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Hi, I would like to show you my method that I will use in a couple of months to end my pathetic life and I would like to know what you think. I will kill myself with carbon monoxide and I will use my car. First, I will buy some coal briquettes and cook them in one of those pots used to cook pasta. In the meantime, I will swallow some olanzapine 10mg pills, which has a very high drowsiness effect and will help me sleep. However, I will be anxious and may panic knowing that I am about to kill myself so I will also take some Lorazepam pills. In the meantime that I do this, the pot with the coal that will have turned white and not smoking, will be inside the trunk inside the car, which will allow the CO to accumulate. I will be very drowsy because of all those drugs and then I will wait a bit and get into the car, and I will fall asleep without realizing anything, without feeling the side effects of the CO, and goodnight everyone. Honestly this is my only plan, it's slow but doable, I'm almost ready to get my driver's license, my town is half dead, no one will ever find out or wonder what I'm doing, the store to buy coal is 30 steps from my house, I have access to olanzapine because of my psychotic father, I can go get a prescription for lorazepam, that's it.
 
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You will also have to seal the car vents and so on. Don't take too many meds to fall asleep/get drunk bc that will lead to mistakes and in the end you wake up again with brain damage if the CO wasn't enough to kill you. The meds you've mentioned won't kill you.

 
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I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for.
 
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This method can fail if there is not high enough concentration of CO in the car. This method needs to be tested with a CO reader to make sure the CO in the car is higher than about 5000PPM for at least 30 minutes. Otherwise it can leave a man with brain/organ damage in a much worse condition than before.
 
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This method can fail if there is not high enough concentration of CO in the car. This method needs to be tested with a CO reader to make sure the CO in the car is higher than about 5000PPM for at least 30 minutes. Otherwise it can leave a man with brain/organ damage in a much worse condition than before.
I live in Italy, there is no co reader that exceeds 5000ppm
I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for.
Thank you bro, i hope for you too
You will also have to seal the car vents and so on. Don't take too many meds to fall asleep/get drunk bc that will lead to mistakes and in the end you wake up again with brain damage if the CO wasn't enough to kill you. The meds you've mentioned won't kill you.

the meds won't kill me but they will help me sleep. I've read about people who died accidentally in their cars. without having to use a co-reader or anything else
 
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Hi, I would like to show you my method that I will use in a couple of months to end my pathetic life and I would like to know what you think. I will kill myself with carbon monoxide and I will use my car. First, I will buy some coal briquettes and cook them in one of those pots used to cook pasta. In the meantime, I will swallow some olanzapine 10mg pills, which has a very high drowsiness effect and will help me sleep. However, I will be anxious and may panic knowing that I am about to kill myself so I will also take some Lorazepam pills. In the meantime that I do this, the pot with the coal that will have turned white and not smoking, will be inside the trunk inside the car, which will allow the CO to accumulate. I will be very drowsy because of all those drugs and then I will wait a bit and get into the car, and I will fall asleep without realizing anything, without feeling the side effects of the CO, and goodnight everyone. Honestly this is my only plan, it's slow but doable, I'm almost ready to get my driver's license, my town is half dead, no one will ever find out or wonder what I'm doing, the store to buy coal is 30 steps from my house, I have access to olanzapine because of my psychotic father, I can go get a prescription for lorazepam, that's it.
It sounds like such a PEACEFUL METHOD. Gosh, *I hope your dreams come true and a Goodnight to you too~~🌹🤍*

This was the 1st method I was going to go with. I still have the bag of charcoal, the little things that help it get lit quicker and a mini grill that I bought. It could work...but I suppose I chickened out bc I ended up thinking that it wouldn't. Darn, if only there were a way of KNOWING that it was successful for you.

Btw, you tripped me out when you said your "town is half dead and no one will wonder what you are doing"!...sounds like where I moved too, smdh.
 
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I live in Italy, there is no co reader that exceeds 5000ppm
On the Internet, you can order a CO analyzer that measures up to 10000 PPM for around $230 US and have it delivered right to your home. TPI makes one.
 
