
Sockeye Salmon
Student
- Mar 28, 2018
- 133
I'm just lonely, that's all.
You know how your if your friends start meeting other people, getting new relationships, they end up spending time with them and progressively less time with you instead? Well that's what I'm feeling. Theoretically it should apply to me as well. Even if my small group of friends are starting to less time with me, I should have another group/ of friends that I spend time with instead, right? Well, no. I'm just all alone by myself.
Oh, alright. Some people might not have a lot of friends irl, but have lots of friends or even followings online. Well I don't have friends online either. Friendship, let alone relationship, feels like a fantasy at this point.
It feels like as time goes on, it takes longer for new people to get into my life, and faster for the ones that are already in my life to leave it. It feels like, at this rate, that one day that I'm just going to end up completely alone with all the people already leaving my life. I could scream out loud and no one would even bat an eye. I guess on the flip side that if I were to CTB, then no one would be negatively affected, or at least only be affected a little.
I don't know what to say anymore.
You know how your if your friends start meeting other people, getting new relationships, they end up spending time with them and progressively less time with you instead? Well that's what I'm feeling. Theoretically it should apply to me as well. Even if my small group of friends are starting to less time with me, I should have another group/ of friends that I spend time with instead, right? Well, no. I'm just all alone by myself.
Oh, alright. Some people might not have a lot of friends irl, but have lots of friends or even followings online. Well I don't have friends online either. Friendship, let alone relationship, feels like a fantasy at this point.
It feels like as time goes on, it takes longer for new people to get into my life, and faster for the ones that are already in my life to leave it. It feels like, at this rate, that one day that I'm just going to end up completely alone with all the people already leaving my life. I could scream out loud and no one would even bat an eye. I guess on the flip side that if I were to CTB, then no one would be negatively affected, or at least only be affected a little.
I don't know what to say anymore.