Story Returning after failed attempt in 2020

[hudsonkkk]

2020 was without a doubt my worst phase... I had posted, in November, questions about hanging after attempts that didn't even come close to killing me. A week later I tried again, I fainted but fell to the ground... the other time I was more determined, this time I don't know if it's really what I want, maybe I'll try the same method but making sure that bad luck doesn't happen again.

 

[Manaaja]

Partial hanging is really hard, I have tried it literally about 50-100 times, and failed every time, I can't pass out most of the times, and if I'm near to passing out SI kicks me in the face. I've also tried full hanging, but it takes a lot of guts.

I hope you can find some escape from the pain and suffering, no matter which road you go. It would be nice if after a really bad year, the next year would be guaranteed to be good, but that doesn't happen often.

Good luck in what ever you choose to do!

 

[hudsonkkk]

Hi, are you okay? There is a lot of tries and you are here since 2018... Do you still trying it? Hope you are good!

 

[Crazy4u]

if you don't know what you really want, maybe stay for a while? many people can't find their passion and that's ok. tbh, life is strange

 

[hudsonkkk]

Thats true, Ill have more patience

 

[Smart No More]

I think you should consider putting partial/hanging aside if you've had failed attempts already. There's just too much chance for it to go wrong and for it to leave you worse off. I too failed partial. I think it takes a certain type of person and for most people I think they get it right first time if they're able to do it. It really is so hard to do. I had passed out and was flailing a bit but was still somewhat aware of it. I came round out of the noose and my vision started coming back as I was fleeing the room. SI must have kicked in. I was so determined and ready but I learned just what SI is that day.

 

[hudsonkkk]

I think you should consider putting partial/hanging aside if you've had failed attempts already. There's just too much chance for it to go wrong and fornit to leave you worse off. I too failed partial. I think it takes a certain type of person and for most people I think they get it right first time if they're able to do it. It really is so hard to do. I had passed out and was flailing a bit but was still somewhat aware of it. I came too out of the noose and my vision started coming back as I was fleeing the room. SI must have kicked in. I was so determined and ready but I learned just what SI is that day.

But I never was too close... that last try was so close...

 

[Smart No More]

But I never was too close... that last try was so close...

I'm just saying there's a high failure rate and chances of brain damage so it's not for everyone and there's no guarantee. I don't expect anyone to take my advice though. :)

 

[hudsonkkk]

I'm just saying there's a high failure rate and chances of brain damage so it's not for everyone and there's no guarantee. I don't expect anyone to take my advice though. :)

Thats true... Ill consider it

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you went through failed attempts. Ctb really is so difficult and the fear of failure is one of the main things that is holding me back. More than anything I wish it was easier to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[hudsonkkk]

Thank you a lot