Hello all.
Just wanted to give a few details about my wellness check to give others an **idea** of what to expect and some things that can be learned from my experience. Before I continue please remember that this was a subjective experience, and the officers who visit you may not act in the same way they did to me.
I don't want to be too specific about my experience as it could be used to identify me and monitor my activity, so I will provide as much as I am comfortable with.
The officers arrived at my residence late in the evening, and forced entry as I was asleep and did not hear anything at all. I woke up to them standing over me and asking if I knew why they were here. I denied everything repeatedly for over an hour, and eventually requested to speak to a solicitor. They asked if I already had one and I said no, where can I go to make calls? They let me out to the back of the police van where I made a few calls but received no response from the three solicitors (local to me) which I made calls to. I came back inside and the officers told me once again that I did not need a solicitor because they 'just wanted to talk' and that I wasn't being charged with anything. At this exact moment, my anxiety began to build as I was left without legal support and I knew that them saying "you aren't being charged with a crime" only meant [YET]. The officers managed to reassure me and talked to me with respect and understanding. They attempted to empathise with me and share their struggles which was nice, though not helpful.
They then told me that they were aware of pentobarbital being seized/used in the UK, and that it is a rising issue in the UK. They said it was becoming a popular option particularly for younger people, but I'm not sure what they class as young. They had also mentioned that it's sometimes intercepted with metoclopramide; they had no reason to share this information with me but I'm writing this to inform other users that police definitely know what meto is being used for in these type of situations. I believe that the fact they know about the usage of metoclopramide in suicide cases/methods will lead to stricter measures being taken regarding the prescription of metoclopramide to 'younger people'.
Near the end of the wellness visit (~2 hours in), they made a phone call to a mental health facility somewhat near me, which to this day I have little understanding of what they do and what the purpose of the phone call was. They then told me that they would send a report to my GP and be classing this event as a suicide attempt. The report takes 2-3 weeks to be sent, and they advised me to phone my GP in the meantime which I did not.
Other notes:
-The officers were very keen to learn from me how much the N costs, meaning they either don't know how much is being paid, or that they have received conflicting reports from survivors.
-Almost 2 months later, I have received no follow up, and despite taking the measures that I did, my doctors are still treating me like a child and not supporting me in my recovery whatsoever. One of my doctors told me that because I've been on several antidepressants and had a great many therapy/counselling experiences, that at this point I have to do the hard work on my own. They then spoke to my mother and told her that they think I'm just 'very negative' and 'unwilling'. This experience only makes me angrier and I wonder what, if any, consequences the doctor will face following this experience, knowing how severely suicidal I am and have been for years.
My advice to anyone reading: do NOT order N to the UK. From all the threads I've read since around April onwards, there is about a 10% success rate in receiving N from D to the UK.
Thanks for reading, and I hope that this experience can be used to help others make an informed decision. I would greatly appreciate the advice of other members if you believe I have given details which can be used to uniquely identify me.
Just wanted to give a few details about my wellness check to give others an **idea** of what to expect and some things that can be learned from my experience. Before I continue please remember that this was a subjective experience, and the officers who visit you may not act in the same way they did to me.
I don't want to be too specific about my experience as it could be used to identify me and monitor my activity, so I will provide as much as I am comfortable with.
The officers arrived at my residence late in the evening, and forced entry as I was asleep and did not hear anything at all. I woke up to them standing over me and asking if I knew why they were here. I denied everything repeatedly for over an hour, and eventually requested to speak to a solicitor. They asked if I already had one and I said no, where can I go to make calls? They let me out to the back of the police van where I made a few calls but received no response from the three solicitors (local to me) which I made calls to. I came back inside and the officers told me once again that I did not need a solicitor because they 'just wanted to talk' and that I wasn't being charged with anything. At this exact moment, my anxiety began to build as I was left without legal support and I knew that them saying "you aren't being charged with a crime" only meant [YET]. The officers managed to reassure me and talked to me with respect and understanding. They attempted to empathise with me and share their struggles which was nice, though not helpful.
They then told me that they were aware of pentobarbital being seized/used in the UK, and that it is a rising issue in the UK. They said it was becoming a popular option particularly for younger people, but I'm not sure what they class as young. They had also mentioned that it's sometimes intercepted with metoclopramide; they had no reason to share this information with me but I'm writing this to inform other users that police definitely know what meto is being used for in these type of situations. I believe that the fact they know about the usage of metoclopramide in suicide cases/methods will lead to stricter measures being taken regarding the prescription of metoclopramide to 'younger people'.
Near the end of the wellness visit (~2 hours in), they made a phone call to a mental health facility somewhat near me, which to this day I have little understanding of what they do and what the purpose of the phone call was. They then told me that they would send a report to my GP and be classing this event as a suicide attempt. The report takes 2-3 weeks to be sent, and they advised me to phone my GP in the meantime which I did not.
Other notes:
-The officers were very keen to learn from me how much the N costs, meaning they either don't know how much is being paid, or that they have received conflicting reports from survivors.
-Almost 2 months later, I have received no follow up, and despite taking the measures that I did, my doctors are still treating me like a child and not supporting me in my recovery whatsoever. One of my doctors told me that because I've been on several antidepressants and had a great many therapy/counselling experiences, that at this point I have to do the hard work on my own. They then spoke to my mother and told her that they think I'm just 'very negative' and 'unwilling'. This experience only makes me angrier and I wonder what, if any, consequences the doctor will face following this experience, knowing how severely suicidal I am and have been for years.
My advice to anyone reading: do NOT order N to the UK. From all the threads I've read since around April onwards, there is about a 10% success rate in receiving N from D to the UK.
Thanks for reading, and I hope that this experience can be used to help others make an informed decision. I would greatly appreciate the advice of other members if you believe I have given details which can be used to uniquely identify me.
