Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

I went to a mental health 'professional' once, never went back or again. All they can do for you is listen, diagnose, and drug you. Beyond that they cannot mend a broken spirit. They treat you like a number, its just another day another patient to them.

I realized that after many years the only person that can help yourself is you, and if you fail you will CTB anyways.

 

[Takeme2whereibelong]

Yes have for previous attempts and now currently. On a very rare occasion ill find someone i click with who isnt offended by blatant honesty with the way i talk if i let my mask slip, (i am autistic so tend to lose my filter often when speaking). The rest i find difficult to engage with because they just dont get what we get. Even today in my suicide prevention session i was lectured about how i need to think of her if i did something how it would affect her because she'd then dwell on could've done or said something better to help. Im extremely passionate about people having the right to choose as long as there mentaly capable of deciding and not an adolescent unless in extreme circumstances for the latter (my personal opinion) and i think her comment is incredibly unfair.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Dine therapy many times im heavily medicated and im struggling to pick up the phone ... i have to make a call at some point i have the number sat there .. its to call the hospice to make sure my care is all in order with pallativ team.. due to my personal choices ..as i do not want the transplant that is coming soon.. its sound odd i know to refuse it but due to my other issues that is going to put me in a wheelchair and require people to wipe my arse and bath me ..cut up my food as my hands are fucked from osteoporsis and (thus already going on) i nearly dropped a boiling kettle on my feet the other day as my hand could nit hold it.. i can know longer play the piano my true passion due to all this shit so why would i want tonlive longer when i cant actually live ....

 

[voyager_9999]

i've been going to therapy for about a year and a half and this whole time i havent ever mentioned a desire to ctb, the last thing i need right now is to be sent away or have my family find out, a total waste of money and time, i dont know why im doing this to myself.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

It feels so hopeless seeing most of us got help but we're still suffering.

 

[Thelonginglyracist]

I've been receiving therapy. I've been receiving medication. I've been in the hospital. I've been out of the hospital. I've had good days. I've had bad days

But overall after years of journaling because I took years to make this decision

I just don't like life

If this were a movie, a game, a book or form and it sucked this bad and I put the book down, turned the movie off, turn the game off and uninstalled and no one would look down at me

And yet I'm being potentially judged for this

I have no interest in this. I'm not sad. I'm not angry. I'm not even numb. I'm profoundly disappointed and exhausted and bored

And this world doesn't care how much effort you put in? How much work you do? How good you are. If you've taken the right path the wrong path taking the high road or being sneaky, it doesn't care. Nobody cares really

And that's okay. People need to care about themselves. I get that

I just want no part of it

I'm looking for an exit strategy that is not going to be inconvenient to others and just gets the job done

I'm not doing this spontaneously I'm really quite comical about it. The fact that I'm planning slowly so that everything is done right shows that and this is just what I want and need. I've done it everyone else's way. I've taken all the advice and I've done my best for my entire life and I made this decision a year ago, maybe longer. I only just started documenting how I was feeling consistently for a year just to see if they were like mood swings but even when I'm "happy" I'm just thinking about how I would like to log out now when it feels nice. I have never wanted to stay

 

[SchizoGymnast]

My mental health treatment consists of:

• Medication, namely lithium, an SSRI, and a second-generation antipsychotic
• CBT for symptoms and life stuff, ERP for OCD symptoms, and ACT for identity and relationships
• Physical activity regimen, namely gymnastics (shocker)
• Blood sugar and migraine management
• Spiritual practice

This isn't a specific treatment per se, but whenever I enter a therapeutic endeavor, I view it through the lens of generational and historical trauma. I believe those two things are a h-u-g-e-l-y overlooked part of why people just seem to be "born" unhappy and anxious or alone in the world.

 

[Bleh61]

I've been receiving therapy off and on since 2007. It doesn't matter how good your therapist may be. How can anyone survive if the only piece of stability in their life(their home) is taken from them? I'm a stones throw away from being homeless. I'd rather OD or take a header off my 6th story fire escape then lose my home.

 

[Hope;ess Fear]

Therapy and medication, although who knows how much longer before my country bans my medication or tries to arrest me for needing it.

 

[r.m.216]

Yes but they don't really solve your problems.

Medication works for sleep, and only for awhile. Nothing else does

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I view it through the lens of generational and historical trauma.

