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Octavia

Octavia

“I’d… rather kill myself.”
Mar 4, 2023
363
"My world is burning down around me", by Fck You Dad. It's a band.

 
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777

I'm so tired, I can't sleep
Oct 15, 2022
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aubrey!

internet angel
Mar 11, 2023
147
anyone like this kinda emo stuff? i love modern baseball..
 
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AtheistCDsissy

Falling off the edge of the world...
Mar 6, 2023
34
 
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Sulyya

Sulyya

Synergist
Mar 6, 2023
542
Almost every time this thread is bumped to the top and I see it, I'm reminded that I'm currently sitting in total silence.

Putting on Seven Waves album by Suzanne Ciani
 
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Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Theory Of A Deadman-Two Of Us (Stuck) :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:










Just the two of us
We couldn't make it if we tried
Just the two of us
Our love died

Look I don't want a war
I just want a warning
Next time you're gonna freak out
Turns out you're a fighter not a lover you're the worst
Then
You say I never fuckin' listen
But I'm tired
That I make up situations
I'm a liar
Sometimes ya wanna take a lighter to the curtains
Let us burn

How somebody could be so pretty
And be so ugly on the inside yeah
How somebody could be so shitty to me

Just the two of us
We couldn't make it if we tried
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Ain't gonna make it out alive
Just the two of us
Our love died

Like the take-out on the counter we've turned
We've being eaten by flies and worms
'Cause we're rotten to the core and these words you're sayin'
They hurt

We've snapped
Like the keys in the lock
Stuck inside
Where our lives and our dreams go to die
Rigor-fuckin'-mortus outta time goodbye
You and I

Just the two of us
We couldn't make it if we tried
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Ain't gonna make it out alive
Just the two of us
Our love died

How somebody could be so pretty
And be so ugly on the inside yeah
How somebody could be so shitty to me
You said
How somebody could act so petty
Then pretend to be a nice guy yeah
How somebody could be so shitty to me

Stuck in solitary with you
Being dead so long we're turning blue
And I dunno what to do
'Cause we are stuck

Just the two of us
We couldn't make it if we tried
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Ain't gonna make it out alive
Just the two of us
Our love died​
 
C

CuriousAboutThis

Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
Dec 30, 2018
533


This is what I am listening to right now about to replay it
 
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Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,180


Dutch band from my teens 💜
 
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Godsmack-Soul On Fire :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









A-one, two, three, four

In the end, there will come a time, my friend
I'm gonna break you wide open, I didn't see this side unfolding
Hey, I can't wait for you to make up your mind
I need to take you every time, I'm self-destructing

Help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time this time
I need you in the worst way, oh, baby
I'd set my soul on fire
Help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time this time
I need you in the worst way, oh, baby
I'd set my soul on fire

Listening, I can hear thosе thoughts you think
Every word you wanna speak, just let it go and dеvour me
I can't control my mind, it's spinning me out every time
It fuels my fire within, why won't you let me in? Oh, yeah, yeah

Help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time this time
I need you in the worst way, oh, ba
I'd set my soul on fir
Help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time this time
I need you in the worst way, oh, baby
I'd set my soul on fire

Go

Oh, help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time this time
I need you in the worst way, oh, baby
I'd set my soul on fire
Help me, help me
I'm begging you a long time
I need you in the worst way
I'd set my soul on fire
[Outro]
I'd set my soul on fire
Yeah, yeah, yeah, on fire
 
TransilvanianHunger

TransilvanianHunger

Grave with a view...
Jan 22, 2023
363
'Cause everything's been feeling grey, like joy and pain don't want to stay, for years it seems it's been this way, but I seem OK.

YVA - Missing Me.

 
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Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Metallica-Screaming Suicide :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









Welcome to this life
Born into the fight
Here to claim your dream
Look you in the eye
Patch the broken sky
Craving dopamine

Then my voice appears
Teaching you of fears
Are you good enough?
You don't recognize
Head is full of lies
You should just give up

Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well

Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide

Curse another day
Spirit locked away
Punish and deprive
Hate to be awake
Living a mistake
More dead than alive

Then a voice appears
Whisper in your ears
"You are good enough"
Throwing down a rope
A lifeline of hope
Never give you up

Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well

Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide

Terrified in sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind

My lying voice inside
Keeps drinking cyanide
And no more can you run
Into the sun

Terrified, sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind

And now you speak my name
You've given back the blame
Keep me deep inside
Don't you keep me inside
Screaming suicide

Now that I'm exposed inside
Shined a light on cyanide
I'm no longer needed here
Now you've faced your biggest fear
 
Sulyya

Sulyya

Synergist
Mar 6, 2023
542
Listening to some Static-X. Going to see them this week
 
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Tired&Drained

Trans and tired
Apr 17, 2022
18
I listen to a lot of Britney Spears, I usually set my phone to shuffle her music while I'm in the shower. Other than showering though the music I like to listen to depends a lot on my mood, the song I listen to when I wanna just dive headfirst into that void inside me and cry is Kettering by The Antlers it's so incredibly haunting.
 
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perlucidum

Member
Mar 21, 2023
5






these in the past 24 hours..
 
