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[Rollo]

nah you are highly contradicting yourself. and while you still hold a grudge against her and flood your body with cortisol she has forgotten about you a long time ago and dont burden herself with that kind of shit

"(not even a usual smile - a very playful one"

"And how do you know if she smiles to every other customer or not - you just pulling this stuff out of thin air."

oh did it hurt your ego?

im curious why is it important to you that it was a special smile just for you? what are you indicating?

normally people who work with customer smile all the time. during college i worked in sales part time and i smilled at people all the time, young, old, female or male. people who work at stores, customer service etc are told to smile at customers aswell ...and the list goes on...easy psychology

"Just like her you don't like people who don't smile at you and you believe they're worthy of being disrespected and put down. So it's you guys who are on assault here. Not me. I'm merely being me."

i just think you are stupid. you dont know how humans work and to use this for your own advantage. smiling doesnt cost anything but can give you benefits so where is the problem except your ego?

and i neither like you nor dislike you. you are too unimportant for that. you dont affect my life. whether you would kill yourself tommorow or win the lottery...both things wouldnt bother me

Ah getting nasty again.

See you're calling me stupid for no reason but you can't back it up. Saying I'm contradicting myself and yet you can't show where I am. So it's you who's really stupid here. A nasty stupid human that hates those who don't smile back. I know your kind.

You seem to have trouble with basic comprehension, but I'll try once again - I know how humans work. Nasty humans like you and her that is. You believe other people are obligated to smile at you. And when they don't you get nasty. So some people are so scared of you, of consequences of not faking how happy they are with you, that they start to fake happiness. Like children who know that when momma ask them 'are you happy to see me?' they better get happy asap. Or momma gonna get ugly. Which is a disastorous choice for their spiritual well-being but they really have no choice. In fact that's how you probably got to this point too. But these days I do have a choice. And ofcourse I choose sanity. And sure I know it would be advantageous for me to fake smiling and happiness. Just like it would be HIGHLY advantageous for me to fake smiling and happiness in front of Dear Leader in North Korea. So if it's AK-47 against my head I can do some theatrics. But I will never fake internal smile even if it means my brains on the wall.

No trully sane person will think that smiling when you don't feel like it, faking this internal smile, 'doesn't cost anything'. Once again - smiling is an expression of happiness. Healthy person smiles when he's happy, and doesn't smile when he's not. It's just this fake smiling is now part of your personality, you do it all the time, so yeah for you it doesn't cost anything. Cause that's how you are. But not how I am.

Reason I say her smile was playful is cause it wasn't really a usual 'customer service' polite smile. She was highly excited for a moment. And when she didn't get anything back she became highly resentful and hence consequences. While if it was regular polite smile she probably wouldn't take it so personal.

It's laughable how you continue to ridiculously claim that you 'don't dislike me'. Only that you 'do not like me' so that if I kill myself tommorow it won't bother you. And so that you call me all sorts of names. As if it's not the very meaning of disliking someone. You're so accustomed to lying to yourself man. You can't fool me though. Or anyone with a brain for that matter.

 

[ctoan]

"Saying I'm contradicting myself and yet you can't show where I am"

just one example

""I don't believe in anger"

a few sentence later

" if I ever have the chance to pay her back - I will"





"You believe other people are obligated to smile at you."

most of all i think its smart.

in your case i just would have smilled. what would have happened - she would have treated you well and you would left the place satisfied not giving it a second thought.

meanwhile now you still hold a grudge bc you didnt do it while she cant even remember anymore. if that isnt just straight stupid i dont know what is.

i know people like you. we had one guy at work who probably thought he was smartest and superior to everyone else. but even though he didnt say he couldnt hide it rotally and thus he never got promoted. he thought he was so smart, so superior and that NOBODY just could see it...which was our fault of course. got easily offended too. needless to say he wasnt very popular either. he was basically a joke. but he still felt superior to everyone else and probably thougt of me as an retard even though i came later than him to the company and got very quick promoted.

and what i read so far from you...i cant help it but think this guy. surely you feel more clever than everyone else. you might wont say it loud but you think it.


and im not suprised you interpret everything sexually ... i mean who could resist you right?

this why you got mad when i suggested otherwise...your ego got hurt...man every retard thinks that when a female cashiers smiles at him she is into him...if i go on tinder i get like 10 matches per day but even i wouldnt misinterpret every smile as a sexual invitation.

but who knows..maybe she was into you. in that case it would have been even more stupid.


