Venting well that was fun while it lasted.

[elpurp]

i had a girl DM me around two months ago on pinterest and she wanted to be friends. fast forward a couple of weeks later, and we're dating. this makes my third long distance, and the first relationship i've had since 2020. this is also the happiest i've been all year. she lives somewhat far from me (~6hrs) but was determined to see me irl and she did.

she literally drove 6hrs to see me at my job but she didn't leave her car.

next thing i know, her account on chess (the website we've been using to talk) gets banned, and then she says we can't talk on pinterest anymore. i emailed her too but no she hasn't responded to anything since 5pm yesterday.

for a while, i was incredibly suicidal abt it and figured it was back to flirting with gooners to get crumbs of "i love you"s and such but now i'm just numb. and it seems like no amount of weed is helping me distract from her, and i should just give up on trying to love. and maybe the way i'm responding just goes to show that i wasn't ready in the first place.

 

[ThatRussianDude]

Just add alchohol to the weed. And try to chat up another girl.

 

[bia ♡]

Poor u...nobody deserves to be lovebombed like this. I feel u.