
BabyFears
The weak are meat and the strong do eat
- May 9, 2021
- 34
I'm a student in law school and I spend my days studying cases. I do believe in justice, I like to think that the world is slowly getting better, fairer. I know it's not perfect right now but it would be lying to say it was better back in the years. That's one reason I decided to study law, I want to help people and protect them from how this world can abuse them.
But when I read some cases, I just wonder how people can be so evil. My classes are the dark and putrid part of humankind. I feel so disgusted sometimes and I just wonder how I can keep living in this world when so many awful things happen. Yesterday I almost cried during my lecture, we were talking about a case where journalists thought it would be great to publish on front cover of their magazine a photo of a man tortured. I didn't see the picture but the judge described it in the case and so my teacher read it to the all of us. I think it was worse than seeing it. What disgusted me the most in that story is what the journalists did. The man died after being tortured for days, he was a human being with a family and feelings and they published a picture of him all beaten up and desperate to end it all on title page. How can people can be so emotionless ? Is it really all about selling their magazines ?
I guess being depressed is also making me more sensitive and sometimes it's hard to read all details of cases like that. It just makes me sad and mad at the same time. I feel so powerless to all the suffering of this world. I can't face all the evil people walking Earth, I can't understand how people can grow to be so malevolent. I don't want to belong to that kind of world, I don't want to see myself become as emotionless as those journalists. I feel so much hate for this world
But when I read some cases, I just wonder how people can be so evil. My classes are the dark and putrid part of humankind. I feel so disgusted sometimes and I just wonder how I can keep living in this world when so many awful things happen. Yesterday I almost cried during my lecture, we were talking about a case where journalists thought it would be great to publish on front cover of their magazine a photo of a man tortured. I didn't see the picture but the judge described it in the case and so my teacher read it to the all of us. I think it was worse than seeing it. What disgusted me the most in that story is what the journalists did. The man died after being tortured for days, he was a human being with a family and feelings and they published a picture of him all beaten up and desperate to end it all on title page. How can people can be so emotionless ? Is it really all about selling their magazines ?
I guess being depressed is also making me more sensitive and sometimes it's hard to read all details of cases like that. It just makes me sad and mad at the same time. I feel so powerless to all the suffering of this world. I can't face all the evil people walking Earth, I can't understand how people can grow to be so malevolent. I don't want to belong to that kind of world, I don't want to see myself become as emotionless as those journalists. I feel so much hate for this world