"
do not like me' so that if I kill myself tommorow it won't bother you."

why didnt you quote the part with the lottery bro??

and indifference and dislike is a difference..but since you are so smart you probably know this

 

[Rollo]

"Saying I'm contradicting myself and yet you can't show where I am"

just one example

""I don't believe in anger"

a few sentence later

" if I ever have the chance to pay her back - I will"





"You believe other people are obligated to smile at you."

most of all i think its smart.

in your case i just would have smilled. what would have happened - she would have treated you well and you would left the place satisfied not giving it a second thought.

meanwhile now you still hold a grudge bc you didnt do it while she cant even remember anymore. if that isnt just straight stupid i dont know what is.

i know people like you. we had one guy at work who probably thought he was smartest and superior to everyone else. but even though he didnt say he couldnt hide it rotally and thus he never got promoted. he thought he was so smart, so superior and that NOBODY just could see it...which was our fault of course. got easily offended too. needless to say he wasnt very popular either. he was basically a joke. but he still felt superior to everyone else and probably thougt of me as an retard even though i came later than him to the company and got very quick promoted.

and what i read so far from you...i cant help it but think this guy. surely you feel more clever than everyone else. you might wont say it loud but you think it.


and im not suprised you interpret everything sexually ... i mean who could resist you right?

this why you got mad when i suggested otherwise...your ego got hurt...man every retard thinks that when a female cashiers smiles at him she is into him...if i go on tinder i get like 10 matches per day but even i wouldnt misinterpret every smile as a sexual invitation.

but who knows..maybe she was into you. in that case it would have been even more stupid.


"
do not like me' so that if I kill myself tommorow it won't bother you."

why didnt you quote the part with the lottery bro??

and indifference and dislike is a difference..but since you are so smart you probably know this

Yeah all these emojis increasing in number show how indifferent and not-bothered you are.

Being angry and wanting to hit back are different things. Desire to pay back doesn't necessarily come from anger. You probably will have hard time figuring it out since you have a hard time figuring much simpler things out - but it's just what it is. If you hit me - I want to hit you back. I just won't feel right if I don't when I have a chance to. But it doesn't mean I have this bitterness in me, that I feel angry or offended, or hold a grudge. You playfully bite cat with the palm of your hand - he will bite you back. That's just how life works.

See you keep repeating how you would smile at her and got a good treatment which you think is smart. I got it the first time, no need to repeat it. I understand you're somebody who routinely fakes his happiness so that others are pleased with him and treat him good. But the fact that you still can't grasp that I have totally different life priorities - it's really showing how stupid your are man. It's like if you kept saying "why wouldn't you suck this guys dick, he might hurt you otherwise, are you stupid or something?" all while completely ignoring me telling you how I would rather get hurt than suck his dick. So I don't really have anything to add here. If you determined to be dumb - so be it.

I don't know what me not faking my smiles have to do with thinking I'm superior to others or whoever you met at work. It's not about being superior to others - it's about being your own man and not constantly thinking "omg they may judge me harshly if I do it so I won't". It puzzles me how a man may take pride in being scared of how others will perceive him, but to each his own.

Then ofcourse I'm not surprised that you think if a woman is into you then you should immediately become her doormat just so she don't get upset. But me - I didn't give a fuck if she was into me or not. I just came to have my teeth done. I don't give a fuck that she's a girl too - all I give a fuck is she's a human being that decided to disrespect me. So yeah you go hang on tinder - I have and back then had a slightly more fulfilling sex life than you obviously do. A crazy bitch who gets mad at me not smiling back at her - she's all yours buddy )

Why did I need to quote the lottery part? Your point was you don't give a fuck about my well-being. I got it. But since judging by your earlier posts in this thread this is totally not how you feel about any random board member or just your fellow human being - then the only reason you're saying you're indifferent to my fate is cause you dislike me. Same reason you keep talking shit to me calling me retard and such. So who's really a retard here?

 

[ctoan]

"But me - I didn't give a fuck if she was into me or not"

vs

"And how do you know if she smiles to every other customer or not - you just pulling this stuff out of thin air."

it was important enough for you to mention it and when i suggested it probably meant nothing and that she does to everyone you got straight mad bro (emoji for you )


also this is another highlight:

"But it doesn't mean I have this bitterness in me, that I feel angry or offended, or hold a grudge"

vs

" if I ever have the chance to pay her back - I will"

cognitive dissonance at its best bro


and blowing dick is like smiling to you? i dont know man i have no experience in suckin dick but i trust your expertise in that field


i dont know why you didnt quoted the lottery part...probably because it wouldnt fit in your agenda...because if i really would dislike you i certainly would dislike the fact that you would win the lottery mate

i think that is main problem here. your ego. you take yourself too important. you think youre the center of the world when nobody gives a fuck about you. i dont and im pretty sure the nurse/dentist or whatever she was neither. the moment you left another customer entered the room and she greeted him with just the same smile. she has forgotten you the moment you left while you apparently still think about her until this day. its laughable.

