[POLL] Which month would you prefer CTBing in?

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Plans have been becoming increasingly concrete in my head lately, which has gotten me thinking about seasons and months. For whatever reason, it feels wrong to me to CTB in winter. Maybe it's some primal mammalian instinct to hibernate, to muddle through. So I think the earliest I can go is March. There's always been something about that month for me; not necessarily in a bad way, I've had good March's, but it just always seems to be a time of change for me. A time where I make big, impactful decisions. Feels fitting that it would be the month I choose to make the last decision I will ever make in. This does seem to track with suicide research, which apparently shows that April is the most common month for suicides. Feel free to posit your own theories as to why that is.

*Couldn't do every single month because it doesn't allow you to have 12 options in a single poll lol, so I grouped them into pairs. You get to pick up to two.

 

[Namelesa]

If I could choose every month I would as I don't really care when I ctb. The month doesn't matter to me.

 

[nomoredolor]

For me I would love to die in the autumn, my favorite season.

For my family, March- April time to clump together the suicides

Anna

 

[LostLily]

Avoiding a month that has an any friends or family birthday. So my tentative month is September

 

[apearl]

my birthday and Christmas is in winter so I'd want to ctb in early fall to make sure no one I know had wasted money on gifts for me

 

[willitpass]

January/February. Most likely early February. Far enough out from the holidays to not completely ruin them for the rest of my family's lives, not too close to any birthdays. Everyone would have some time to grieve before the next big holiday/birthday. That would be ideal, but with how long and hard I have been suffering, I simply cannot be so selective. When the moment comes it will be done, irregardless of timing. I only have it in me to attempt avoiding doing it on a major day of the year if I can help it.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

My current plan is before the 20th, so definitely January for me. Falling asleep for the last time while snow drifts down around me, covering everything in sight with a bright white sounds cozy and fitting.

 

[Winry]

My current plan is to ctb some time around my birthday in January one year. If not ON my birthday.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't really care about the month. I just want to be dead asap

 

[SmilingNoMore]

December/January are usually my darkest. I hate January because it's the start of another year and if there is no prospect of a better one, I'd much rather prefer to leave December. Since I postponed, I'm stuck with January again but thankfully now I have a method it's somehow more bearable knowing I could make it happen when the time is right.

 

[death_bed221]

January cuz its my birthday then.

 

[S like Siren]

Right now would be great

 

[FuneralCry]

It doesn't matter to me as long as I never suffer in this existence ever again as all I wish for is to permanently cease existing, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me only non-existence is desirable, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way, I see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist and I'd never wish to prolong the suffering of existing just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. I personally always find it so dreadful to exist and I'd never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this existence at all, I just want true peace instead of being enslaved in this existence of unnecessary, pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway, I suffer so much from the imposition of existence, the fact that I was forced to suffer at all is a tragedy to me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

A warmer month would be more comfortable. I'll want to turn the heating off and the lights off most likely before I go. I don't fancy dieing in the cold and dark.

Mood wise, I've always loved Autumn. It would feel appropriate to die along with other things.

Practicality wise though, I'm lead by other life events that could happen at any time. Ideally, I want to go ASAP after my Dad does. I also have a strong work ethic though so, I may wait till the end of a project (if I'm working on something) to go. So, it could be anytime really.

 

[codeinesyruplover]

i don't really think it matters but if i could choose i'd ctb in summer, maybe in june or july because of the warm weather. Its much more comfortable than in the colder seasons

 

[Anon_Guy]

I want to ctb before my next birthday, so January-February would be great.

 

[Romanticize]

doesn't matter. hour of the day, day of the week, month of the year... why would anything matter when i want to ctb, especially things that are abirtrary set up by humans? it's just a number on the calendar. one day is not different to another.

 

[FindingVeritas]

My mental health is always so bad in the winter but I hate the idea of becoming a part of the statistic of suicides around the holidays. I dont want to ruin any holidays for anyone either. Plus, there is an extra internment fee in my province during the winter and that is an addition expense I would rather not save up for.
May/June is nice, the weather has warmed up and the only "major holiday" in june is my birthday. If anyone cares to grieve me on either dates (arrival or departure) then i think it may be thoughtful to group both days close together. Hell, I've always loved my birthday and maybe it wouldn't hurt to stick around for that even if I'll be alone. Summer has always been my favourite season and it'd be nice to ctb with the sun on my face.

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

One with an odd number as I hate even numbers.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Either February [my own bday falls there] or October [which has the birth/death dates of my best friend].

 

[Trakehner]

My plan is to do it in April