
PurpleParadigm
The glow is an illusion
- Mar 22, 2023
- 201
Hello,
Thanks to the kind and helpful users of this forum I have received the source for SN from IC. I am based in the UK. For scientific purposes I will be tracking my progress getting it in this thread.
I will place my order today*
Once the order is in place I will update you in this thread on anything that happens between that moment and when I have SN on hand.
My reasons to go are as follows in short (but feel free to ask for details):
I am open to pro choice and pro life comments as long as they are rational and not "life is the greatest gift" etc. etc.
Finally, I am not comfortable sharing the SN source myself but please feel free to ask in this thread so that other users can assist.
Thank you, and stay tuned!
*(I have a very severe, and still untreated ADHD because NHS is slow as fk so following up on tasks in timely manner is becoming harder and harder but I'll try)
Thanks to the kind and helpful users of this forum I have received the source for SN from IC. I am based in the UK. For scientific purposes I will be tracking my progress getting it in this thread.
I will place my order today*
Once the order is in place I will update you in this thread on anything that happens between that moment and when I have SN on hand.
My reasons to go are as follows in short (but feel free to ask for details):
Discovering that I have undiagnosed ADHD/anxiety/depression, it has caused so much damage to me just trying to do normal life goals. For so long I was outright abusive to myself trying to do what my peers were doing, when in reality I simply needed medical help. Still not treated but getting worse due to stress. I was directly affected by Ukraine war and had to get my parents to safety, and the economic crisis in the UK is threatening to separate me from my partner. My mental health negatively affected my career and because of added financial burden I am now leaving the job in an area I always wanted to work in for another higher paying but much less secure and much more demanding one. The problem? It was an impulse decision, no way in fuck I'll be able to do it nor do I want it. Like, why the fuck did I do that? Also I pretty much lost contact with most of my friends by now because I keep acting impulsive, restless, doing things for reasons I don't understand and being highly averse to any social interaction. I only have energy left to behave and act presentable and "normal" to my beloved partner and parents. I'll let them down soon it seems, but I want to show them myself at my best until then. In addition to that my Russian heritage keeps causing problems, for example security clearances are tricky, I can't go do defence industry jobs where most of the openings for my area of expertise are because of dual citizenship (I can't even easily get rid of it now because I need to turn up to the Russian consulate but it feels dangerous and also fuck that place) and in addition to that I have a physical disability I didn't need to have because doctors in Russia when I was a kid didn't fully know how to deal with a desease I had so now I can't drive etc. I barely got my parents out but they still aren't fully safe. Seriously fuck everything Russia has done and doing.
I am open to pro choice and pro life comments as long as they are rational and not "life is the greatest gift" etc. etc.
Finally, I am not comfortable sharing the SN source myself but please feel free to ask in this thread so that other users can assist.
Thank you, and stay tuned!
*(I have a very severe, and still untreated ADHD because NHS is slow as fk so following up on tasks in timely manner is becoming harder and harder but I'll try)
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