also what i wonder right now...if youre such a tough man how could you even allow her to treat you that way? like if sb disrespect me i act immidiately and wont let it happen...and what did you do?

endured everything like a nice boy? did u say thank you when you left? just to get revenge fantasies after it?

sth doesnt add up here

 

[ctoan]

@Rollo

 

[Rollo]

it was important enough for you to mention it and when i suggested it probably meant nothing and that she does to everyone you got straight mad bro (emoji for you )

Where did I get mad though? You're pulling things out of your ass and I simply pointing it out. Like right now you're saying how I got mad and that you 'suggested' that she supposed to do it to everyone and I'm flattering myself in thinking she was into me. I didn't get mad and you didn't suggest it though. You flat out out unconditionally asserted it. And it was YOU who started the whole sexual angle. I only briefly mentioned her being playful in my initial post cause thats what it was. You probably have little experience with women being playful with you, and no experience of rejecting their advances, but I do and it's immediately obvious when they are like that. It's nowhere close to a polite smile.

And note that when I replied to you bringing it up - I didn't even mention this angle cause it's not at all important to me. I may be mistaken but you really seem to be highly sexually frustrated.

also this is another highlight:

"But it doesn't mean I have this bitterness in me, that I feel angry or offended, or hold a grudge"

vs

" if I ever have the chance to pay her back - I will"

cognitive dissonance at its best bro

Like I already told you - if you determined to be dumb nothing I can do about it really. I already explained that desire to pay back, to get even doesn't equal being bitter or angry. I mean to you it certinly is, but then again you're reactive pleaser who fakes his smiles. So naturally you hold grudges and is generally a bitter guy. But I just do what I want really.

You're saying you won't suck dick but out of two of us you're the one to do unnatural stuff to please others so that they don't treat you bad - so who fits the bill here?

i dont know why you didnt quoted the lottery part...probably because it wouldnt fit in your agenda...because if i really would dislike you i certainly would dislike the fact that you would win the lottery mate

See that's the difference between us - you're a bitter guy and you're projecting it on me. Me - I don't give a fuck if that nurse wins a lottery. I won't be even slightly bitter about it. Although if I have a chance I would gladly rob her out of one half if I know I can get away with it. That would be a payback.

And by your logic then - if you really dislike me then you would really like the fact I killed myself. So no need to quote the lottery part. You're slow, man. I got your point - you're indifferent to my fate. But in this life the only reason you're indifferent to someone's fate like this - is you dislike him. So you DO dislike me - which is also obvious from you talking shit to me and your general tone. It may not be to the point of you throwing a party when I kill myself - but it's a clear dislike still. It's just you're so dishonest about this, it's funny.

i think that is main problem here. your ego. you take yourself too important. you think youre the center of the world when nobody gives a fuck about you. i dont and im pretty sure the nurse/dentist or whatever she was neither. the moment you left another customer entered the room and she greeted him with just the same smile. she has forgotten you the moment you left while you apparently still think about her until this day. its laughable.

Well I don't really have any problems here. As far as your problems go - you be the judge. Personally I don't think me and my life priorities are the main problem for you. I think you have far far bigger ones. And you still keep pushing this 'she wasn't into you' angle. I don't give a fuck about it. And it's not important for the main thing that you took issue with - that I don't smile back. So it's you keeping yapping abot it that is laughable.

also what i wonder right now...if youre such a tough man how could you even allow her to treat you that way? like if sb disrespect me i act immidiately and wont let it happen...and what did you do?

endured everything like a nice boy? did u say thank you when you left? just to get revenge fantasies after it?

Once again you pulling stuff out of your ass - where did I branded myself as a 'tough man' who doesn't take shit from everyone and acts immediately to stop the disrespect? Now it actually happens to be what I strongly believe in these days. Still once I had problems with it. I would let people walk over me. Just like I would smile back. But I evolved since. Although I still may have a moment of weakness, especially I tend to let my guard down with women. Still I learned my lessons and this was one of them.

I don't really know whether you actually as much of a tough guy as you claim to be here, how you immediately act etc, but if you really are - good call. I think it's a healthy life outlook. Still given how dishonest you are and that you're pleaser - I have my doubts.