Can you expand upon this a bit more? I'm interested.

 

[Lostandlooking]

Yes I'm in therapy, but it's useless for my mental health. I think the efficacy of therapy largely depends on the client and therapist having some sort of connection, soms form of trust. And that's the biggest factor for how effective it is. I don't really connect with people, and I don't trust people. I don't expect anyone ever to truly get it, to understand me and my feelings and how I've been traumatized. I'm convinced of this through experience. (I'm almost 40 so I have had some time to come to this conclusion. Also did lots of therapy) When I talk to my therapist, every now and then she says something that proves she doesn't understand AT ALL. So I stay disconnected.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Can you expand upon this a bit more? I'm interested.

Of course! Generational trauma refers to trauma passed down in families. Historical trauma refers to trauma passed down through populations. An example of generational trauma would be a history foster care or domestic violence in a great grandparent having ripple effects in the current generation. Historical trauma includes things like African Americans and slavery, or Jews and the Holocaust. It's not particularly revolutionary that past events might shape people's attitudes and behavior, but the concepts of inherited trauma makes an even bolder claim...that trauma alters DNA and these DNA mutations can be passed on.

I'm exploring my parents' history of trauma and how it affects their mental health conditions, their brain and personality development, and how they raised me. Even exploring the possibility that my brain injury was caused by an inherited trauma response. It's definitely a rabbit hole, but it's been so healing to me to get to know them as humans, to feel their pain and see where they're coming from, but also have the tools to hold them accountable.

 

[deep-sleeper]

Suffered since I was 12, but only now at 19 years old that I've been getting professional help, rn I am only doing a psychological evaluation though

 

[WantingOut2]

I found out that the miserable, lying ***** who told me that she was quitting her practice in late February, instead has a new one, a half hour away, and - she is so full of ****! I see her spiel on her forum site it says "I'm here to support you as you navigate life's challenges, deepen your inner resources, and develop tools to embrace a meaningful life"
Here to SUPPORT YOU?!?
I'm SO mad.
These people don't care about any of us. LIARS!

 

[roadkill111]

I've been going to therapy, due to a criminal case, meds do not work at all, because my diagnosis cannot be treated with meds.

 

[BrownNoise]

Meds only. Doesn't seem to be working. Thinking about finding another psych and giving tx a go again.

 

[WantingOut2]

I can't take it anymore, I don't want to wake up anymore, I need to be dead. God I need a way

 

[Niron1492]

Yup,since i was 7 and started being depressed(well not sure if depressed is the right word but something similar since its the first time i had SI),went to school counseling at 15 when i started high school(started late because in high school they had school counseling),i think i went for 3-4 times and it didnt work at all,then my mental health kept going worse for personal reasons,didnt work so i went to a therapist(she worked in a hospital but i assumed she was just a therapist because other kids went to her?I dont know),after i kept trying to KM in the summer as i was 16(i tried to overdose on a medication which i think was paracetamol but it somehow didnt work as i swallowed black charcoal pills and drank milk,and also i tried to drown myself but couldnt,obviously cutting didnt work).When i cut everywhere on myself(yet again surprisingly barely cut on my neck) i was sent to a psychiatrist which he gave me meds,didnt work as i also went to a psychotherapist(which im seeing for about 2 years and some months since im 18 now),then idk i went to a psych ward multiple times while being on antipsychotics and other meds,and just meh,i dont know if its just how mental health is treated in my country but they dont work and its honestly frustrating that i just cant get a grip and they just waste my money on useless sessions and meds.(i remember being happier without meds though thats just a temporal side-effect i guess,idk.)

 

[shuvuuiadesertii]

I've wanted to "not exist" since I was 5.

I'm lucky enough to live in a country where affordability is rarely an issue. That said, I've been on many meds, mainly anti-depressants, and none of them have ever truly helped. I actually stopped taking this last one cold turkey and I don't feel any different, which is hella sus.

A couple of days ago I even went as far as checking myself in for the first time. I'd always been scared a psych clinic would be IRL Arkham and, well, it was. Nursing team absolutely drunk on their own power, imposing arbitrary, nonsensical rules and conditions. Punishing (yes, punishing...!) patients by witholding medication...

I've been through all kinds of "help": psychotherapy, psychiatry, all kinds of meds... And my opinion at 45 years old is that there is no such thing. People get better because they do, not because they get "help".

