Suicide at 30 is the only option i have to avoid having a lonely life forever

[Edu Ardanuy]

@endofline2010 At 25 I got pretty and man began to notice me.. I ended up falling in love with a 55 year old man because he noticed me and gave me attention while boys my own age were never interested me whenever I showed interest in them.

This arsehole messed me up in so many ways. He was a work colleague in a job that was my first ever full time job since graduating from my undergraduate degree. Last year this is arsehole humiliated me at work. Long story

This summer I started to bond more with a 30 year old guy from a retail store I normally shop in. Things were going great and then the guy decides to reject me because I am Catholic.

He told me he is an Anti Thiest. Anti Thiesm the philosophical position that theism should be opposed and sees organised religion as harmful.

I told him its OK because I liked him for the person he is. I told him I respect people's right to believe whatever they want to believe because I am very tolerant and open minded person and I will never force my beliefs on him.

I AM SICK OF ALWAYS BEING REJECTED AND NO ONE EVER WANTING ME THE WAY OTHER WOMEN GET WANTED

I AM KILLING MYSELF AT 30. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY ITS ALWAYS REJECTION

NO MORE

"Wish I could fall in love with you and tell you everything is going to be ok - when I know they won't - and love you forever, and be loved". Well. words are just words. One thing I've learned, its definitelly not for everyone. At the very beginning, every single one of my friends were too drunk on dopamine, released by their brains as the result of thinking they were in love, to realize that they weren't actually really paying attention to their partners, to their future wives.
The results?
Nowadays, mostly of them changed partners, ended long term relationships, decided to live all alone, changed paths, changed the way they think.
Back in the day, I fell in love just by reading a poem... all of a sudden I was falling in love.
My take on this is that to have a stable and healthy relationship is hard for everyone, they just pretend, most of the time, things are going well, even if they aren't that good.
I don't know... I have never been anyone's first choice. And it seems its really not for everyone, I think its a matter of being lucky, like, striking the lotery, as my grandma used to say.
Now I don't really care, I no longer want to be on a relationship, but I got your point, and I'm sorry you've been through a lot of shit.

-Sorry, english is not my first language so my retoric might resonate a little weird.

 

[babouflo201223]

J'ai toujours su que j'aurais une vie solitaire. J'ai toujours été trop moche pour l'amour. Je le serai toujours.
J'aurais aimé avoir le courage de me lancer dans le CTB à 30 ans, juste pour cette raison. Cela m'aurait épargné bien des souffrances et du temps perdu...

Désolé de vous le dire, mais être moche ne signifie pas que vous ne pouvez pas trouver l'amour et être aimé.
Pour ma part, je ne m'intéresse pas à la beauté/la laideur, c'est quelque chose qui n'a aucune importance en fait. Je m'intéresse à ce qu'il y a dans le cerveau, les connaissances m'attirent (la beauté non, car elle ne me dit rien en fait) et je suis touchée bien sûr si le partenaire est sensible.

 

[divinemistress36]

"Wish I could fall in love with you and tell you everything is going to be ok - when I know they won't - and love you forever, and be loved". Well. words are just words. One thing I've learned, its definitelly not for everyone. At the very beginning, every single one of my friends were too drunk on dopamine, released by their brains as the result of thinking they were in love, to realize that they weren't actually really paying attention to their partners, to their future wives.
The results?
Nowadays, mostly of them changed partners, ended long term relationships, decided to live all alone, changed paths, changed the way they think.
Back in the day, I fell in love just by reading a poem... all of a sudden I was falling in love.
My take on this is that to have a stable and healthy relationship is hard for everyone, they just pretend, most of the time, things are going well, even if they aren't that good.
I don't know... I have never been anyone's first choice. And it seems its really not for everyone, I think its a matter of being lucky, like, striking the lotery, as my grandma used to say.
Now I don't really care, I no longer want to be on a relationship, but I got your point, and I'm sorry you've been through a lot of shit.

-Sorry, english is not my first language so my retoric might resonate a little weird.