 

[naia_]

its narcissistic bc in the end its always about "me me me me me me me me me"


you can be as narcissistic as you want but dont be suprised if you are all alone in the end


im not saying im different myself - i spend most of my time feeling sorry for myself, complaining, occupied with my own problems which makes/made me blind for my surrounding and the needs of others.

its already too late for me to change but in the end this selfoccupation wont make you happy. your aim should always be to give more than you take. and if you spend the whole day feeling sorry for yourself you are not able to give anything.

The catch though, as you say - about me me me - is that after this little self reflection, the reason why you'd be giving more would in fact also be for yourself. So that you will feel better in the end.

No way around it.

 

[BjartNO]

I didn't think I could want to die any more than I already do but then I saw this page

 

[ctoan]

@Rollo


no just didnt mentioned it briefly...you mentioned it several times and why i suggested that its not unnormal for people who work with customers to smile at people it was important to you to emphasize that this was not the case here..several times. you even get a bit mad and said to me"you pulled that out of your ass".

its perfectly normal that people who work with customers smile so ofc its logical for me to assume it was here the case aswell. i dont know why you got so emotionally then ("pulled that right of your ass"). and as you can see i didnt introduce the sexual part. quite the opposite. i said it was probably business as usual while you said nonono totally playful totally sexual.

and now you write long paragraphs to prove that you totally didnt care...i mean c'mon now. its laughable. you totally care and you felt provoked when i claimed otherwise:)


and since you are a big fan of projecting..i think this is what you are just doing here. i mean why else would be a random smile would be such an event that you still remember it years after...that you react so weird and agry just because of a smile. i mean its just the impression i got from you. lets just say i wouldnt be suprised that you didnt do so well with the ladies..especially in the early years

and to the grudge thing...if you have no bad feelings why would you have the need to "pay her back".

lets look at the definition of grudge:

"a feeling of anger and dislike for a person who you feel has treated you badly in the past, especially one that lasts for a long time"


this just describes the situation perfectly. you know who has no grudge here? the dentist lady..bc she probably cant even remember the situation anymore...unless you who is obviously still very emotionally involved in the situation...


that must be exhausting...getting so easily provoked. still thinking about something soo unimportant..it literally baffles my mind who can even invest energy in this.i mean just how insecure must you be in real life bro? i mean do you think people who have a lot going on in their life would get provoked by a smile?

a normal person would have just smiled back. a normal person would have just said something directly and right at the spot if they would have gotten treaten badly. and then they just would have moved on..not even. thinking twice about it. because its a pure waste of energy.

you did none of this. you waste your energy for such bullshit. do you sometimes think the world is bad place, people are not good and the world is against you? to be honest i wouldnt be suprised...

"Still once I had problems with it. I would let people walk over me."


oh there we have the explanation. a guy who got treated badly in the past/childhood and is now overcompensating...wow thats new...not

you had no self esteem in the past and even though you think otherwise you still have no self esteem. you lack any form of souveranity completely which is a big part of self esteem.

but ill tell you something..in the end you will only harm yourself... not the dentist lady...not me...just yourself

 

[Rollo]

no just didnt mentioned it briefly...you mentioned it several times and why i suggested that its not unnormal for people who work with customers to smile at people it was important to you to emphasize that this was not the case here..several times. you even get a bit mad and said to me"you pulled that out of your ass".

its perfectly normal that people who work with customers smile so ofc its logical for me to assume it was here the case aswell. i dont know why you got so emotionally then ("pulled that right of your ass"). and as you can see i didnt introduce the sexual part. quite the opposite. i said it was probably business as usual while you said nonono totally playful totally sexual.

and now you write long paragraphs to prove that you totally didnt care...i mean c'mon now. its laughable. you totally care and you felt provoked when i claimed otherwise:)

Well I'm pretty sure you have a pair of functioning eyes. So you can clearly see that I never said 'pulled that right of your ass' back then. Even though you by this time you already started to insult me calling me weirdo and such. So unlike yourself I'm quite chill and it's just some lack of comprehension and wishful thinking on your part.

When you first said how she's supposed to smile to everyone and that I shouldn't think of myself too highly here - I didn't even realise you have this sexual angle in mind, I though you mean like 'she's only doing it cause it's her job so cut her some slack'. That's why there was no sexual angle in my reply

1. It's not expected from her to smile to everyone. Many of them don't and I'm totally cool with that. And even if it was expected - that's her own problem that she's too weak to act how she really feels and not how others are forcing her. In any case like I said I only smile when I feel like smiling, so if you or her don't like it - tough shit. It will take much more than just a bitch being a bitch to break my spirit.

