No method

[dask]

I dont have any method in my disposal, i cant find SN anywhere, the bridges arent high enough, there's nothing i can do that isn't painful, im tired of it and tired of living this hellish life, i cant function socially anymore. Being trans ruined my life in so many ways, everyone around me would just hate me the second i came out. I started hrt last year and for a while there was something bright, but now? i feel worse like last year, i was ready to go and im ready again and yet it pains me knowing that i probably have no choice but to go the painful and grotesque way