My SN is here but I can't use it yet

[CyanideSoup]

My SN arrived but I can't CTB until my daughters birthday has passed, so atleast a few more weeks. It's almost making me feel worse though. I thought I'd feel better, like I had a safety net. But it actually feels like I'm just torturing myself when the way out is right there. I'm so irritable and tired and all I want to do is get it over with.

 

[Neverod]

A last act of kindness by you i would say, to wait for that.
Hope you are sucessfull this time if that's what you want.

 

[JimFord99]

How long till your daughter's birthday? Have you planned for the aftermath? How old are your daughters? Someone looking after them?