hello buddies i have just woken up early as i have an urgent matter to attend to, really not excited at all. honestly kind of terrified. but i'm not there yet so i'm replying to everyone while i'm on the bus..
I been distracting myself from my own thoughts by studying lol, THANK YOU THOUGH
oh i never thought of studying to distract yourself but i could totally get behind it, do you have any tips for studying if you consider yourself "good" at it?
wish i could do the same but i have to be up in 2 hours anyways. i would like to agree but me personally i just can't call league "fun" lmaoo. i wouldn't recommend melatonin from my experience because 1. it's barely had an effect on my insomnia 2. you become more tolerant and dependent on it
i hear you on league like i only recently started finding it "fun" again .. and yeah for sure i really shouldn't be using melatonin but damn idk if i have more energy than normal or what but nothing closes my eyes :/
Just as usual, suffering in existence and wishing to be dead
yeah i really feel that, i hope you can do things you enjoy inbetween all the suffering at the very least :(
Watching all the horror movies I couldnt finish on Halloween. Especially the slashers are fun, I always imagine its me when someones throat is slit lol
that sounds pretty fun, even the envisioning of yourself being the victim LOL what was your favorite movie this halloween?
When I get home from work I'm taking weed. I only have microdoses I'm trying to ration so I'm fasting and following tips for a stronger high. Haven't taken weed for a month, so I'm super excited to let go.
i hope you got super fried when you got to smoke, it's really hard for me to be without weed for even a week.. it's pretty shite but i do like smoking so, i guess it's not that bad?
Just hoping and wishing for non-existence which is all I ever wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence at all, only never existing again is desirable to me, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me which is why I find it so painful how I cannot just choose to fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep.
yeah i hear you :( it really is brutal out here alot more than people give it credit for, i wish people could drift off into a neverending sleep on command, i can only imagine how many people would choose to "sleep" it would just be too easy... i hope you can still find some relaxation in the midst of everything, if that's even possible at this point
I wish I could stayed in bed, but I have to work.
i hate how humans have to work like i get why we do of course but at the same time it just feels so brutal to deal with work and all the negatives that come with it like coworkers and shit like that.. i hope you had a smooth day at work, i can't even find a job rn ha.. atleast you can get some bucks for your time
Well, this weekend I want to walk, listen to music, read (now that I seem to have more time). I will also continue to think about what I am in this life for.
all of that sounds pretty peaceful, i don't go on enough walks i'm usually stuck indoors burning my eyes with my computer screen.. i hope you can have a nice introspective time today! lmk if you figure anything out :)
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it's really nice to read all of your responses, it certainly makes life feel a bit less lonely to see it all.. i hope everyone can find some peace this weekend. i'm gonna be meeting with my girlfriend after a long period of silence and i just hope i can resolve things but man idfk what's going on anymore
also I chose this course because it seemed like the best one for someone who doesn't really have goals/dreams don't really think I'm gonna make it through the whole thing though
honestly don't think I'd spend the money on anything big though