I agree. Very few relationships make it long term

 

[pthind94]

1. From what I have read, men are visual so that's one of the most important aspects of attracting a man.
2. It would be the area you are in. In bigger cities I find dating easier because there are so many people from all around the world.
3. There are tons of problems that come with marriage and relationships, which can feel like torture at times. Your partner could be abusive, a cheater, liar. Sadly, These are things that are so common nowadays in relationships

 

[Tig]

I've got 2 words for you,
Faith

 

[FireFox]

1. From what I have read, men are visual so that's one of the most important aspects of attracting a man.
2. It would be the area you are in. In bigger cities I find dating easier because there are so many people from all around the world.
3. There are tons of problems that come with marriage and relationships, which can feel like torture at times. Your partner could be abusive, a cheater, liar. Sadly, These are things that are so common nowadays in relationships

@pthind94 I live in a city and everywhere I go I am outnumbered by couples. I go to a large university with a high population of students from overseas. These people all have boyfriends and girlfriends back home in their home countries that they have been with for years and others bring their partners with them to the UK

Everyone has a relationship except me. I socialise with people, go out to places but everyone has a partner except me. I take care of my appearance, I put myself out there but still no guy wants to know me. I remember every detail a man tells me about himself but no guy does the same for me.

 

[katara]

I'm in my 20s too and i can relate to what you said here. Being lonely is one of the things that brought me here, i dont even have any friends and my mom doesnt care. I struggle with just talking to people, nobody will ever choose me and it's because they see what i am, a loser. I thought about making a video about my situation on tiktok but im so scared of speaking about it for some reason. It's hard, but it's refreshing to see pretty women dealing with being alone as well. I still feel lesser than them because i don't have friends either. I'm atheist and i think some can be annoying when they don't even try to hear people out. Sorry that guy rejected you, it's not on you tho, i think it's just your belief. I stopped going out because i hate seeing couples and happy people. Being alone is something i've always experienced, i feel like a failure. And the thing is it hurts because i really would love to have a family sense most of mine doesn't care about me. But that will never happen, why cant i just accept defeat...

 

[FireFox]

I'm in my 20s too and i can relate to what you said here. Being lonely is one of the things that brought me here, i dont even have any friends and my mom doesnt care. I struggle with just talking to people, nobody will ever choose me and it's because they see what i am, a loser. I thought about making a video about my situation on tiktok but im so scared of speaking about it for some reason. It's hard, but it's refreshing to see pretty women dealing with being alone as well. I still feel lesser than them because i don't have friends either. I'm atheist and i think some can be annoying when they don't even try to hear people out. Sorry that guy rejected you, it's not on you tho, i think it's just your belief. I stopped going out because i hate seeing couples and happy people. Being alone is something i've always experienced, i feel like a failure. And the thing is it hurts because i really would love to have a family sense most of mine doesn't care about me. But that will never happen, why cant i just accept defeat...

@katara DO NOT MAKE A TIKTOK ABOUT YOUR SITUATION ! One thing I have learnt about being single all my life is people do not care about us nor take our experiences seriously. We live in a world that was made for couples they have the best of everything. Politicians design policies for couples, coupled get discounts for fun stuff, every movie main characters have a love interest or end up in a relationship with someone, lifestyle magazines centre everything about relationships etc

We don't matter. Tiktok is a bullying pit. It's so disgusting.

 

[me_when_:D]

My older brother found his woman when he was 27. She is one year older than him I think (probably more, but I forgot by how much). She was his boss where he worked. He is now 30 and he would marry her if not for the war in Ukraine

 

[death_bed221]

I am 30 and its too late for me as well. If u are 30 and trying to find someone its crazy cuz most women already had some relationships and if u didn't it wont work out.

 

[Zaphkiel]

At 27 you're still blooming as a flower, and you still have years to come.
You shouldn't worry, you're a beautiful person and you should not blame yourself for being rejected, nor the guy for following his belief.

Still, even if you feel desesperate, don't do thing that you'd regret, and i'm not talking only about CTB!

It will takes time but i'm sure you will find it.

As another personne in this thread ,i'm divorced for now 2 years and alone, and every year that pass i think i better myself a little and if if i find another relationship it will be of much higher quality.

 

[cosmic-realism]

This isn't meant to invalidate your pain or sorrow in any way,but there are billion of women in this world who would kill to be you.Many women from socially primitive societies have the threat of forced marriages hanging over their head in their twenties.Both rich and poor.

Their careers and dreams are crushed by the males of the prison they unfortunately call home.It's a dream for many women to age to thirty peacefully,where marriage would mean they would be raped into having children by their enslaver and the children would be an obligation and not a choice.Many ctb to escape that kind of hell due to the constant abuse.

You have a life ahead of you without a man enslaving you.You're free to make your own choice.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You have a life ahead of you without a man enslaving you.You're free to make your own choice.

Being in a relationship =/= being enslaved by a man. Honestly, it does feel like you are just invalidating her struggles.