Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[westerly_merlin]

Feeling adrift and unloved. Home life is a mess and at work there are political games being played at a senior level and they are ripping into me area. I am not good and reading situations where people are sabotaging others for thier own reasons.

I feel lost and overwhelmed

 

[BlendedHeart]

I use to pass the time doing things until it was time to sleep, but that isn't working anymore. Time is going slower somehow. Loneliness and pain are getting more intense.

Wish I could sleep forever.

 

[The Hermit]

Relieved that my dad did not bring B. over here tonight. So at least we have some semblance of peace.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Feeling adrift and unloved. Home life is a mess and at work there are political games being played at a senior level and they are ripping into me area. I am not good and reading situations where people are sabotaging others for thier own reasons.

I feel lost and overwhelmed

People shouldn't be sabotaging others in a workplace, and I think most people might find it hard to read the most cunning saboteurs.

I wonder if one might consider changing over to a different workplace.

 

[westerly_merlin]

People shouldn't be sabotaging others in a workplace, and I think most people might find it hard to read the most cunning saboteurs.

I wonder if one might consider changing over to a different workplace.

Easier said than done at my age. I am 58 and not sure if I am ready to up sticks and start again.

Plus in my past I have worked at some really toxic companies that encourage that sort of behaviour as they think it encourages employees to perform better.

Where I am things are not as bad as most other companies, i am probably better off sticking it out for the time being in the hope that things get better.

 

[EmptyBottle]

feeling nice, cool nap too.

Spoiler: dream log entry

Slept from around 8:30pm to 10:30pm, temp reasonable with light clothes and medium blanket, 21C?, 20C. Logged from around 11:30pm to 11:35pm.
Scene of using discord in dark mode, %rf% user was wanting to bypass %pf% or similar age restrictions.
Unpacked grey bag, and in side pockets, found green dice with black numbers, and potentially 3d printed curves, some orange block maybe, and other items. May have rolled dice. "Woke" to %s watching %d cooking beef on stove, and talking.

 

[Dejected 55]

Fucking miserable. I didn't want to get out of bed today, but I did anyway. I'll probably eat soon because I bought food and should eat it. I don't enjoy eating anymore, it's just a thing I do to pass time really. Food mostly tastes bland now to me. Everything seems just a little worse every day. All the shoes are going to be falling soon, the last of the rugs will be pulled out, and the ground will start crumbling beneath me.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I was alive under the expectation that I would fulfill the planned path, but as I deviate farther from that path, I feel as if my time is coming to an end. If I can't reach my destination, then I'm of no use living. As I sleep and wake up, getting farther and farther away from my destination, I feel my time on this earth is coming to an end. I am sad about this, but I know it to be inevitable. Soon, I will be discarded of because a machine has no need for faulty parts.

 

[dead dav]

Exhausted I don't know why I keep struggling