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Are you receiving therapy/professional mental health care & if not, why not?

  • Yes - Therapy only

    Votes: 131 10.0%
  • Yes - Medication only

    Votes: 166 12.6%
  • Yes - Therapy and medication

    Votes: 423 32.2%
  • No - Not interested in seeking treatment

    Votes: 164 12.5%
  • No - Interested but don’t know where to start

    Votes: 63 4.8%
  • No - Scared of being hospitalized or that it won’t work

    Votes: 137 10.4%
  • No - tried therapy but it didn’t help

    Votes: 264 20.1%
  • No - tried medication but it didn't help

    Votes: 144 11.0%
  • No - Can’t afford therapy but use medication

    Votes: 38 2.9%
  • No - Can’t afford any treatment

    Votes: 108 8.2%

  • Total voters
    1,315
theolivanderroach

theolivanderroach

but, what ends when the symbols shatter?
Sep 20, 2024
133
I don't have a doctor and have too much social anxiety and lack of energy to find one. Don't want to wait for years either.

I was on SSRIs for two years through an online pharmacy. As expected, they did nothing. They actually just made me more apathetic than I already was.

I've been put on involuntary hospital holds a few times before but I just lied to the doctors because I didn't want to stay there.
 
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asiht

Member
Oct 17, 2019
43
I can't afford therapy right now. I was on meds, but they are slowly running out. I'm at such a bad situation right now that I'm having to choose between rent, child support, medicine, and food. Prioritizing rent first.
 
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Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
2,979
I can't afford therapy right now. I was on meds, but they are slowly running out. I'm at such a bad situation right now that I'm having to choose between rent, child support, medicine, and food. Prioritizing rent first.

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judestfrancis

judestfrancis

Life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss
Dec 21, 2023
13
therapy and medications, have been for 10+ years. no one can say ive not done my best
 
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AtheistCDsissy

AtheistCDsissy

Falling off the edge of the world...
Mar 6, 2023
34
medication for years, therapy only when it was necessary for medication. i finally started counseling at the end of last month, i have another appointment at the end of this month. i feel like i may have waited to long for it and now i'm more focused on catching the bus.
 
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WildAtHeart

WildAtHeart

tired
Oct 1, 2024
120
ive gone through anti-depressants, dbt therapy, family therapy + family counselling + personal counselling. not on any anymore. meds helped but im back where i started now and just clinging on to life for my gf
 
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Privateer2368

Member
Aug 18, 2024
64
Therapy.

It's worthless. Just platitudes and silly games.
 
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rih

rih

Member
Aug 23, 2024
47
I've been on and off multiple meds for the past decade; been rec'd psych evals 3 times I think which i've turned down out of fear of speaking too freely, the first time was due to monetary concerns though I probably would have gone then but i've only heard bad things since.
 
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deadeyesnowman

Member
Jan 15, 2024
27
No.

I just cannot afford it. One session is equivalent to my combined monthly expenses - if not, absurdly expensive. Not helped that these mental health providers are based in major cities which means they cater to more high-class clients.
 
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disheartened_lover

Member
Aug 16, 2024
6
weekly therapy, daily medicines, hourly anxieties
 
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blueberryDesert

blueberryDesert

Member
Jul 23, 2024
18
I was receiving MH therapy and on a well-known, heavily advertised antidepressant that sounds similar to a percussion instrument. I dropped out of both because itherapy wasn't helping and the meds come with a warning that they increase thoughts of ctb. So why did the FDA ever approve the meds in the first place??
 
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punkonsabbath

punkonsabbath

New Member
Oct 4, 2024
1
Honestly, what has most helped me see how suicide is the solution has been therapy; seeing and talking about how we are supposed to be happy just made me realise that some people are simply not made for life.
 
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cicatrezESP

cicatrezESP

in the time of the sixth sun
Oct 6, 2024
66
i had been in therapy for about 19 years. overall i think it worked but unfortunately after my last therapist leaving the practice and after so many bad experiences in the health care system i've decided i don't want to try again. i wouldn't even know where to begin if i could even get to a therapist
 
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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
113
I'm on meds and I go to therapy. It helps. It feels palliative tho.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
421
I was receiving MH therapy and on a well-known, heavily advertised antidepressant that sounds similar to a percussion instrument. I dropped out of both because itherapy wasn't helping and the meds come with a warning that they increase thoughts of ctb. So why did the FDA ever approve the meds in the first place??
I think most antidepressants come with a suicide warning which I always found ironic and I don't get it either. How do you know if it's yourself or the medicine making you worse? The antidepressant I am on now came with a specific warning for children and young adults. That must make the decision really hard for most parents.
 
