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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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Last Week I became acute suicidal because of College pressure and two women rejected. One of the belongs to my self-help group. We had an extra Meeting recently. The woman who rejected me came and the woman I have secretly a Crush on. I was not sure how awkward this gonna be. When I was rejected it hurt like hell. She told me she decides for her bf. It Was the first Meeting after that incident. I did not want to Sound whiny or pathetic. Like getting acute suicidal over being rejected. I hid it perfectly. I was quite funny all the Thing time. I dropped so many high quality jokes. The people considered me hilarious. But actually I do All These Jokes only for the woman I have a Crush on. I think the woman who rejected me noticed how I starred at the woman I have a crush on. Which pissed her off a little bit. She took shots at me and I reacted cool. This was so good for my ego and self-esteem. The only Issue the woman I have a crush on signaled me she does not want to have a relationship with me once. But today she gave me positive vibes. Sometimes I struggle to talk to her because I am so nervous around her. I was not very nervous this time simply because of the insane Things that happened last Week.
I told none of them that I am in the clinic. Except for one and someone else knew it because I met his Ex in the clinic area. I need to get the Phone number of the woman I have a crush on. It felt so good making this woman jealous who rejected me.
I did not Post it yesterday because it made me manic. But I had a good talk with a staff member of the clinic. I told her how serious the situation on Tuesday was, that I even considered to repeat it and that I need a therapist. It helped me to calm down. I told her I want to play with open cards
I told none of them that I am in the clinic. Except for one and someone else knew it because I met his Ex in the clinic area. I need to get the Phone number of the woman I have a crush on. It felt so good making this woman jealous who rejected me.
I did not Post it yesterday because it made me manic. But I had a good talk with a staff member of the clinic. I told her how serious the situation on Tuesday was, that I even considered to repeat it and that I need a therapist. It helped me to calm down. I told her I want to play with open cards