Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[Arrival03]

Been seeing a psychologist for almost three years now and it hasn't helped at all. Was on meds when I was 10-12 but it didn't have any effect.

 

[FindingVeritas]

Used to have a lot of help. Not anymore. I've run the gambit on pills and therapy and psychiatrists and ever since my prescriptions ran out & I lost access to getting them refilled I've just been spiraling.
I have an appointment to get a crisis treatment plan in place tomrrow because I fucked up trying to off myself a few days ago. I'll try whatever they offer me, getting back on my ADHD meds would be life-changing for the better-- being off of them (and my mood stabilizers) have led to me experiencing painful consequences of my unchecked mental illness. Yay me.

 

[onthefence]

Have tried everything short of ECT and am not willing to even go there. Way too much risk for memory loss.
Was seeing 3 therapists at one point. Currently have a therapist, psychiatrist, and a psych NP who are all trying much harder than me to improve things. Nothing is working. My situation is not fixable.

 

[ignorableaurochs]

Not currently on any but tried about 14 medications as well as multiple therapies over the course of 15 years and nothing has helped me. I see my psychiatrist in a few days and I do not know what to even say to him. In my mind, the decision is made to go, I just need to survive til [redacted event]. I feel like a waste of public resources.

 

[SomePersonIGuess]

In therapy but I really don't feel like it's helping. I want to stop going (it always leaves me feeling drained), but I'm yet to muster the courage to say so.
As for meds, I don't really feel like trying it, though I might at least give it a go (a friend wants me to at least try it before I attempt again).

 

[embrace_release]

There's this incredibly strong element of self-sabotage inside of me that has grown stronger than myself. My believe that I am worth nothing has developed a sense of self, I feel like. I've given myself up, let it grow on spoiled soil and now it's gotten scarily strong and it will tear apart any attempt at getting help. Like cerberus guarding my home, locking me in. It'll keep me down until I either suffocate from it or die of natural causes.

 

[grungy自殺]

I would often willow in my struggles about getting help and such because i've want to live through this life, but at the same time because of how strong my unresolved feelings are, i would think also that it would be a mistake because i would suffer more in life for the result of me not having my issues fixed before hitting a certain age and entry to this site.

But it changed when i've made a thread on here that discusses about me and therapy and how it would be an viable option to say what i'm feeling because the thoughts that i have are abnormal (which are of course self harm and suicide) and would likely put be at the center of psychiatric ward and i'm pretty sacred to say such stuff to my therapist

And now that i've realized that because i'm type of person that doesn't like my feelings to be shown because of my fear and stubness

I would not be the most viable one to even consider help if i can't be honest with my thoughts and self

Which is now that i've come to the cocouisn that ending it all would be the answer