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melonpan

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If possible, I'll CTB some time this month. I was planning on yesterday because it'd be ironic as it's national suicide awareness day, I just hesitated. It'd be nice if I could tomorrow or September 15th. The reason is a bit dumb but, it's my childhood imaginary friend's birthday that also died from suicide. Another possible day is September 20th because it's my favorite singer's death anniversary. さユり!

I still don't know where (I'm planning on jumping as it's the most convenient and likely chance for me because I don't have access to other things);
I live in the North Jersey/NYC area and I wanted to know if anyone has any recommendations— sounds as if I'm asking for food recommendations— for buildings that are easily accessible? I can't go for rooftop bars (still 19) No bridges for me, I'd rather not somehow be conscious and live to drown painfully



I feel bad for tormenting my parents because all I do is mope and watch videos on my phone…
Had a small conflict with my dad today and afterwards, he came to my room to tell me he's not mad, he just wants me to make the right choices and he kept emphasizing he loves me
All I could do was cry and say "I know, I love you too"
Sorry, but this is better for all of you, I'm genuinely a parasitic sort of human being stuck to you
 
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