And neither in the rest of that post. But then you kept bringing up how it was only a customer service type of smile and that she does it to everyone. Without even any 'probably'. As if you was there. So sure I called you on that one and told you that you're pulling stuff out of 'thin air'. Because that's exactly what it was. And I told you that no it wasn't a customer service type of smile. I was there you see.

Then you asked me why I mentioned her smile being playful in the first place, insinuating how it's some wishful thinking on my part. So I told you - cause it's probably why she got so nasty with me when I failed to smile back. While if it was customer service type of smile she probably wouldn't take it so personal.

So I was simply responding to you obsessing over this small and not really significant part of the story.

 

[Rollo]

and since you are a big fan of projecting..i think this is what you are just doing here. i mean why else would be a random smile would be such an event that you still remember it years after...that you react so weird and agry just because of a smile. i mean its just the impression i got from you. lets just say i wouldnt be suprised that you didnt do so well with the ladies..especially in the early years

and to the grudge thing...if you have no bad feelings why would you have the need to "pay her back".

lets look at the definition of grudge:

"a feeling of anger and dislike for a person who you feel has treated you badly in the past, especially one that lasts for a long time"


this just describes the situation perfectly. you know who has no grudge here? the dentist lady..bc she probably cant even remember the situation anymore...unless you who is obviously still very emotionally involved in the situation...

Because she treated me with disrespect when she failed to get one back. I mean common man - are you really that dumb? It's not about her smiling. It's about what she did when she failed to get one back. And it actually happened a year ago, not 'years ago'. Not that it's relevant but it's just another example of you pulling things out of your ass. And a guy who hangs on tinder tells me about doing well with the ladies - please.

Of course she probably holds no grudge - she already satisfied her grudge by fucking with me. Here I can once again point to the difference between bitter grudge holders like yourself and those like me who can give people what they deserve without being angry or bitter. I know you won't get it though.

that must be exhausting...getting so easily provoked. still thinking about something soo unimportant..it literally baffles my mind who can even invest energy in this.i mean just how insecure must you be in real life bro? i mean do you think people who have a lot going on in their life would get provoked by a smile?

a normal person would have just smiled back. a normal person would have just said something directly and right at the spot if they would have gotten treaten badly. and then they just would have moved on..not even. thinking twice about it. because its a pure waste of energy.

you did none of this. you waste your energy for such bullshit. do you sometimes think the world is bad place, people are not good and the world is against you? to be honest i wouldnt be suprised...

I made a post stating my position. You didn't like it, called it 'autistic' and started to get nasty with me. Ever since I'm only responding to you and giving you your shit back. Because I know your position is based on dishonesty. So I'm simply pointing it out. You're the one who's all angry and bitter and obsessing about something I'm not really obsessing over at all. She fucked with me, I didn't do anything back. If I have a chance I will. If I won't have a chance - so be it. So I'm perfectly moved on. It's just being unable to properly defend your 'smiling back' position you want to talk shit to me and figured it's the best angle to do so.

h there we have the explanation. a guy who got treated badly in the past/childhood and is now overcompensating...wow thats new...not

you had no self esteem in the past and even though you think otherwise you still have no self esteem. you lack any form of souveranity completely which is a big part of self esteem.

but ill tell you something..in the end you will only harm yourself... not the dentist lady...not me...just yourself

So a guy who believes in letting others dictate how he feels, a guy who believes in faking happiness so that others treat him good, he tells somebody who believes in smiling only when he feels like it and not when others expect him to - that he lacks "souveranity" (sovereignty?). That's rich.

In the end I live how I trully want, while you live how you were conditioned by the same bitter approval seeking smile-back fascists like what you become. And you can see it simply by the fact that I hold no ill will towards your philosophy except considering it unhealthy. While you went balls out hatefull over mine. Cause your philosophy demands actions from me and mine doesn't demand anything from you. I'm chill and secure about mine, capable of properly defending it on intellectual level. While you're bitter and resentfull only capable of saying how it's what 'normal' people do. I'm sure if you had the chance you would ram it down my throat - but you can't. And that's the beauty of it.

 

[VanHeineken]

I donate money to animals rights groups once a month.

 

[ctoan]

@Rollo

"So you can clearly see that I never said 'pulled that right of your ass' back then."

right you said thin air which doesnt make much difference to me

"And how do you know if she smiles to every other customer or not - you just pulling this stuff out of thin air."

why was is it so important that she doesnt do this to everyone? why was it so important that you were a special case? why do you got mad when i questioned this bro?

