Theresnoescape
Student
- May 29, 2024
- 145
It's been a bit since I've posted here. In 10 days time I have the best opportunity I've had for a very long time to finally CTB. I have SN and prochlorperazine, if that would even work as an anti emetic. I DO NOT have benzos, so would have to do without. I'm struggling so so much with SI, and I just don't know if I have the guts to just do it and get to over with. I have a very good and supportive family, even my ex is still trying to help me, yet I just can't get over the strain and struggle of living, and really do just want it to be over. How do I just get past that feeling of guilt of doing that to the people who I'd hurt the most? I feel like I'm being pulled in opposite directions and I either need to just get on with it and take the SN, or face the rest of my life still pretending everything is ok. Sorry for rambling on, I just don't know what to do. Any advice on the prochlorperazine? I'm not even sure what it's for exactly. TIA
