Discussion Neurodivergent?

[loser4ever4life]

Do you consider yourself neurodivergent? What's your experience been?

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

Yes, I believe I am. My experience has not been good interacting with normies for the most part. Sometimes I can fake being one but eventually I can't keep that up forever.

 

[Arrival03]

I am, my life might have been somewhat bearable if I was born neurotypical.

 

[loser4ever4life]

Yes, I believe I am. My experience has not been good interacting with normies for the most part. Sometimes I can fake being one but eventually I can't keep that up forever.

This 100x

I struggle to be happy, it takes so much energy just not to be seen as a Debbie downer. Then to have to be "normal" too is just overbearing at times. I have an autism diagnosis and no wonder autistic folk are thinking 3-4x more about suicide than neurotypicals. Read a great article about this; https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11042491/

I am, my life might have been somewhat bearable if I was born neurotypical.

I agree, I can't handle the extra weight that this adds to my plate

 

[closetopeace]

i definitely have some traits, don't know so much about having the full package... but i do believe that if i had a normal brain life would've been easier like another person said here.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

It has severely harmed my life in many, many ways. I cannot understand people who try to make it a point of pride or who "love" their neurodivergence. It's a disability. I'd get rid of it in a heartbeat if I could.

 

[gnomes]

My sensory processing is a joke

 

[meowmentous]

I am. I am diagnosed with OCD and ADHD, and I probably have some other comorbid conditions. Some sensory stuff can also be hell for me. I definitely do not have the brain of a neurotypical, and oh god, I doubt my suffering would be as bad if I was one.

 

[vitbar]

Have always been an odd person. Don't think autistic, maybe ADHD, maybe something related to dyslexia. My childhood development was unusual. Advanced speaking, delayed literacy. Prone to psychological behaviours that lead to, or simply promote, depression and anxiety.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

This 100x

I struggle to be happy, it takes so much energy just not to be seen as a Debbie downer. Then to have to be "normal" too is just overbearing at times. I have an autism diagnosis and no wonder autistic folk are thinking 3-4x more about suicide than neurotypicals. Read a great article about this; https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11042491/

I agree, I can't handle the extra weight that this adds to my plate

I was diagnosed with ADD when I was very young. I was then diagnosed with asperger's syndrome when I was 15. Around 16 is when I started experiencing mental health issues. I was forced on medication and hospitalized multiple times in a short time frame. I believe I was misdiagnosed with bipolar II. If anything I think the benzodiazipines I was put on back when they handed them out like candy caused manic-like episodes.

When I was 21 my mother died and my extended family essentially got me removed and sold the house I grew up in. I had to go from place to place. I ended up in a very bad place where I was severely isolated for 6 years. I left but could not cope and went back there for 3 years isolated again. During those times of isolation I abused alcohol, benzos, and all sorts of drugs I could get online. During the time I left after the 6 year stint I became an opioid addict where I lived in between. I think all the drug abuse was essentially caused by originally being addicted to benzos from age 17 onward.

Plus, I did it to cope with the loss of my mother, house, and the evil betrayal of my extended family. Plus, once all that happened when I was 21 my best friend cut contact with me probably because I was in such a depressive state after what happened. The girlfriend I had at the time also left. I also almost CTB but was found. Sometimes if being drugged up never happened I may have had a been chance. Or if at least one person actually cared and tried to help me with the extreme loss I suffered at a young age.

I am finally off all drugs now besides the occasional drink and weed which I don't do often and am going to college. 17 or 18 years of my life were basically taken from me. I still don't have many relationships. No women, not really any friends besides people online. I'm quite poor compared to the standard of living I had growing up.

I get sensory overload a lot. I don't understand how to interact with normies. I'm a loner. I enjoy using computers and am trying to redevelopment my programming skills I started learning when I was 14. The years of isolation and substance abuse made my autism far worse as well. I can't get those years back. I didn't die in 2018 from N. I survived it. There doesn't seem to be any real safe way to die at this point since you can't get N anymore.

The only thing I can actually do is try to do college, live off student loans, and try to get a new part time job while doing school work. I'm basically just in survival mode. There's no one watching out for me because I'm a loner.

 

[NonEssential]

I probably have something, but I don't like to label myself anything if I'm not diagnosed by a professional.

 

[lastch]

Only recently got diagnosed as autistic. If I had of gotten it earlier and received some help my life would've been a whole lot different

 

[catfriend]

formally diagnosed with ADHD, but i hardly relate to that label, these days (my executive dysfunction is manageable).

still ND, though, just more so the 'autism and C-PTSD' sort.

in any case, i don't fit in anywhere. :)

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

My psychiatrist's strongly suspect I have autism and something on the schizophrenia spectrum. It's terrifying- the autism is okay and I do relate to it, but the schizophrenia is fucking so so so awful and I feel likes it's going to kill me and I can't stop it hahahh >w<

 

[LivingANDDying26]

Autstic ADHDer w/ CPTSD. I love my galaxy brain but I'd be lying if I said it doesn't severely impact my life & functioning.

 

[SecretDissociation]

Got diagnosed with autism last year! Until then I just thought I was just mentally ill and extra weird... which stands true but that's because of the autism.

Forgot to mention - Psychiatrist mentioned something about EUPD, I researched and ended up learning about misdiagnosis. Figured that I can't have BPD because I've had these 'symptoms' my whole life. Me having a meltdown over clothes and my things being moved, and constant shouting in the household was not simply BPD and me being emotionally over-charged I thought.

 

[softtodie]

yes, I very recently got a diagnosis of autism and whilst it has made my whole life make sense, it definitely has not been easy. I wish I could function more like a neurotypical person as I put down a lot of my issues due to traits that my autism causes like the lack of social skills making it seem impossible to make friends or the overwhelming sensory sensitivities I have.