Random thoughts

[lost illusions]

Small change of plans. Does anyone know what thread to put it on? I may need ideas

 

[throwaway123]

I miss my dead friends

 

[lost illusions]

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

 

[lost illusions]

I miss my dead friends

Me too

 

[Nothing]

I think the idea of killing yourself shakes the foundation of what a lot of people have to support themselves and endure all the nonsense life throws at you. They brainwash themselves into believing life is good, the world is beautiful, etc and it is worth fighting for it, but then... Someone chooses to die and that belief is suddenly shaken... If life is so good, why would someone choose to end it sooner? So instead of trying to understand and accept suicide as a normal thing, they choose the easier route: To demonize and condemn the act.

I think that it goes with the fact that they (people) like to think that they are good people, that they care about others and stuff, but when someone close to them decides to die it's like they failed, they are fake, they are exposed. They thinnk they care, but it's like a lot of people when I say I feel sad and (just to the closest ones once) I just want to die and they feel threatened or they just go away and forget it.

 

[ctoan]

i know a song which is just soo good i only hear it one or two times per year...because im afraid if hear it too often i will get used too it and it will lose its magic

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

Third time's a charm....

 

[weedoge]

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

Um, are you okay?

 

[lost illusions]

Here's the dill pickle. If I'm wrong for posting on here but I'm in a world of shit atm

Fn phone

 

[lost illusions]

Third time's a charm....

My phone is goofy I guess

 

[Desperate_Soul]

My phone is goofy I guess

Haha, it's pretty goofy, isn't it? Is this the dill pickle you're speaking of?

 

[lost illusions]

Um, are you okay?

Nope but I'll deal with what ever comes

 

[lost illusions]

Haha, it's pretty goofy, isn't it? Is this the dill pickle you're speaking of?

I got myself into a legal issue

 

[weedoge]

Nope but I'll deal with what ever comes

Tell us about it if you need to

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I got myself into a legal issue

Feel free to post a new thread about it in either the offtopic or sanctionedsuicide discussion board with a tag if you need to. There might be someone who can share their own experiences with you or answer any questions you have... or generally any reply that may be helpful to you. This Random thoughts thread doesn't get as many replies for an individual post, and not many people look into this thread. I would free up my PM to you for this, but legal issues is not my forte and I wouldn't be much help.

 

[lost illusions]

Some people really fucking suck. I got jumped by a couple of punks. One has a broken jaw by elbow and palm. the other is in ICU with broken ribs and punctured lung by a steel toe boot. It was caught on there own video. One of them said I had a knife so the officers looked through my pickup and found my practice noose

 

[lost illusions]

Some people really fucking suck. I got jumped by a couple of punks. One has a broken jaw by elbow and palm. the other is in ICU with broken ribs and punctured lung by a steel toe boot. It was caught on there own video. One of them said I had a knife so the officers looked through my pickup and found my practice noose

This happened on reservation ground and they took the noose, my meds and two (legal and registered)pistols. I'm lucky to have been booked and released. Now I'm waiting for the fall out

 

[lost illusions]

This happened on reservation ground and they took the noose, my meds and two (legal and registered)pistols. I'm lucky to have been booked and released. Now I'm waiting for the fall out

The officers know me, I've worked the fire lines and search parties with them. I've also been involved in scary moments where they needed a little help, wrong place wrong time. I trust them. I was told this could go very badly. The county may want to prosecute for excessive force using combat training to please the tribe. Tribal council is needing media time for elections and officer Nomi thinks the council may put a racial spin on this to help campaigning efforts.

 

[TehArgentum]

I've got to say that social isolation is not as bad as people make it out to be. I feel much better now being nearly completely isolated than when I was a part of a chatroom. It feels very relieving, to say the least.

 

[throwaway123]

I got myself into a legal issue

same, stupid laws and it's bureaucracy.

 

[lost illusions]

same, stupid laws and it's bureaucracy.

No shit man, sad part is I did nothing wrong other than I got off my lazy ass and went to work

 

[zadig777]

i feel immense pain when i socialize,i cant stay for too long with people and i break down crying when i come home
its a pain everyday when i see people being alive and ok

 

[throwaway123]

No shit man, sad part is I did nothing wrong other than I got off my lazy ass and went to work

exactly. This world and it's people are constantly looking for ways to make our lives even more miserable.

 

[lost illusions]

exactly. This world and it's people are constantly looking for ways to make our lives even more miserable.

Well atleast I still have good standing with the res cops.

 

[blueming]

"We feel free because we lack the very language to articulate our unfreedom."
― Slavoj Žižek

 

[Morning Angel]

No one cares that much until you're gone. And even then, they tell themselves you were a lost cause anyway. People are just human and care primarily about themselves. I wish I'd gotten memo and acted accordingly earlier in life.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

Waiting for the fight listening to some classics off my playlist!!

 

[mattwitt]

Where I live they changed all the traffic lights to supposedly help the flow of traffic when in fact they do the complete opposite. One night driving to my last job I counted that I got stopped by 27 out of 29 traffic lights !

 

[samsays89]

I'm close enough to walk to work but I miss driving. There's a feeling of calm control to drive somewhere even if there are stupid drivers in front of you. You have a destination and a road and most likely you'll get there. Not like when life can be chaotic and unknown or you have strange thoughts that don't seem your own.

I say this now but if I had to drive to work again I'd probably hate the traffic.

 

[blood orange]

Ok. Ok. OK.

I think I just have the final push.

My ex brought a woman over to this house to sleep with. They both laugh at me when I told them to leave.


I have to do this now.

My dream about the bus. It was about what I'm going to do.

God. I didn't want it to be like this. Someone, please!!!