Venting Welfare check completely destroyed my trust in my therapist

[willitpass]

I started my first session with this therapist telling her that I have high chronic suicidal thinking and did not want a therapist who was going to just call 911 in a panic. She assured me she was comfortable with that and was not going to do anything rash and understood I have a high baseline. I have been doing rough lately, and my suicidal thoughts have been worse, however I was actually feeling okay today and was looking forward to a session to be able to process through some other things. She had me fill out a suicide risk screener prior to our session, however those are not an accurate risk assessment for me because as I stated, she is aware of my high chronic suicidal thoughts. I came into session and pretty much immediately she said I needed to get someone to take me to the ER or she would call 911. I told her I didn't need to go, I was not going to do anything, and I felt plenty safe to go home. After about 10 minutes she made it clear she was not going to change her mind. I left and went home. Obviously I got welfare checked.

She knows my trauma with hospitals. She assured me she was comfortable with my high suicidal thinking from the get go. And while I've been doing worse lately, I was actually doing decent today. I have not reached a point of even actively planning a date to CTB. My eating disorder has been bad, including laxative abuse, but I am not medically unstable yet. I have not been self-harming. And when I say there is not a damn thing a hospital can do for me anymore, that is no exaggeration. I have no trust in her. I don't think I will be returning to therapy.

 

[CravingPeace]

Definitely don't return to her. She clearly can't keep her word.

 

[bankai]

Quite unprofessional and absurd. Therapists aren't supposed to force you into anything. They aren't supposed to take unilateral decisions. They've got to work with you.




Also, what's this about laxative abuse? Does it have anything to do with your username?

 

[Rynalia]

Bail and never look back. A therapist that can't respect you nor work with you is not worth your time nor your money.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, I'd say any trust you had with them is certainly broken now.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

Also, what's this about laxative abuse? Does it have anything to do with your username?

Laxative abuse is quite common among people with eating disorders, because of the desire to feel empty/lighter. I don't have an ED and thus don't want to misrepresent anything, but this is my understanding.

 

[Mooncry]

If this happened to me, I would be livid and feel so blindsided. I'd never touch that therapist again with a 10 ft pole.

 

[SVEN]

Health professionals gonna do what health professionals do. My experience, they usually have more loyalty to their peer group (and professional standards) than the clients who come and go.

 

[Z-A]

ChatGPT is the best therapist (no jokes), has all the knowledge, very advanced and emotionally intelligent, non judgmental and neutral, straight to the facts. The only difference is that you're not talking to another human, which doesn't make that much difference since most therapists talk like robots anyways and show no empathy and also on top of that, unlike humans, it doesn't call 911 and/or share your secrets.

 

[bankai]

Laxative abuse is quite common among people with eating disorders, because of the desire to feel empty/lighter. I don't have an ED and thus don't want to misrepresent anything, but this is my understanding.

Yes, but I also made a lighthearted joke about OP's username

 

[SilentSadness]

I don't know which health service or country you're from but you could try reporting the therapist for malpractice. Either way this is why I unfortunately strongly recommend keeping suicidal ideation a secret, suicidal people are just persecuted to an extreme degree in this society. I'm sorry you're in this terrible situation and it's not your fault no matter what they tell you.

 

[Douggy82]

If someone stabs you in the back hard enough, you can never repair trust.

 

[apearl]

I'm sorry that happened to you.
That was really unprofessional of her as a therapist to do that while she knows your condition of it being chronic and the trauma assosiated with hospitals. I've told my therapist that I straight up attempted and failed multiple times and she never tried any of that on me. I hope you can find other ways to help you cope. And while I respect your decision to not go to therapy after this (because that was an insane level of trust broken), if you ever do go back I hope you'll get someone better then her.

 

[Cress]

I started my first session with this therapist telling her that I have high chronic suicidal thinking and did not want a therapist who was going to just call 911 in a panic. She assured me she was comfortable with that and was not going to do anything rash and understood I have a high baseline. I have been doing rough lately, and my suicidal thoughts have been worse, however I was actually feeling okay today and was looking forward to a session to be able to process through some other things. She had me fill out a suicide risk screener prior to our session, however those are not an accurate risk assessment for me because as I stated, she is aware of my high chronic suicidal thoughts. I came into session and pretty much immediately she said I needed to get someone to take me to the ER or she would call 911. I told her I didn't need to go, I was not going to do anything, and I felt plenty safe to go home. After about 10 minutes she made it clear she was not going to change her mind. I left and went home. Obviously I got welfare checked.

She knows my trauma with hospitals. She assured me she was comfortable with my high suicidal thinking from the get go. And while I've been doing worse lately, I was actually doing decent today. I have not reached a point of even actively planning a date to CTB. My eating disorder has been bad, including laxative abuse, but I am not medically unstable yet. I have not been self-harming. And when I say there is not a damn thing a hospital can do for me anymore, that is no exaggeration. I have no trust in her. I don't think I will be returning to therapy.

I've been put in similar situations with therapists as I also have a high baseline or at least I did at the time. I would always just blacklist them and move on to the next therapist anytime they crossed that boundary of hospitalizing me. So they really needed to consider whether or not it was worth it or not as they were effectively ending working with me.

 

[imOK]

People in mental healthcare are very concerned with covering their asses legally. She probably considered you risky and simply wanted to get rid of you in the ethically most consistent way to not have the burden. Therapists are professionals and I do like my own therapist, but I do understand that she is not my friend and would not go out of the way to help me outside her professional role. I would never expect her to. It's just how it is.

I understand that you have special requirements but they just might be fundamentally incompatible with how most mental healthcare professionals operate.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Yup. Suicide is trouble. The have rules they have to follow.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I thought I replied to this for some reason. I'm so sorry WIP. Esp going in on a better day and wanting to talk through shit. She absolutely fucked up in being dishonest to such a degree. I would be bailing hard as fuck too. Thinking of you <3

 

[willitpass]

People in mental healthcare are very concerned with covering their asses legally. She probably considered you risky and simply wanted to get rid of you in the ethically most consistent way to not have the burden. Therapists are professionals and I do like my own therapist, but I do understand that she is not my friend and would not go out of the way to help me outside her professional role. I would never expect her to. It's just how it is.

I understand that you have special requirements but they just might be fundamentally incompatible with how most mental healthcare professionals operate.

I understand that, however having been in the mental healthcare system most of my life, and having been severely chronically suicidal for most of that time, I know there are providers who are willing to work with higher acuity cases. I would not go to a therapist who does not state that they specify in suicidal clients and expect them to be able to accommodate me. I initially chose this therapist because she states on her website that she does. From there, I went into the first session and immediately put it out there that I struggle from this and need a therapist who is willing to work with me where I am at. She herself told me that it was something she was comfortable with. I know the cover-your-ass mentality, but do not tell a client you are comfortable with their issues and then flip the switch in under a month.