FadingSnowFake
Enlightened
- Nov 25, 2024
- 1,101
A year ago, I had no clue that I'd be contemplating my suicide whilst living on another continent. It's unreal the way things seemed to have fallen in place on this specific path. The anniversary of me joining SaSu and becoming actively suicidal is coming up in November. I'm definitely not looking forward to that.
I now live in SE Asia where SN was easy to acquire eventually with my first salary. Next month I have leave from work and need to get away since weekends are already depressing. October is also my birthday and maybe a good time to exit this planet after 50 years, the last year being mostly hell.
So, co-incidentally I'm planning a trip to spend my birthday on a beautiful island and then visit a beach city where many foreigners are reported to end their lives. I've always had this dream of living on an island. Who knows, maybe something happens on the island to make me stay and reconsider my options.
While I'm not planning to ctb on this trip, I'm grateful to have SN and the meds I'd need in case, and I'm grateful to have you guys with me on the journey.
Peace and Love.
I now live in SE Asia where SN was easy to acquire eventually with my first salary. Next month I have leave from work and need to get away since weekends are already depressing. October is also my birthday and maybe a good time to exit this planet after 50 years, the last year being mostly hell.
So, co-incidentally I'm planning a trip to spend my birthday on a beautiful island and then visit a beach city where many foreigners are reported to end their lives. I've always had this dream of living on an island. Who knows, maybe something happens on the island to make me stay and reconsider my options.
While I'm not planning to ctb on this trip, I'm grateful to have SN and the meds I'd need in case, and I'm grateful to have you guys with me on the journey.
Peace and Love.
