Story Quite a new member

[Tasdevil]

Hi, I am quite new to this group. my Story in short I have had many traumatic events in my life from sexual abuse as a child and young adult life from two separate people. I have battled with PTSD, major depression and bad anxiety since I can remember I also battle with alcoholism other traumatic events that I have seen is I found someone CBT from hanging it at the time it was scary however now I don't fear hanging if I can achieve it without difficulty I am willing to use that a back method if I am unable to get hold everything I need to CBT from SN. My life has been one huge mess for over 20 years so just under half my life. Probably one of the biggest events of my life was my brothers murder Which happened several years ago. I just want to end the constant pain from the mental health perspective. I have Tried counselling the first time I had counselling I cut my wrist thinking I would CTB because I couldn't handle the past being brought up. Since then i don't get anything out of seeing a psychologist in fact I often I feel as if I kmow better than they do. Just wanted to share my story which led me here.

 

[Inferdan]

Welcome, then. You have arrived to the perfect place, my friend. There are many things available here, from discussion of personal issues or trivial matters to resources and information on methods to pass on (a popular and recommended one is SN, which is sodium nitrite, not nitrate, you'll see it a lot around here), but also will allow you to try and get better and make peace with yourself, talking and sharing with people in similar situations as yourself. The people here are very kind, all unique with their own stories and interests, and respect everyone here. You may do as you like, within the guidelines, and I wish you a pleasant time for as long as you stay. Until next time, Tasdevil

 

[Brick In The Wall]

First off welcome to the forums! You sound like you've been through alot of shit. Which I'm sorry you had to go through any of that. There are many people here who probably share most of your experiences. We're here to provide you with support in whatever type of help you may need!

 

[Tasdevil]

Welcome, then. You have arrived to the perfect place, my friend. There are many things available here, from discussion of personal issues or trivial matters to resources and information on methods to pass on (a popular and recommended one is SN, which is sodium nitrite, not nitrate, you'll see it a lot around here), but also will allow you to try and get better and make peace with yourself, talking and sharing with people in similar situations as yourself. The people here are very kind, all unique with their own stories and interests, and respect everyone here. You may do as you like, within the guidelines, and I wish you a pleasant time for as long as you stay. Until next time, Tasdevil

Welcome, then. You have arrived to the perfect place, my friend. There are many things available here, from discussion of personal issues or trivial matters to resources and information on methods to pass on (a popular and recommended one is SN, which is sodium nitrite, not nitrate, you'll see it a lot around here), but also will allow you to try and get better and make peace with yourself, talking and sharing with people in similar situations as yourself. The people here are very kind, all unique with their own stories and interests, and respect everyone here. You may do as you like, within the guidelines, and I wish you a pleasant time for as long as you stay. Until next time, Tasdevil

I looked up SN few days ago but so far haven't been able to find it online at least where I live and I don't know if my doctor would prescribe Meto without a good reason if I am able to source both then I will use SN. I need to plan things probably and be happy with the choice i make to CBT so I don't panic when the time comes.

 

[Inferdan]

I looked up SN few days ago but so far haven't been able to find it online at least where I live and I don't know if my doctor would prescribe Meto without a good reason if I am able to source both then I will use SN. I need to plan things probably and be happy with the choice i make to CBT so I don't panic when the time comes.

There is an info thread in the main discussion forum with a huge amount of info about SN, telling you what you need, possibly where and how to get it and more. I suggest looking there for answers.