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Houraisan_Kaguya

Houraisan_Kaguya

Member
Oct 8, 2024
6
I've been on the same meds for over a decade now and because of that I can forget just how much they affect me, until I end up skipping a day and spiral so incredibly hard. Without them I 100% would've died by now, whether that makes it a good or bad thing I'm still taking them I'm not sure. :P

I had terrible experiences with therapy when I was younger - the UK's mental healthcare is an absolute joke, I spent the entire time being tossed to and from multiple different departments and therapists who at best put in the very minimum amount of effort to not lose their jobs. I don't blame them, the system is underfunded and they're just doing it for a paycheck, there's no way you can see so many different clients and even begin to truly care about them all.

I think therapy could work for me in theory, and sometimes I consider going back because even if it doesn't work out again maybe it's better than rotting in this purgatory, but I don't know... Even if the stars align and I get a therapist who I click with and who genuinely wants to help me, I don't think I even trust myself to put in the effort to get better. Maybe I'd just be a waste of time and take the opportunity from someone who deserves it more.
 
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Nikki_Music

Nikki_Music

I only paint in red now
Sep 28, 2024
35
on so many meds. Been on them for 7 years. does help a little bit but not enough.

Therapy is useless. Been doing it for nearly 15 years. Talking doesn't help and their coping mechanisms are bullshit.

No one can say I didn't try though.
 
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lifeiswondrful

New Member
Jun 23, 2023
2
I never tried any therapy or meds my whole life and probably never will
 
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FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

✌️ you are mentally ill ✌️
Jan 21, 2024
105
I got in legal trouble and was ordered to mandated therapy. It's the cheapest therapy session ever sitting at $30 a session.
I desperately want help, but it has always been out of my reach.
 
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Toxinebulaic

Toxinebulaic

winter is coming
Aug 2, 2023
38
I have a weird thing against getting professional help for my mental health issues. I'm forcing myself to keep it inside because to me, I don't want to be dependent on outside variables to control myself. That might not be the best idea, considering I'm on this site, but either way it's how I feel.

I also don't really wanna pay for therapy or to go see a psychiatrist, so it works out.
 
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JustAnx

Student
Oct 12, 2024
132
Therapy (talk) hasn't really been helpful for me. I've always think i'm paying someone to "be my friend", hear my problems and give me generic advices, that i could just get online.

Meds wise. I'm on 10 mg Lexapro at morning and 2 mg Klonopin at night time. For my generalized anxiety.
 
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Failed.Angel

Failed.Angel

Member
Oct 11, 2024
21
I was forced to do therapy after my first attempt back at the end of 2018 beginning of 2019. It was terrible because in my country while the free healthcare is somewhat better than nothing for something like free Therapy is almost impossible for you to get the same professional to talk to you, so I had spent 3 months one time per week telling the same story for different therapists never the same. After that, a friend found for me a private one that charged an OK price, and we start doing it.
At the beginning, it was helpful to make me stop blaming myself for all that happened to take me to try to kill myself, but it didn't take long for me to still get to a point where I still had no reason to live.
I still wanted to die because my reality can't be changed without money and the things that make me happy are all out of reach. At this time I also took medication because a private Doctor felt sorry for my situation and prescribed for me for free, it didn't help much because most of the internal struggles were or had being solved.
What remained making me unhappy is the environment and daily life I hate, but still I took medication for about one year and a half and did therapy for almost 5 years when I gave up this year.
Talking on therapy is only helpful with you have the resources (money) to change or work on the things that you make your life miserable, otherwise is just really paying someone to talk that is what I believe.

The reason is that back in 2022 I found the love of my life, and she basically saved me from here and for the first time in my life I was able to love someone I always dreamed of, truly lived life and was grateful to be alive.
That didn't last long because I was blocked on a trip by the end of 2024 where I was going to do Volunteer work for 3 months, so I could get back to her like I was doing.
But even with all the documents the officer blocked me and I had not much I can do and had to come back to the shithole in Rio, Brazil I came from.
It all came crashing down to a point where today she blocked me and I lost all my life and all the things I did in exchange for my terrible life with my family back.