"And it actually happened a year ago, not 'years ago'"

haha right. because that actually makes a difference. its 1 year and you already think about this bullshit. you even switched the dentist broy. haha omg. yes you are clearly over it


"Of course she probably holds no grudge - she already satisfied her grudge by fucking with me."

thats interesting. here you basically admit that if you hold a grudge you feel the need to fuck with the other person, to "pay back". which makes sense when we keep the definition of grudge in mind.

""a feeling of anger and dislike for a person who you feel has treated you badly in the past, especially one that lasts for a long time""


now lets have a look at a few of your comments:

"So that I was forced to cut her loose and switch the dentist on my further visits. Still I felt like I didn't give her enough shit back just cause I was in vunerable position of her fucking with my tooth so I wanted to meet her in hallway just so I could stare her dead in the eyes and show her what true impoliteness is if shestarted talking. Never got the chance though."

if the last part doesnt scream creep alert i dont know what does btw

"But if I ever have the chance to pay her back - I will. And if me and her are starving and I got a piece of bread - you better believe I'm eating the whole damn thing )"

"But she fucked with me. Everyone who fucks with me - I will hit them back one way or another."

again...if you had no grudge you wouldnt have the need of "paying her back". its simple as that.

"Here I can once again point to the difference between bitter grudge holders like yourself and those like me who can give people what they deserve without being angry or bitter. I know you won't get it though."


yes bro because you are super different to others right? if others people pay back they have a grudge in your opinion. if you have the need to pay back ...you dont? how much cognitive dissonance do you need bro to talk such bullshit?

and you act like you are super rational about this, like a machine. the opposite is true. you are still super emotional when it comes to this topic. a coincidence that happened over a year ago. you literally waisted your time waiting in the hallway for that lady (or at least fantasying about it) does this sound in any form like rational behavior to you? clearly there are a lot of negative feelings involved is this is still a thing ONE YEAR LATER.

"And a guy who hangs on tinder tells me about doing well with the ladies - please."

i posted this a week ago in another thread here. its not super impressive but considering its just a few weeks of swiping not bad either

i meet people in real life. i meet people on tinder. i probably have a sex addiction and problems building up and maintaining deep emotional connections..but sexual frustration? just because it doesnt match your reality doesnt mean it does not happen..again stop projecting bro.you spend your time waiting for dentist in the hallway (or dreaming about it?) i spend my time with difference things.



"You're the one who's all angry and bitter and obsessing about something I'm not really obsessing over at all. "

sure bro sure. you literally waited for her after the appointment. you still obsess over this 1 year later. you super emotional about this topic. you get easily provoked over this topic. you still have fantasies of "paying her back". and now you write paragraph after paragraph now to show that just dont really care?

i really see how "perfectly moved on."


just one question: who do you think moved better on? the lady who has forgotten about this stuff month ago? or a guy who still gets obviously bothered over something that happened a year ago? do you think the dentist has page long discussions over this topic?

"I'm chill and secure"

"Still I felt like I didn't give her enough shit back just cause I was in vunerable position of her fucking with my tooth so I wanted to meet her in hallway just so I could stare her dead in the eyes and show her what true impoliteness is if shestarted talking. Never got the chance though."




one question since im not a native speaker..did you literally waited in the hallway for her to finish work or was this just a wet revange fantasy of yours?



bro we got it at this point.

this was your youth and youre reality until recently.

"Still once I had problems with it. I would let people walk over me."

"Although I still may have a moment of weakness, especially I tend to let my guard down with women. "


now youre just overcompensating. a insecure little guy who got exploited and bullied by others in the past and now acts overcompensating and agressive. just like a dog that got hit too much as a puppy.

i think its clear at this point you have a weird and bitter view on other humans. you really think the world is against you and other people are rather evil then good... but with your history ... who can blame you? i mean its not special or unheard that people with your past develop that. quite the opposite..its typical

 

[Rollo]

right you said thin air which doesnt make much difference to me

Yeah except one is rude while the other is not. So one is indicating of somebody getting mad at you, and the other is not. That's why you misquoted it as 'right out of your ass' and not 'out of thin air'. So your argument is destroyed. I didn't get mad at your assertion at all back then. It's just you pulled this stuff about her simile out of thin air and I called it as such. All there was to it.