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Hi, I would like to show you my method that I will use in a couple of months to end my pathetic life and I would like to know what you think. I will kill myself with carbon monoxide and I will use my car. First, I will buy some coal briquettes and cook them in one of those pots used to cook pasta. In the meantime, I will swallow some olanzapine 10mg pills, which has a very high drowsiness effect and will help me sleep. However, I will be anxious and may panic knowing that I am about to kill myself so I will also take some Lorazepam pills. In the meantime that I do this, the pot with the coal that will have turned white and not smoking, will be inside the trunk inside the car, which will allow the CO to accumulate. I will be very drowsy because of all those drugs and then I will wait a bit and get into the car, and I will fall asleep without realizing anything, without feeling the side effects of the CO, and goodnight everyone. Honestly this is my only plan, it's slow but doable, I'm almost ready to get my driver's license, my town is half dead, no one will ever find out or wonder what I'm doing, the store to buy coal is 30 steps from my house, I have access to olanzapine because of my psychotic father, I can go get a prescription for lorazepam, that's it.
I wish you good luck and hope you find the peace that you've been looking for.
 
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is a 5000ppm still good?
5000ppm of CO will still kill you, but it will take longer. If you get an analyzer that only measures up to 5000ppm, and you "top" it out, you can only be assured that the level you've created is at least 5000ppm, but you can't be certain it's more. With lower concentrations of CO, you're more likely to suffer, and be aware of, the side effects like nausea and severe headache. The benefit of a higher level of CO, 10000ppm or more, is that it renders you unconscious quickly, so that everything that comes after (unpleasant symotoms) you won't be aware of. You sort of just fall asleep after a few breaths and then just die while unconscious. Kinda like dying in your sleep.
 
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5000ppm of CO will still kill you, but it will take longer. If you get an analyzer that only measures up to 5000ppm, and you "top" it out, you can only be assured that the level you've created is at least 5000ppm, but you can't be certain it's more. With lower concentrations of CO, you're more likely to suffer, and be aware of, the side effects like nausea and severe headache. The benefit of a higher level of CO, 10000ppm or more, is that it renders you unconscious quickly, so that everything that comes after (unpleasant symotoms) you won't be aware of. You sort of just fall asleep after a few breaths and then just die while unconscious. Kinda like dying in your sleep.
this is why i will use olanzapine and lorazepam hours before to give me drowsy effect, i read on some news people who were sleeping and then died without realizing anything
 
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Villager_37

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Sep 21, 2023
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Looks like you put a lot of thoughts into this, good job. Still, when it actually comes it might go off the rails, SI is a powerful thing, making the impossible things possible. Good luck and, safe travels.
 
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this is why i will use olanzapine and lorazepam hours before to give me drowsy effect, i read on some news people who were sleeping and then died without realizing anything
Sleeping without realizing anything is the ideal way. You need to be careful so that you don't get too sleepy and make mistakes, though. Yeah, every year during Winter, many people die in their homes accidentally while sleeping due to CO exposure caused by blockages in chimneys and faulty furnaces.
 
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Sleeping without realizing anything is the ideal way. You need to be careful so that you don't get too sleepy and make mistakes, though. Yeah, every year during Winter, many people die in their homes accidentally while sleeping due to CO exposure caused by blockages in chimneys and faulty furnaces.
I will try to take all precautions, of course I will try a test first and then I will do it in the end. This is the only way out I have if I fail, I will probably live this pathetic life tormenting myself forever, I do not have the courage to throw myself off the bridge or cut my throat, this is the only way out.
 
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I will try to take all precautions, of course I will try a test first and then I will do it in the end. This is the only way out I have if I fail, I will probably live this pathetic life tormenting myself forever, I do not have the courage to throw myself off the bridge or cut my throat, this is the only way out.
How do you plan to "test" this method?
 
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How do you plan to "test" this method?
I will test first, putting the carbon in the trunk of the car and I will put the CO analyzer near the rear window and I will wait outside, if I see that the CO increases it means that it works and I will do it again the next day or the same day, if it does not work it means that I have done something wrong.
 

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