
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Today has been one weird day for me. I woke up this morning to find my power wasn't working. Luckily, it came back on about an hour after I got up. Then I found a phone message from my niece whom I haven't spoken to in a long, long time. She said she wants to talk to me, but doesn't say why. I wrote another thread about that. I was writing a reply to someone who answered my thread when my sister-in-law called me wanting me to go with her & her 5 year old great-grandson for lunch & to watch him play in the park. I said my usual "no" and then she wanted me to go to her house tomorrow for Thanksgiving. I said "no" again & she started asking me why, etc. I told her it was nothing personal to her or her family. She is one of the sweetest, most generous people I've ever met, but she doesn't understand my health issues- no matter how many times I explain it to her. She had me on speakerphone in her car, which I didn't realise until her great-grandson started trying to talk to me. She told me she'd call me later & that I need to go to her house so her that her great-grandson's mother can help me find new health insurance for next year. I plan on being gone by January 4th, so I don't care about health insurance.
I was already feeling more upset than usual because of the stupid holiday tomorrow. All of this other stuff has made it worse. I've been pacing the floor for hours and talking to myself, or rather ranting to myself. I've been crying non-stop and I can't seem to calm down now. These are the times when I wish I had been able to ctb before the holidays.
I was already feeling more upset than usual because of the stupid holiday tomorrow. All of this other stuff has made it worse. I've been pacing the floor for hours and talking to myself, or rather ranting to myself. I've been crying non-stop and I can't seem to calm down now. These are the times when I wish I had been able to ctb before the holidays.