
drmihilo
desperate
- Jul 30, 2022
- 90
Chaos. I wish the world didn't exist
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i really just want to sh or ctb but i feel so stuck and i can't do neither of those things. i'm married but it feels that my husband no longer cares for me or our relationship. i can't talk to him or express myself to him without him trying to "fix" the problem or just not listening or not understanding me. i can't talk to anyone else about how i feel and i can't stand being here anymore. i feel no matter what i do it's not good enough and it's just been one bad thing after another lately. it just feels something or someone is out to get me. maybe myself, maybe god? i just don't want to perish.I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.
I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.
me too. me fucking too.I need a hug. Bad.
Me exactly. I can't sleep or finish a coherent thought. I want it all to just stop.Agitated and exhausted