Help please some advices, I feel so desperate right now

[sy46]

I really can't take it anymore, every day is worse than the previous one and the story doesn't seem to improve. Not even with psychotropic drugs, lately I increased the dose and they hoped that I would feel at least a little better, but no.. nothing has changed; in fact, I'm getting worse.. I can't even study for exams and this thing is destroying me emotionally. I've wanted to do CTB for years but I'm too cowardly.. however I need, I really need to vent all my pain and frustration in some way, I don't know how; I feel like I'm trapped.. in a tunnel with no way out, only CTB could give me light.. but I lack the courage. I feel so useless and wrong and it makes no sense that I continue to breathe wasting oxygen, there is no point at all in trying to survive in a world like this, I don't have a single reason left to live.
Any advice on what to do when you feel so desperate but still can't do CTB for various reasons? I feel so empty and senseles

 

[Lily6759]

I've known a lot of people in a similar position, including myself. I'm not great with advice... but the common theme that seems to help people in similar situations is talking to someone that makes you feel understood. It seems to be the best way to feel a little better when you can't just end things. The only way I've achieved that is through waiting for posts that I relate to on here, or sometimes other websites and trying to talk to those people a bit.
You could also start a thread for venting and see if anyone relates to you, or maybe the make a friend megathread in the offtopic section?
It's hard going through this life alone. And it's hard to find people who understand the pain you may be going through. But it does tend to help, at least a little.

 

[nobeertonight]

I really can't take it anymore, every day is worse than the previous one and the story doesn't seem to improve. Not even with psychotropic drugs, lately I increased the dose and they hoped that I would feel at least a little better, but no.. nothing has changed; in fact, I'm getting worse.. I can't even study for exams and this thing is destroying me emotionally. I've wanted to do CTB for years but I'm too cowardly.. however I need, I really need to vent all my pain and frustration in some way, I don't know how; I feel like I'm trapped.. in a tunnel with no way out, only CTB could give me light.. but I lack the courage. I feel so useless and wrong and it makes no sense that I continue to breathe wasting oxygen, there is no point at all in trying to survive in a world like this, I don't have a single reason left to live.
Any advice on what to do when you feel so desperate but still can't do CTB for various reasons? I feel so empty and senseles

Hi, I'm sorry for what you're going through, I'm not sure I can help but I'd really like to hear more about it. What kind of drugs are you on and how much time have you been on them?

 

[Linda]

I really can't take it anymore, every day is worse than the previous one and the story doesn't seem to improve. Not even with psychotropic drugs, lately I increased the dose and they hoped that I would feel at least a little better, but no.. nothing has changed; in fact, I'm getting worse.. I can't even study for exams and this thing is destroying me emotionally. I've wanted to do CTB for years but I'm too cowardly.. however I need, I really need to vent all my pain and frustration in some way, I don't know how; I feel like I'm trapped.. in a tunnel with no way out, only CTB could give me light.. but I lack the courage. I feel so useless and wrong and it makes no sense that I continue to breathe wasting oxygen, there is no point at all in trying to survive in a world like this, I don't have a single reason left to live.
Any advice on what to do when you feel so desperate but still can't do CTB for various reasons? I feel so empty and senseles

This is a long shot, but you could try doing someting for a few days that is completely unrelated to anything you have ever done before. The more different the better. There is just a chance that it might press your "reset" button.