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Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Avatar-The Dirt I'm Burried In :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:










Once upon a highway
Lost among the lights of neon tribes
I used to be a part of you
You used me and I used you too
You took me to the desert
Desecrated, desperate prey, oh yeah
You took me to the desert
I smoke the blackened tissue
High inside the church of the neon lights
I grease my limbs and enter you
The engine roars as engines do
The pressure we are under
Unmarked grave, the undead reign, oh yeah
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
An unknown destination
Tied up in the trunk of a stolen ride
I've never seen a sky so red
Just one more try before we're dead
The ashes in our nostrils
Ask for nothing, act like you're okay
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
A crushing wave
Upon the rocks
A shallow grave
On the coast
I'll wait
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Silent Theory-Agony :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:











Now it makes sense
Nothing but the height will test the tension less
It makes me sick (makes me sick)
Now it makes sense
Torn apart at every edge
Just to find where I fit

I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!

I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down

Oh don't get in my ways
From way up here the fear
Takes the weight off my chest
(Off my chest)
Again it made sense

When I forced the piece to fit the image stuck in my head
I found I have nothing to gain
I can't get out of my way
How am I going to change?
It's up to me!

I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down

Stumbling and staggering deeper into a tragedy
It's killing me and honestly dragging me through the happening
If all I'm ever given is maybe some commonalities
(I won't let you down)

Give me just a second I'm taking it in imagining
That everything I'm gathering's shattering my reality
It's giving me a feeling its motive is to dismantle me
(And I won't let you down)

I won't let you down!
I couldn't take the word of gravity
As I reached out
All the way down
I had to feel the awkward agony
As I cursed out in vain
At the wings that had let me down

I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of
I couldn't take the word of gravity
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the
And now I'm stuck here in the agony

Let me down
Let me down
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,573
MARRS-Pump Up The Volume :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:











Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
(Check it out!)

(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)

(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump that thing!)

(Brothers and sisters)
Pump up the volume
(We gonna get ya!)

(Brothers and sisters!)
Pump up the volume
(Pump, pump, pump, pump me up!)

(Rock the house!)
(Rock the house!)

(Ah, yeah!)

(Ah, yeah!)

(Do it!)
(Do it! Do it!)

(Yeah-da-yeah!)

(Yeah-da-yeah!)

(Now go down, now, now go down)
(Now go down)

(What ya mean?)
(What ya mean?)
(Ow!)
(Let's do it!)
(Do it!)
(Do it!)
Do it!)
(Ow!)
Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance

(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)
(Automatic, push back)
(Automatic, push back, won't get chosen)
(Systematic, genetic, command your soul)

It's just-oh!
It's just-oh!
It's just-oh! It's just-oh!
It's ju- it's ju- it's just begun!
Oh!

(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(Put the needle on the record)
(When the drumbeats go like this!)

Pump up the volume, pump up the volume, pump up the volume
Dance, dance

(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Din, din, din)
(Da-do-ee-oh)

Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
Pump up the volume
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump... pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump up)
(Pump, pump, pump up)

Pump up the volume
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,573
From Ashes To New-Hate Me Too :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:










I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too

I wish that I could see
You're not the one for me
I lost the old you, lost the old me
Found the misery
I wish that you believed
We'll never change a thing
'Cause we been reckless and this mess is
Fucking killing me

Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that

I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too

I wish I had a clue
'Cause you're like a bad tattoo
Yeah I was stupid, can't remove it
Now I'm stuck with you
I wish we would've known
'Cause we're going up in smoke
Just strike the match and turn our backs
Burn down this broken home

Every day sucks when we try to make up
I wanna take drugs so I never wake up
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up that

I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too

I wanna get high, yeah, I wanna stay numb
The love never works like the cocaine does
I wanna get away, I'll never get away
I'll tell ya to your face, I'll tell ya straight up

I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too

I wish I hated you
And after all this shit you should hate me too
We scream 'til we choke, our hearts in our throats
We just can't let it go, woah
I wish I hated you
And you should hate me too
You should hate me too
You should hate me too

And you should hate me too​
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,573
Underoath-Let Go :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









Teach me to let go

I'm overrated and insecure
I keep on running but there's never a door

Nothing's changed, I feel the same
I'm the one to blame
So hear me out
I can dance up against the flame
I've given up on what they say is safe
I've always felt a little better this way

What's the use when nothing's new?
Is there any truth?
Oh God I'm begging you
I could use a little peace these days
Any help to sleep it all away

I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame

I wish I could just wake me up
Then I could just save myself from you
I know it doesn't make sense to you
It's just the empty thing I have to do
Overrated, overrated (No hope)
Tie me up, so tie me up (With no rope)
So say the words that you have to say
Even though I'm not listening

I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame

You don't have to remind me
I know I'm a failure now
I wish you'd ignore me
'Cause I'll only bring you down
I'm the one that falls apart
I'm the one that breaks your heart
I'm living in the dark

You don't have to remind me (I fall apart)
I know I'm a failure now (I break your heart)
I wish you'd ignore me (I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)
'Cause I'll only bring you down
(I break your heart, I fall apart)

Pull myself out the lifeboat
Tie myself up with no rope
Go to heaven with no hope
Won't you teach me to let go?

Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go
Teach me to let go

I'm alive but blue with distance
I'm a little too far to save
I'd ask for help but I don't deserve it
Is your world better off this way?
I can carry all the blame
I can carry all the blame
 

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