 

[Ronnquist]

Used to have a telehealth therapist that I got referred to by my GP a couple years ago, because the in-person psych office I attended once was $150/hr. Fuck that. Initially I had high hopes going into it, I was ecstatic that someone would finally listen to my trauma dumping and overall just my sob story of a life till that point.

Putting it bluntly, what I got instead was regurgitated, non-personalized """advice""" and CBT garbage, like "eat better and go outside fatass." Instead of lending an ear and listening to how I was still struggling with the emotional and psychological trauma from my teenage years, he wasted my appointments probing into my mundane day-to-day life, like how I had a minor disagreement with my father that morning, as if it was some kind of fucking social call.

Around the same time, I was being passed through a couple of different anti-depressant prescriptions, in no particular order: Bupropion, Escitalopram, Fluoxetine. None of which helped at all, shocker, and just made me even more tired. I really tried for as long as I could to try to make it work, nearly a year if I recall correctly, but I was sick of paying for what were basically overpriced sleeping pills and calls with a therapist that just kept on gettting on my nerves instead of being helpful. I still remember one of my last appointments with him, I brought up how although I wanted a relationship at the time, I had severe trust issues and that really made it difficult for me to try and connect with people. His response? To fucking stonewall me and basically tell me "that's not my problem, I can't help you with that." Asshole.

I can appreciate how meds and therapy work for some people. But for me? Never fucking again. As precarious as my current mental state it is, I'm more "fine" than I ever was with pills and CBT bullshit being forced down my throat. You want to call them coping methods? That's damn right, because it's your way to "cope" with the patient, so it seems like you're listening when in reality you don't give a fucking damn about the hurt and hell people have went through, because fuck being empathetic, right?

 

[closetoyou]

i'm back on ssri's for the first time in like 3 years since two weeks back and start therapy again in like two weeks

had a prior experience with therapy but didnt have enough sessions to build rapport, and my second time years later with another psych was genuinely atrocious (they kept talking about themselves lmao)

never had any great experiences with ssri's but thought i'd just try again. my issue is that i seek out all this help when im already at my lowest and probably don't even really want any of this shit to actually work and just wanna ctb atp

 

[AlistairSky]

Been in therapy off and on for years. Antidepressants only worked for a week.

Therapy blows, 45 minutes every week isn't enough time. We barely talk about whatever happened last week, I don't think my therapist even knows anything about my childhood. I need some kind of intensive cognitive restructuring and a therapist can't provide it.

 

[Captain Howdy]

I'm from a place where suicidality and mental health issues are directly linked to the devil's work and assumed to be results and symptoms of being possessed. Even if i wanted it the best treatment you can recieve is the holy water. We are a million years behind.

I am so sorry for this. Religion has caused more suffering to humanity than every other evil, plague and disease combined. I'm sure there might be some phone support available for you. I know it's not a great option, but... it's probably out there.

 

[drakflowerfire]

For me, i work so much at an gas station but i have my bad moments.

I don't have money to go.

 

[johnnytsunami667]

I do for my bipolar disorder but it's quite bullshit so on and off.

 

[icetea15]

I've been through over 10 years of different therapies and tried tons of meds. Some of it helped a bit, but I was still stuck with severe depression, borderline disorder, and chronic suicidal thoughts. About two years ago I started ketamine infusions, and since then I've been pretty much depression-free and able to work like a normal person again. Right now I just get about four infusions a year, one every three months or so.

 

[unknownpassage]

Combined 15 years of therapy, more medications than I can remember. Zoloft, celexa, lamictal, wellbutrin, remeron, ability, seroquel. About 7 or 8 inpatient hospitalizations, one partial. Absolutely none of them have helped.

 

[superbfrawg]

Zoloft no help, wellbutrin no help, abilify no help, trintellix no help, seems like nothing helps??

 

[PixelAngel]

Therapy and medication since 24, now 36 (next week). Two failed CTB attempts (I missed the bus?). Tried super hard. To prove I did. To prove it mattered to me to stop feeling this way. Turns out I'm treatment resistant, most medications have only had negative side effects or none at all on me. And so through all of that here I am anyway. I asked when I was 5 why I didn't feel happy like everyone else. I've never gotten an answer.