I already explained to you several times why I initially mentioned the fact that her smile was playful. If you had some sense you would notice and address it already. Instead of just keeping ignoring it and asking why I got mad at you questioning whether her smile was playful. When I neither got mad nor were you questioning it. You were UNCONDITIONALLY ASSERTING that her smile wasn't playful. You need to ask yourself why you fixated on this issue, why you felt very strongly about telling me this girl wasn't into me and her smile was usual. Like I said - some obvious sexual issues on your part. Still once you made this empty claim - of course I addressed it. What else was I supposed to do?

haha right. because that actually makes a difference. its 1 year and you already think about this bullshit. you even switched the dentist broy. haha omg. yes you are clearly over it

Well you wanted to point out it happened long time ago and your helpful imagination came up with this happening years ago. It simply shows how sloppy you are. You just make stuff up as you go cause you only care about defending your stance by any means necessary. Ofcourse I switched the dentist, it was a first time I saw her and they have a whole bunch of them in this clinic.

But at least you stopped talking about how I needed to quote the lottery part.

Anyway man there's just a limit of how much stupidity I'm willing to deal with. Basically the rest of your post is just an empty drivel, you repeating the same nonsense I already addressed. Repeatedly. I understand you can go on like this forever, but this is not the game I'm interested in. Take care.

P.S. you even posted a tinder screenshot showing how many matches you have

 

[Rollo]

Yeah I didn't read your post till the end and there's one interesting thing I will address. That is you saying how I have this perverted world view where I think other humans are to get to me, while they are of course only want to be my friends.

My worldview is a realistic one. Some want to be friendly to me, some want to be hostile. It's just what it is. And if you see it any differently - then you're insane. If you want to fuck with me for me not smiling back at you - ofcourse you're hostile to me. It doesn't really matter why you want to fuck with me. If you harbour any aggression towards me, especially one based on resentment - then you're my enemy.

It doesn't mean I feel bitter towards you - I just see you for what you are. And I treat you accordingly. I know you believe that your aggression and resentment is warranted cause I don't smile back but all of the same an islamist believes his aggression and resentment is warranted cause I don't believe in Allah.

Anyway I don't really believe you have an intellectual capacity to say something interesting in response but I just couldn't let this one slip. We'll see though maybe you will surprise me.

 

[Going Home]

I thought volunteering while I'm still here was a good idea. I applied to volunteer at a couple places but haven't heard back from anyone of them so I don't know if it will happen.

 

[Mr2005]

I don't know how you guys write so much. Anyway on topic it's a nice sentiment until it gets thrown back in your face

 

[ctoan]

@Rollo

"Yeah I didn't read your post till the end "

because you gave up. because their question that you cant answer without looking weird, eg this one:

""Still I felt like I didn't give her enough shit back just cause I was in vunerable position of her fucking with my tooth so I wanted to meet her in hallway just so I could stare her dead in the eyes and show her what true impoliteness is if shestarted talking. Never got the chance though."
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one question since im not a native speaker..did you literally waited in the hallway for her to finish work or was this just a wet revange fantasy of yours?"



why didnt answer you the question? why didnt you answer the question bro?

because no matter what the outcome is... both options are super pathetic. im literally laughing my ass of thinking about both scenarios. and both scenarios really show what a "chill guy" you are


how are you fooling at this point? i can really creep vibes from you when i read this





"Well you wanted to point out it happened long time ago"

so 1 year isnt a long time ago? are you stupid? its one year and you are still emotional about such a small happening? youre life must be boring




"P.S. you even posted a tinder screenshot showing how many matches you have"

i did bro. because you kept talking about sexual frustration which was clearly projection. now it happened that i posted this in another thread in another context and now you dont know what to say. now the only thing left is backpaddeling and playing it "cool"

i dont know how you look. but i know that i personally can be very confident when it comes to outer appearance. so im not afraid regarding this subject. if you want to go there we can go there bro.

how does it feel man?


" cause I don't believe in Allah."

an edgy atheist. not suprised...



"Anyway I don't really believe you have an intellectual capacity to say something interesting in response but I just couldn't let this one slip."


good bro. i see you are already building yourself a way out without losing your "face" (as if that would even matter on an anonymous forum for suicides...but a guy who cares about minor shit like this dentist stuff probably also cares about that stuff...i mean its obvious at this point that you have narcissistic problem. you probably wont tell to people in real life but you defnitely think it. you think you are smarter then the rest and deep down you probably think you entitled to special treatment)


one last question for this post:

if you really that smart as you pretend to be you could achieve great things in life. but how will you achieve great things in life if even small things like a dentist vist develop to a drama?

