28 years old. I been think about ending my life since 2016 so about 5 years now. I have 2 amazing sons. 7 and 8 I believe now.... I haven't seen them since they where young. put 2 and 2 together your starting to see where this story is going..... I failed as a father and as a husband. I came home drunk one night and my ex wife starting hitting me so I pushed her down the stairs in 2015 I been saying its self defense for years now but took a plea deal because the court prosses was too long and I wanted it off my recorded and too continue with my job/life at the time. but a year after I have wanted to be back with my kids and ex... I cant continue living with this pain and regret. I wish I could read my kids one last bed time story and kiss my wife one last time. But she wants nothing todo with me and has since gotten a restraint order on me. I have tried mixing pills and alcohol in the past. Even tried drinking hole 5ths and driving blacked out. But for some reason god want let me end my own life..... He thinks it a joke to keep me here with this pain... I have since started cutting friends and family out of my life. Well more of the story will be posted as time moves on... in this painful world......