I straight up gave up on therapy because my therapist gave me a lot of bad advice while I was still with her. And I am taking medication without a doctor just to try to get by a little longer, but I am almost ready to kill myself and I hope I won't fail this time.
I can't recover my life alone, and I can't make enough money to even get close to the happy life I had not to mention I have no obligations, with children animals or else the only person I own is my life partner that I am no sure even will talk to me again and in that scenario is impossible for me to ever give back all the gratitude I was ready to spend my life giving back to her.

In my case, I can assure you is not helpful at all as most of my problems come from external force I don't have money to change, I have experienced first hand how I was recovering in every aspect of life when I was truly living the things I love.
So therapy for me is a completely useless waste of money at this point.
But I do believe therapy is extremely helpful with you get a good professional like I did, and you have more resources (whatever your specific situation needs) to get better.
It is not a miracle, but you need to use as a tool for your progress.

So I guess I will kill myself folks

Thank you for reading it
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
291
Yes, just restarted a few weeks ago after a two year hiatus when previous therapist left for her private practice and I couldn't afford the rate.
It's virtual meetings, weekly. No meds involved.
Therapy is helping to a degree. I don't think I'm getting coping skills just yet (we've only had a few meetings) but hearing from someone that I'm not a horrible monster - which is what I'm told here in the house daily- I guess is encouraging.
And no, I'm not going to be honest about plans to take an early exit. I don't think admitting that would go well!
 
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Rejection

Member
Oct 13, 2024
9
I did therapy, not drug therapy, to solve problems due to addictions and I succeeded. I did not succeed, however, even with the help of psychologists in solving the causes of my addictions. Now it is just an inner battle not to relapse, but I am beginning to wonder if it is worth living in this grey area full of suffering and without satisfaction due to those addictions.
Without a girlfriend, without a job, I live at home H24 on my bed watching TV and sending CVs of my old work experiences.
There are no solutions, I've tried everything and I joined here because I will have to have the courage to end it when the source of my economic livelihood (my mother, whom I hate by the way) dies. The fear of becoming a homeless junkie drives me more to the thought of suicide
 
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cohomology

cohomology

Member
Oct 5, 2024
52
No, I'm afraid of going to therapy because I'm a bad liar and I think if they ask if I have thoughts of killing myself my answer, whatever it is, would worry them and I would be locked up in a mental hospital again. I really did not like being locked up in a mental hospital.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,206
Tried both and neither have helped. I don't care to get another therapist even though I probably need one but I know it won't work anyway.
 
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tiredofthis12

New Member
Aug 18, 2024
3
Therapy and meds both helped for a bit. At some point I feel like therapy was just me finding stuff to talk about that wasn't actually the root of everything. It took a break from therapy for me to realize that I'm not "better" and I still do have these thoughts and feelings and I was just distracted I guess. Meds help me though. I definitely feel a difference if i don't take them but at this point it could just be dependence.
 
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altoids

altoids

Looking
Feb 26, 2023
26
I wouldn't call it "professional" but it's technically therapy
 
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tara44

Member
Oct 17, 2024
62
Yes ive been having therapy for almost two years now and it's not helped me what so ever
 
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OldandOut

New Member
Sep 10, 2024
3
I have had much therapy and medication in the past. There's a lot of bad practitioners out there. And not everything is "mental illness" some things are real but you can never get that across to a mental health person. I've been hospitalized a few times, and it was majorly traumatic and coerced. I cannot help but feel that mental health services are a police state in disguise.

I did recently start with a new therapist after very careful vetting. I am gay so wanted someone experienced with gay people and I wanted a male. I am a guy and I despair of "women empowered" in therapy circles. I mean no offense to women, but I am limited to Medicaid-funded therapy, and it seems that a lot of these people go into mental health services with the intent of "helping people" but get drunk on the power imbalance and it goes to their heads. For what my problems and issues are, I want a man to work with -- just as a woman as a victim of violence, domestic, sexual, or other might prefer to work with a woman.

That said, I've only "seen" this therapist once, we've only started and it's "teletherapy." But my economic situation has become dire, I cannot get any help with that, so I am going to have to CTB pretty soon. It's just too late and has gone too far.
 
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