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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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Over the summer I met a guy (nothing serious) who is 30 years old as I was finally ready to move on from the 55 year old man I was deeply in love with. He was a very tall redheaded white male from Norway. I really liked him for his personality and I genuinely was attracted to him. He works in a hemp store in my city. The shop at times had no customers and during those periods we talked to each other. I asked for his number and after he finished work I came to the store and asked him to go on a walk with me. He agreed. The area has lot of markets and we walked along the canal, we had so much fun. After our walk we regularly began talking more.
No matter what i did to show my interest and care in him he made me feel so inadequate.
1)I regularly told him that I find his hair and deep dark brown eyes beautiful. The compliments I gave where never enough for him. After complimenting him on many occasions he asked me to confirm if I find him physically attractive. I always showed interest in the things he liked and asked him about the things he likes, dislikes etc.
2)He shared with me his past relationships with women have not been healthy ie his girlfriends have had issues with addiction, one was abusive towards him and others had some kind of dysfunction. He has been a victim of sexual assault. I listened to him as he opened up to me about his sexual assault and gave him a safe space to talk.
3)His behaviour towards me at times was so disrespectful. When it came to my height his comments were so hurtful He pointed on multiple occasions how "Tiny" I was compared to him. He mentioned how his exes were "not as small as me".
He questioned how someone small like me can be attracted to man big as him. I told him I don't care about his height because "I am staring above his face and I like what I see"
I was getting fed up of him having a problem with my small height so I tried to find out why he has a problem with my height. So I asked him the following question" if we were to have sex are you scared of breaking my bones and me going to A&E[hospital]"
The man response was " yes - that was one of my initial fears " meeting you. I was absolutely disgusted because I wanted to know him as a person but he was focused on sex and whether my body break if were to have sex.
4)He has toxic traits. One of the stories he gave about his exes just didn't make any sense at all so I asked some basic questions and he gave me slient treatment because he didn't like my questions. I apologised immediately and for two weeks he didn't talk to me. I ended up begging him forgiveness in person when we met. It really hurt everyday was painful. He accepted my apology and I asked him out for coffee which he agreed
5) He even complained that I am "hard to read" even though I was honest that I liked him.
2 days before our scheduled outing he decides to reject me. He sends me a long text message saying how he is a "stranger" and says how he is not the person I think he is and didn't like the fact I follow a religion. I am Catholic whereas he is Anti Thiest. I told him already I will NEVER force my beliefs on him and I accepted him for he is but he says religion is a redline
This man even complained to me that women do not show any interest in him but I put myself on a plate for him, I really wanted him and showed geniuene interest he still rejects me. I can't win because I put so much effort and time in guys i liked but still I lose. I can't win anymore I am never good enough for anyone.
No matter what i did to show my interest and care in him he made me feel so inadequate.
1)I regularly told him that I find his hair and deep dark brown eyes beautiful. The compliments I gave where never enough for him. After complimenting him on many occasions he asked me to confirm if I find him physically attractive. I always showed interest in the things he liked and asked him about the things he likes, dislikes etc.
2)He shared with me his past relationships with women have not been healthy ie his girlfriends have had issues with addiction, one was abusive towards him and others had some kind of dysfunction. He has been a victim of sexual assault. I listened to him as he opened up to me about his sexual assault and gave him a safe space to talk.
3)His behaviour towards me at times was so disrespectful. When it came to my height his comments were so hurtful He pointed on multiple occasions how "Tiny" I was compared to him. He mentioned how his exes were "not as small as me".
He questioned how someone small like me can be attracted to man big as him. I told him I don't care about his height because "I am staring above his face and I like what I see"
I was getting fed up of him having a problem with my small height so I tried to find out why he has a problem with my height. So I asked him the following question" if we were to have sex are you scared of breaking my bones and me going to A&E[hospital]"
The man response was " yes - that was one of my initial fears " meeting you. I was absolutely disgusted because I wanted to know him as a person but he was focused on sex and whether my body break if were to have sex.
4)He has toxic traits. One of the stories he gave about his exes just didn't make any sense at all so I asked some basic questions and he gave me slient treatment because he didn't like my questions. I apologised immediately and for two weeks he didn't talk to me. I ended up begging him forgiveness in person when we met. It really hurt everyday was painful. He accepted my apology and I asked him out for coffee which he agreed
5) He even complained that I am "hard to read" even though I was honest that I liked him.
2 days before our scheduled outing he decides to reject me. He sends me a long text message saying how he is a "stranger" and says how he is not the person I think he is and didn't like the fact I follow a religion. I am Catholic whereas he is Anti Thiest. I told him already I will NEVER force my beliefs on him and I accepted him for he is but he says religion is a redline
This man even complained to me that women do not show any interest in him but I put myself on a plate for him, I really wanted him and showed geniuene interest he still rejects me. I can't win because I put so much effort and time in guys i liked but still I lose. I can't win anymore I am never good enough for anyone.
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