 

[whatsinmypocket]

Maybe im even wrong here but im done with compassion. Ive proven i can do things, but i dont need to. I dont have to fit into something i dont want. Nobody does. And to proove that to myself and others, thats why im here. Being evil or mean is the easiest way to get recognition and be known. I wouldnt do it when there are repercussions though. Only when i got a backdoor plan

 

[Rollo]

one question since im not a native speaker..did you literally waited in the hallway for her to finish work or was this just a wet revange fantasy of yours?"



why didnt answer you the question? why didnt you answer the question bro?

because no matter what the outcome is... both options are super pathetic. im literally laughing my ass of thinking about both scenarios. and both scenarios really show what a "chill guy" you are

No it's because nearly everything you write is extremely stupid. I went to that clinic after that incident and if I ever met her in the hallway and she tried to talk to me then I would fuck with her in the same manner she fucked with me. I didn't deliberately seek her out. Cause unlike yourself I'm not into wet revenge fantasies.

I don't care about saving my face and I don't really have to. I didn't have to quote the lottery part, I didn't say 'pulled that right of your ass' and get mad at you when you started fixating on the smile thing and it didn't happen years ago. All of it is you being stupid and imagining things. And you won't even admit to it.

And exactly like I thought you didn't offer anything interesting in response. Except even here you managed to say something stupid and entirely irrelevant to the point I was making. Just because I don't believe in Allah doesn't mean I'm atheist, it's just means I don't believe in muslim god. I may be of other monotheistic faith or I may be polytheist or I may be agnostic.

So exactly like I said there's a limit to how much stupidity I'm willing to deal with. At first I enjoyed you challenging my points and I enjoyed arguing with you, but now it's clear you're unable to admit where you're being incorrect and you just throw stuff out there to see what sticks. And it's not the game I'm interested in. Take care.

 

[Wolfjob_dayjob]

I donate my efforts and used to do charity work at museums but that was so far removed from the cause. I don't anymore for the same reason I don't get an msw or volunteer firefight. Some people don't have the physical or emotional strength in them to make it through the day even.


Dunno what people get out of (attempts at) kicking each other down and calling each other on here failures, some if us are are just gonna agree and shrug - get your angry indignant shots in before you die I guess. Ehh the whole dealing with random people but is the whole reason I only give to animal charities only now. Maybe pp so more kids like me aren't born like once every 2 years..

 

[Mr2005]

Maybe im even wrong here but im done with compassion. Ive proven i can do things, but i dont need to. I dont have to fit into something i dont want. Nobody does. And to proove that to myself and others, thats why im here. Being evil or mean is the easiest way to get recognition and be known. I wouldnt do it when there are repercussions though. Only when i got a backdoor plan

Well then it's not a world worth being known in

 

[ctoan]

@Rollo

"I went to that clinic after that incident and if I ever met her in the hallway and she tried to talk to me then I would fuck with her in the same manner she fucked with me."

why do you went there again then? i thought you switched doctors? come on bro...you have to admit its not my fault if i receive creepy vibes here


"I don't care about saving my face and I don't really have to."

oh you do. trust me you do. you "let people walk over" you in the past and now you are extremely insecure and overcompensating. you cant distinguish anymore between what is normal, what you have to endure in daily interaction in order to NOT be a "vulnerable snowflake" and what is obviosuly an offense where you have to countermeasures to protect yourself and your honor. you feel threatened very easily. youre biggest fear is that your childhood will repeat. that people dont respect you. this combined with your obviously arrogance and narcissistic tendencies tells me that you indeed care. but its okay man. its not your fault. and you can change.

deep down you know im right bro. deep down you know. its just that your ego cant accept it yet. but one day you will. the sooner the better for your own life.


" Except even here you managed to say something stupid and entirely irrelevant to the point I was making. Just because I don't believe in Allah doesn't mean I'm atheist, it's just means I don't believe in muslim god. I may be of other monotheistic faith or I may be polytheist or I may be agnostic."

allah is the universal word for god in the arabic world. lebanese christians pray to "allah". allah means "god" in arabic. do you see how arrogant you are here again? your arrogance and narcissim will be your downfall. in the end you will only harm yourself. by the way im not even muslim myself. i just assumed that you were from some arabic country and that you were aware of the fact i just stated.


"So exactly like I said there's a limit to how much stupidity I'm willing to deal with. At first I enjoyed you challenging my points and I enjoyed arguing with you, but now it's clear you're unable to admit where you're being incorrect and you just throw stuff out there to see what sticks. And it's not the game I'm interested in. Take care."

like i said

"good bro. i see you are already building yourself a way out "


but thats okay bro. everything will be allright.