Discussion Regrets in Life

[Szarur-abi]

Recently turned 23, wish i could achieve anything and not be useless piece of shit, i'm just breathing piece of garbage, air is a big waste for me. Everyone tries their best for me but i keep dissapointing everyone. They expect me to pass the uni after failing it year ago but honestly it goes too fucking quickly, its already two months before final exams like when the fuck did it happened. Im not showing to anyone but i feel like im falling apart the more i think about my state, other than studies i work security job in the museum, its not bad just it doesnt give any perspectives but i worked as a cashier once on gas station and it was a nightmare so im glad i have atleast not so stressful job. Im liked here tho, i try to be nice and it pays off a bit. I just wished i could get clear carrer path before me with bright (or any) perspectives but i think it will only get worse from there.

I have suicide kit ready since march (SN, Meto, Painkillers and hydroxyzine), so im ready to go whenever i feel like it, its not yet tho

 

[divinemistress36]

37. Meeting the man that caused my stroke and electroshock therapy

 

[bye_world]

Im 21. I cant decide if my biggest regret is what I did to hurt my best friend so badly before we fell out, or not opening the messages he sent me applogizing and trying to reconnect the week before he killed himself. maybe its not kms back when i was 18 and planning to do it together with him.

Kind of same for me

 

[Zyntkalla]

28. My whole life has been a regret and so much emotional pain from things that I wanted that I could never get. One of my dreams was I wanted to just to be normal, an average. But no I was born with brain damage. It affects my memory understanding, and it affects my right eye.That's what really hurts the most. I am very self conscious of all my issues makes me have very low self esteem. It makes me feel useless and i'm always constantly worried about keeping up with work. What I have to live with never feels like it's good enough for me. Most of the time I wish I was dead years ago.