“Suicide is selfish” It’s selfish to want me alive when I’d be better off dead.

[25jiyuki]

Since I'm chronically and mentally ill, those around me take care of me more than I take care of myself. I'm a massive burden to those around me, especially financially. Being too unwell to work properly as an adult is pathetic. I'm suffering just by living every day. On days my illness is bearable, I tend to physically hurt myself anyway.

With that knowledge, why do others think I should continue living?

I sound like a broken record mentioning this on every post. But I truly am sick of being in an endless cycle. I can't just "get help". No cure exists for me. I've tried convincing myself I deserve life. But there is nothing to love about me.

My last two attempts failed. Now, I'll make sure I don't make it to my 19th birthday.

I'm disposing of a burden to those around me. Why would anyone consider this selfish?

 

[shiba]

Most people find it really uncomfortable that people can opt out of this world. If you ask me they're the selfish ones for trying to prolong another's suffering for their own comfort.

 

[Nightfoot]

They're probably responding from the perspective of how it would make them feel.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I've argued this with a therapist before. They dont care how hard a person's life is. Live mother F'er live!

 

[kopebaldy]

I've argued this with a therapist before. They dont care how hard a person's life is. Live mother F'er live!

Well... if you die, they lose a customer.

Besides, normal people will never be able to understand how someone could be driven to the point of suicide.

Maybe it's biological maybe it's social, idk, I'm not smart enough. Their brains simply will not accept that outcome.

 

[Docc]

exactly, they all think its like a temporary thing or a mental issue. They cant fanthom wanting to die so just take your pills and everything will be fine.

god i hate this world

 

[25jiyuki]

The replies to this thread honestly make me feel a little better. Because there are people who understand. Thank you all.

 

[akiyama346]

They quite simply don't understand, I wish there was something more I could tell you. They apply their life experiences over yours. I also have a chronic health condition. I have eczema, right now, my inner thigh is oozing some shit and its pretty gross. It's chronic, there's no known cure, I may have this for life. I hate my life, I hate my parents for saying that "roaches in the house are normal" and pitting all the blame on me for it saying "I should clean up more" when it's all around them too and we've had the issue my whole life. And guess what? Roaches are one of my more severe allergens, my skin issues are triggered by these allergens. I'm sorry for yapping, I didn't really mean to.

I can't tell you what to do, but I feel the same way. I wish you the best man.

 

[wham311]

My life is absolutely untenable and going to get a thousand times worse and my family thinks I'm such an asshole for wanting to leave.

You do this

 

[openBottomJeans]

I'm doing it for me. Fuck the ones trying to take my happiness away

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

the hell im in is horrible beyond imagination. But they say no u can't leave that situation u have to suffer . And I ask why do I have to live another minute ? I don't. there is no reason

I wouldn't want to live even if I had what most consider a good life. But I can't hire someone to aid me with suicide cause they made that a crime . So I'm a tortured slave prisoner in a hell I never asked to be brought into

 

[Manfrotto99]

My life is absolutely untenable and going to get a thousand times worse and my family thinks I'm such an asshole for wanting to leave.

You do this

I can relate to this. My family only blame me for wanting to leave, when they are the ones who have largely put me in the situation - but the have to deny and blame me for it.